We Don't Recover From Grief, and that's Okay

Understanding Grief / Understanding Grief : Eleanor Haley

After some discussion with our insightful readers, we're adding a brief preface to this article.  We feel it's important to clarify upfront that when we say we don't recover from grief or experience "grief recovery", we do NOT mean that we don't recover from the intense pain of loss. It is important for all grieving people - despite their loss and experiences - to believe in the hope for healing. No one should expect to live with the anguish associated with acute grief forever.

Our belief is that grief encompasses more than just pain. We believe that over time grief changes shape and involves many different experiences and emotions - some of these experiences may be painful - like a milestone or the anniversary of a loved one's death - but some of them may be comforting - like warm memories and the enduring role that your loved one plays in your life. With that, the original article is presented below.

I need to tell you that, in the face of significant loss, we don’t “recover” from grief.

Yes, I'm using the royal "we" because you and I are all a part of this club.

I also need to tell you that that not recovering from grief doesn’t doom you to a life of despair. Let me reassure you, there are millions of people out there, right now, living normal and purposeful lives while also experiencing ongoing grief.

All the things you've heard about getting over grief, going back to normal, and moving on – they are misrepresentations of what it means to love someone who has died. I'm sorry, I know us human-people appreciate things like closure and resolution, but this isn't how grief goes.

This isn’t to say that “recovery” doesn't have a place in grief – it’s simply ‘what’ we’re recovering from that needs to be redefined. To "recover" means to return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength, and as many would attest, when someone very significant dies, we never return to a pre-loss “normal”. The loss, the person who died, our grief – they all get integrated into our lives and they profoundly change how we live and experience the world.

What will, hopefully, return to a general baseline is the level of intense emotion, stress, and distress that a person experiences in the weeks and months following their loss.  So perhaps we recover from the intense distress of grief, but we don’t recover from the grief itself.

Now you could say that I’m getting caught up in semantics, but sometimes semantics matter.  Especially, when trying to describe an experience that, for so many, is unfamiliar and frightening. Grief is one of those experiences you can never fully understand until you actually experience it and, until that time, all a person has to go on is what they’ve observed and what they’ve been told.

The words we use to label and describe grief matter and, in many ways, these words have been getting us into trouble for decades. In the context of grief, words like denial, detachment, unresolved, recovery, and acceptance (to name a few) could be interpreted many different ways and some of these interpretations offer false impressions and false promises.

Interestingly, when many of these words were first used by grief theorists starting in the early 20th century, their intent was to help describe grief.  I have no doubt that in the contexts in which they were working, these words and their operational definitions were useful and effective. It's when these descriptions reach our broader society without explanation or nuance, or when they are misapplied by those who position themselves as experts – that they go terribly awry.

So going back to the beginning, we don't recover from grief after the loss of someone significant.  Grief is born when someone significant dies – and as long as that person remains significant – grief will remain.

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Ongoing grief is normal, not dysfunctional. It's also not dysfunctional to experience unpleasant grief-related thoughts and emotions from time-to-time sometimes even years later. Humans are meant to experience both sides of the emotional spectrum - not just the warm and fuzzy half. As grieving people, this is especially true. Where there are things like love, appreciation, and fond memory, there will also be sadness, yearning, and pain. And though these experiences seem in opposition to one another, we can experience them all at the same time.

Sure, people may push you to stop feeling the pain, but this is misguided. If the pain always exists, it makes sense, because there will never come a day when you won't wish for one more moment, one more conversation, one last hello, or one last goodbye. You learn to live with these wishes and you learn to accept that they won't come true - not here on Earth - but you still wish for them.

And let me reassure you, experiencing pain doesn't negate the potential for healing.  With constructive coping and maybe a little support, the intensity of your distress will lessen and your healing will evolve over time. Though there will be many ups and downs, you should eventually reach a place where you're having just as many good days as bad...and then perhaps more good days than bad...until one day you may find that your bad grief days are few and far between.

But the grief, it's always there, like an old injury that aches when it rains.  And though this prospect may be scary in the early days of grief, I think in time you'll find that you wouldn't have it any other way. Grief is an expression of love - these things grow from the same seed.  Grief becomes a part of how we love a person despite their physical absence; it helps connect us to memories of the past; it bonds us with others through our shared humanity, and it helps provide perspective on our immense capacity for finding strength and wisdom in the most difficult of times.

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  1. Susan  January 31, 2024 at 7:29 am Reply

    Hello all,
    Thank you for this article, I recently lost my older sister going on 2 years to Cirrhosis. Her death was unexpected & frightening as I felt so lost. She has 3 sons & as a aunt who had never really been there for them, birthday’s, special occasions, etc. The pain is tremendously overwhelming. I’ve been researching & getting help through a mental health facility as Iam Bipolar & require medication. I also lost my mom to Cirrhosis in 2010 & was there for her in her last 2 months. Her passing was quite traumatizing. All I could do was hold her hand & make sure she knew I was there and she wasn’t alone. Unfortunately my siblings were unable to come see her passing on & that’s ok now, we all grieve differently. After my mom passed it was so scary and difficult to get back to my normal life in living with her gone. We had unresolved issues and I felt so hopeless knowing I wouldn’t be able to say I’m sorry. See I lost my only big brother & my mom’s only son to a drunk driving accident on 4th of July 1994. Unfortunately I unknowingly was watching television & witnessed the news coverage of his accident & I am to this day traumatized and unable to let him go as we were very close, he was only 18yrs old. After he passed my mom went to live on the streets and I was living alone in the trailer. Everyone had been moving on.
    I’ve been call dramatic, cruel, mean, selfish, crazy, fake, and use my mental health as well. I’ve even been told to get over it & let it go. My brother is one person I can not process to “let go” even at 43yrs old thinking of him chokes me up inside. So now that I’m really researching grief for my nephews and my own family this article helped me feel ok with my own grieving. I often felt so ashamed for my grief and not being strong enough to “let go”

    Thank you again to all of us for sharing

  2. wendy k  August 6, 2022 at 2:42 pm Reply

    Since 2020 July 10 when my mom passed I have lost interest to apply for a job not going to church when I woke up in the morning I would ask myself why am I living i I’m lonely.I wish I’m where my mom is life without her is so difficult .

    • Patricia Cole  November 2, 2022 at 8:21 pm Reply

      Hi Wendy,
      I am very sorry to hear of the loss of your mother in 2020 and my heart goes out to you. I understand that this time can be incredibly confusing and comes with an abundance of overwhelming emotions, including thoughts around what it would be like where they are now. Many often have similar thoughts soon after major loss and I want you to know that you are not alone. Understanding these thoughts and talking them through with trusted loved ones or professionals in grief support groups/counseling can also be very beneficial when facing grief after the death of a loved one. Please know our page is always here to provide support. I have included some resources from our website and other organizations below.
      24/7 Crisis Hotline
      Crisis Text Line
      Times Like These, I Wish You Were HereI Am Still Your Daughter…You are Still my Mother


    • Saundra  February 20, 2023 at 8:13 am Reply

      Dear Wendy, I am so sorry that you are in such a state of grief missing your mother and I truly understand. Your grief is left over love and you will always have some for a significant person in your life . In time the feelings will be less intense and you will go in and feel joy as well again—It doesn’t feel that way and I too have wished I didn’t have to feel or think another minute about a loss, it is so deeply painful and feels as if it will be this way forever when you are experiencing the sorrow and the yearning. I just want you to know that I understand, and many understand, and as human beings we have to help one another and not try to talk people out of their grief but know that it will take over less and less of your life as time passes—it is hard to believe but I know it is true . I don’t know you but I know the thoughts and feelings you are having and how much love there is in your heart for your mother. Saundra

  3. wendy k  August 6, 2022 at 2:21 pm Reply

    I lost my mother 2 years ago I’m still hurting last month July 10 we had a family gathering I couldn’t control myself I was crying almost the whole day.I miss her so much she was my bestie I don’t know why am living

    • Patricia Cole  November 9, 2022 at 10:43 am Reply

      Hi Wendy,
      I came across your comment and wanted to express that my heart goes out to you in the loss of your mother. The loss of a parent can leave us with lots of questions and thoughts about our life here now that they are gone. This often stems from the love we held for that individual and the life we shared with them. Finding ways to incorporate your mother into your daily life and live in ways that she would can be one tool in helping live alongside your grief. Cooking recipes she loved, visiting her favorite places or simply just thinking of her are ways to continue your relationship with her. As I said before, it is very common to question our purpose after experiencing a major loss and I understand this can be uncomfortable. Many pursue therapy or grief counseling/groups to address questions such as these and please know resources are available to help you in this process if you choose. I have included a few articles as well as some resources that I hope will help you during this time. I wish you all the warmth and kindness.

      Crisis Text Line
      Grief Recipe Stories: Orange Scones
      Change, Identity Loss, and Grief
      Creative Tools for Coping With Grief

  4. Michelina D  July 30, 2022 at 12:34 pm Reply

    Hello! I’m at work browsing your blog from my new apple iphone! Just wanted to say I love reading your blog and look forward to all your posts! Keep up the outstanding work!

  5. Don Davies  May 22, 2022 at 10:14 am Reply

    Such writings and sermons on grieving are extremely significant since most of us have no concept how to cope with or connect with those who are in mourning. That is why we need to read more books and sermons by Pastors like Keion Henderson,(link redacted per site guidelines) to learn more about this circumstance, how to console others in grieving, and how to deal with grief on our own.

  6. TcKlm  April 19, 2022 at 3:03 am Reply

    I’ve been crippled by the pain of her leaving for so long it’s getting hard to remember life before she left my world so coldly. How can I remember to be happy again when the ghost of her haunts my thoughts and the pain of leaving without a word or a single glace takes so much strength to face eveyday, whats the point of stuggling when she took all my love and hope with her, she may be the one who left but I feel like the ghost living in memories of the life I thought we’d always share.

  7. Lilah  April 11, 2022 at 12:36 pm Reply

    I have a comment and a question. My grief has a different source. My husband of 37 years — a total of more than 40 years together — suddenly left me two years ago for a woman he had met six weeks before. My sense of trauma was overwhelming and the grief was crippling and then things got a lot better and now, at the age of 68, I have a wonderful new job, an astonishing new creative opportunity and a phenomenal new partner. I was made by friends, family and circumstances to realize the many issues my ex had, and I am happier and feeling more loved and loving than I did the last 20 years of my marriage.

    That doesn’t mean the grief or sense of trauma left me. It is a part of me every day, almost every moment. I have come to realize that, in a way, it makes my life richer to have both the grief and the happiness together. The loss of my innocent family with three adult kids is forever. We still have a closing and loving family (without him). I am very glad to see this article bring up the idea that we’re perhaps to eager to shed our grief, or pretend that we can.

    So here is my question. Having just visited my in-laws, with whom I a very close, I see my brother-in-law and nephew suffering over the striking deterioration of my sister-in-law, always a wonderful woman. My brother-in-law especially has been experiencing intense grief every time he visits his wife in her facility (every other day), since she cannot live safely at home, and his therapist has suggested he visit her less often. My nephew also wants to visit her less often (once a week now) because it makes him sad. I suggested that instead of fighting the pain, they consider whether they could incorporate it into their lives — still able to experience the great joy in life but realizing that grief is a normal part of daily existence.

    But I wonder if that was right. This article is great but it addresses just one form of loss, a death. Death is a singular event. It is over and there is no chance of that changing. What about the grief that is not over for many years, like that my in-laws experience?

  8. Nismah Zafar  April 7, 2022 at 5:11 pm Reply

    Grief, I believe, comes in waves. While some days you drown yourself in guilt of not remembering them, and others are just a reminder of how you’re stuck on ground 1. On 23rd March, 2016, I lost a dear friend, all too instantly, and it left me in a state not known to me before. All these years, if there’s something i’ve learnt, its that you cannot get over it. And most of all, you don’t have to either.

    I’ve published my writings reflecting what I went through, and how I found my way through it. “Death Scars the Beloved by Nismah Zafar” It is available on kindle unlimited as well, and a paperback version is available as well. Do give it a read and please review. In the end, all I would want to say is, “A griever loves differently”

    • Robyne Sautner  September 19, 2022 at 1:23 pm Reply

      While I agree with you grief comes in waves I only now know that different relationships have different types of grief. I lost my grandfather at age 6, my dad at age 18 and in adult years my grandmother, mother and father In law, close aunts and uncles and I mourned them, grieved them and moved on and Yes occasionally grieved them again. But February 12 2022 I lost my husband to cancer he was 56 yrs old. We met in 1983 i was 13 he was 17. Married for 30 years. Together for 39. We have 6 children and 11 grandchildren. He was and forever will be the most important person in my life. I will live in the gut wrenching knocking me to my knees pain of losing him for the rest of my life. It’s different it’s not the same and if you haven’t experienced there is no way to understand what kind of grief one goes thru to lose a spouse. We were each other’s one true and real u conditional love of a lifetime and you don’t get over that. If I’m being super honest not all marriages have what we had it’s a rare thing but those of us that did and do have it I know first hand it’s a pain I will live with til my last breath

  9. Sue  April 2, 2022 at 3:46 pm Reply

    My daughter passed from septic shock at only 30 yrs old ten weeks ago. I cry everyday. I’m so so sad everyday. My heart aches unbearably . She had been in and out of the hospital with infections. The last time they sent her home with open wounds from tubes they had removed and I was the one changing her dressings multiple times a day, bathing her etc… We spent every minute together before she had to be rushed back to ER…Her BP was extremely low, hard time breathing and dehydrated. I couldn’t stay with her due to covid restrictions. That was the last time I spoke to her. I never thought it was going to be! She passed out we were told and had to be intubated and put under. They allowed us to come to ER where she went into cardiac arrest. Life support, no brain activity, dialysis… it all was/ is still a nightmare. My husband and I can only pray that she knew we were there. I can’t remember her except in that hospital bed and it breaks my heart all day everyday . Ive been back to work. It serves to get 8 hrs behind me. Although I fight back tears all day, the start of the wkend I actually dread now. I have no desire to smile, laugh etc. My husband and my other daughter both lost her too. I feel guilty that they are trying to be “strong” for me. I try to be ok for them, in front of them. I can’t imagine good times because the sadness never goes away.

    • Kevin Smith  December 16, 2023 at 9:19 pm Reply

      I know your pain. I found my son, dead, on June 11th, 2022. He was 27 years old. I haven’t been the same since. I cry every day. He would bave been 29 on December 30th of this year. With Christmas nearing, everything makes me sad beyond belief. All of the songs, the lights, the Christmas cheer, it all overwhelms me with grief and longing to have him back with us. I have to be strong for my wife and my daughter. I shattered my heel in an accident back in May of 2023. I’m in constant pain from that and can barely walk. I’m hoping my grief subsides after the holiday and my son’s birthday. I’m not sure how much longer I can hold on like this. I’m not trying to be depressing. I just need to vent a little and wanted to let you know I can truly sympathize with you.

      • Suzanne C  January 16, 2024 at 9:48 pm

        Kevin, I was and still am so afraid that if my grief subsides then people will expect me to be my old self. I’ll never be that person again. I think of so many silly and petty things I laughed at or got mad about. I have a more “ I don’t care” attitude now. Everyone says she would want me to be happy. It will be 2 years this weekend. I’m in a place I never thought I could be, laughing . Then I’ll suddenly recall moments that just fill me with pain and I feel so sad and wish I could have her another day, month year. Yet I embrace it, It makes me feel closer to her if you can understand that. I hope you can get to the other side of this grief. I understand too that you don’t want to sound depressing . You only sound like a person who loved their son so much. Im all over the place with this but I wish you comfort and peace.

  10. K Jacob  February 19, 2022 at 5:05 pm Reply

    My mom passed away 8 months back of cancer. I saw her go. I still am unable to put words to what I felt or feel. People expect you to move on. I cry when none is seeing. I search her in the air. I really want her to see me. She is my best friend. She knows how much I love her I loved her even like she was my kid, cos she was so kind and adorable, she works care for others no matter what she was going through.
    She over cried in front of me that she will go soon and not be able to see my kid grow. She knew she will pass soon. My brain kept telling me there is time, but the end cave too quickly. I thought she will return from the hospital like she used to every time. She dint this time.
    I miss her terribly. Her smile, her mannerisms, everything about her. I was get baby fur 38 years. Now I am hanging in the air, without a mom. Its unexplainable what I feel, I quit my job this week. I felt guilty to not have taken time to grieve, I joined a new job just a month before she had passed, or I wanted to immerse myself into work or act to be normal.
    She took a part of be with her. A big part. I am hanging in the air now ,I don’t know where I belong. I can’t wait for baby years to meet her. Do you know if I really can talk to her, get spirit? Is she really there somewhere and watching me.i really need to know if she is watching me

  11. Mike  February 15, 2022 at 8:06 pm Reply

    Hi, I just want to say after losing the love of my life on Dec. 24th, 2020 I feel nothing but empty. I just get up everyday and take care of our pets, visit my wifes grave and keep everything in the house clean. I watch nothing but news because without her movies or tv shows are of no interest. Food is not very important, just pick up whatever I see that is little trouble. We were married Aug. 23rd, 1974, life is really really empty now. I really just felt like writing this because it is so much more than grief.

    • LuAnn Schwab  July 26, 2022 at 3:28 pm Reply

      Dear Mike
      I don’t know what to say other than i feel exactly the way you do over losing a friend.
      My hope is that someday we can find peace.

    • Robyne S  September 19, 2022 at 1:26 pm Reply

      I lost my husband February 12 2022 we met Aug 23 1983 i was 13 he was 17 and almost 39 years we had and I’m feeling exactly the same way. I’m sorry for your loss. I agree ots so much more than grief.

  12. Katherine  February 1, 2022 at 10:57 am Reply

    I lost my 63-year-old husband to cancer between Thanksgiving and Christmas of 2021. He was brilliant, witty, kind, and the love of my life. We went through two years of treatments and hospitalizations and surgeries, but he seemed to be holding his own and then the final collapse was pretty rapid. Like another commenter’s experience from nearly three years ago, we were getting set for a fun retirement and suddenly the spouse was robbed of years of life and the survivor is robbed of precious time as a couple. I am willing to believe that eventually I will be able to manage the pain but I will never, ever, ever get over this feeling of being cheated by fate or whatever. Out of all our circle of friends, relatives, and acquaintances he is the only one who has died so young, at least so far. We didn’t have children, I have no immediate relatives, and his family has quite understandably mostly gone back to their own lives. I feel not just lonely but alone right now. My job isn’t engaging anymore and I plan to retire at the end of the year but I really do not know what I will do with my time after that. I am certainly not going to be able to travel without him, at least not for a very long time. I am just stumbling forward in time right now.

    • mark tooker  February 17, 2022 at 11:56 am Reply

      I too just lost my wife to cancer, sept 2021 diagnosis and she passed away 01/09/22. I also feel robbed of our retirement years of stress free time together, etc. Just is so hard to wrap my brain around her not being here any longer. I have therapy with trustbridge hospice and it helps me to understand what we are going through is normal. Normal for me isn’t what it used to be. I am not sure what my new life is going to be like as I have been married for 35 years and together longer and a big hole has been put into my heart and brain. I feel better than I did so I feel as though I will get back to a somewhat normal life. It is really lonely though.

      • Katherine  February 23, 2022 at 7:57 am

        I’m actually looking for a therapist who will *not* just tell me that this is normal, because that seems perfectly obvious to me. The literature I’ve been sent includes pearls of wisdom like “You grieve because that person mattered to you.” Really?? I never would have figured *that* out. That’s why this blog posting resonated with me; it wasn’t the usual platitudes. I am trying to deal with the extreme anger and, quite frankly, self-pity that I feel that “Fate” picked *him* to die relatively young. But the only alternative to going forward with my life is suicide, and I’m not suicidal. So I muddle on. I am desperately afraid of losing the memories of exactly how he looked and felt and his mannerisms, so I am spending a lot of time looking at pictures and what videos I have and then his relatives tell me to stop “living in the past” and not to “wallow in grief.” What? How can they say that to me, he wasn’t the constant presence in their lives that he was in mine. So I understand that feeling of the big hole that is never going to be filled.

  13. Edward Reeves  January 30, 2022 at 4:41 am Reply

    I agree. Grief never really goes away. All you can do is accept it. It takes a long time and might not even go away. I only had the strength to accept it after Keion Henderson gave out his sermons on it. I finally realized that it’s a normal thing and I had to really accept it.

  14. Christopher  December 21, 2021 at 10:55 pm Reply

    The woman I loved, died 9-4-2021. She was only 52, and younger than me(54). While she did have Bi-Polar Disorder, she wasn’t born with it. I have had all three incurable (physical)health problems, in my skull. All my life. Where is the fairness in that.

  15. Janell  December 13, 2021 at 8:56 pm Reply

    Thank you for this. This allows me to be okay with my feelings. I lost my sister about 3 months ago tragically. She was young and left behind three young boys. One of which is graduating this year. We just received his graduation pics which warmed my heart but broke it at the same time. I can hear my sister saying so proudly “look at my baby boy”. These things that are joys also carry this heavy weight of sorrow.

    • Jess Charlotta  April 28, 2022 at 8:24 am Reply

      I to lost my sister. Suddenly 4 years ago. She had no kids. I had 2 for us to share. She was told she would never have children. So I did for us. Even 4 years later and life is just still going. Yet I’m stuck. Our youngest baby starts middle school in fall. Our oldest will be driving in November and I try to be excited for those moments. But I’m also so sad she isn’t here. I totally get you.

  16. reyhan  December 11, 2021 at 7:56 am Reply

    thanks alot of information

  17. Perry  November 27, 2021 at 5:26 pm Reply

    Next month it will be 6 years since my late husband’s shocking cancer diagnosis at age 51. He died seven weeks later, followed the next week and a couple months later by the loss of our two beloved dogs we’d had for 14 years. Complicating things further were some horrible grief reactions from a previously close in-law that resulted in disruptions during funeral preparations(!!!) and resulting in their attempt, initially successfully, to alienate his entire large family from me when there’d never been any issues for the 25 years we’d been together. That person’s complicated grief caused me additional devastation at a time when we should have been pulling together as a family, and although I did allow for a reconciliation 2 years later(after learning a lot more about grief from WYG, so grateful for you!), there is still a lot in flux as I have gone through the selling of our home(too much to keep up with alone), and several moves before finally finding what’s hopefully my *last*home. Still, my life remains a work in process, and the time between 12/9 and early February is still difficult every year. I was seeing someone special at the almost-2-year point, but ended it due to feeling it was too-much-too-soon, which he was very unhappy about, but I did not have the ability to be “in the moment” for a relationship. Long story longer🙄, we’ve gotten together and tried again a couple times in the last 2 years, but it always ends up being disrupted when this time of year arrives because I need to disengage, even though I don’t plan or want to. He’s a good person(and has an MS in counseling, go figure…), but last night he said to me:
    “You’re a very smart person; I don’t understand why you don’t research into how to *get past this*” (my PTSD & complicated grief) by now.
    Suffice it to say, I did try to have a dialogue with him about the fact that I’m not CHOOSING this, but we are finally both letting go of the relationship.

    • kal  December 20, 2021 at 6:26 am Reply

      It is impossible to get over to, we need to practice to live normal by having this pain at one side. it is been 6 months since I lost my husband of 49 years old and none of the days looks not even ok even though I have lots of support from my parents, siblings, friends. Wondering kids trying hard to be with normal still I am not getting the energy to talk and sit with them for a long time. Always wants to be alone and try to hide the pain and be normal. Reading these articles makes me feel better, I am not the one person who undergoing this situation and trust the time and keep going. Moreover, we don’t have any option too..

  18. Brittiany  November 8, 2021 at 9:40 am Reply

    “you’ll NEVER get over it, but you can certainly get through it” “Time won’t heal your pain, but learning to cope allows you to carry on” are phrases told to me that I have kept with me for 27 years after experiencing my first grieving situation. This article is the first one I’ve read after all these years that truly gets behind those phrases I’ve lived by and concludes the how and why that my overthinking brain always had. Thank you, it’s beautifully said.

  19. Scott  November 5, 2021 at 3:47 pm Reply

    Cheryl died 18 months ago yesterday, the second wife I have lost to breast cancer. It’s both encouraging and discouraging that we don’t recover. I can’t imagine never missing either woman. I was married to each twenty years.

  20. Juisse  November 5, 2021 at 8:40 am Reply

    Every day it’s something. But I’m not the only one suffering like this in my family. After losing both my parents a year apart, and my step-father 4 years prior to that. Well it just broke me. I literally feel like part of me died, and that feeling hasn’t gone away. I know they say, “It will get better with time”. Well I disagree. Time only allows you to get used to the idea. It is just so exhausting. It’s like a dirty secret 🤐. So finding this article was so important to me. I keep reading it over and over, and each time, I get a bit more information. A bit more understanding. I also want to help a family member who suffers from bipolar disorder, and this has completely broken them. They were extremely close to my Mother. I worry about her well being all the time. They will say things from time to time which is so frightening. I actually had someone tell me to “get over it, as death was a part of life”. I can go on and on. I used to be so religious. Enjoyed going to church. But after losing my Father, it just put a whole new spin on “Faith” ….. the Why’s? …… the How’s? Etc. So reading this has captured my interest, and I hope it can make a difference to my psyche and allow me to help my loved ones too. I only hope that I don’t get any responses that are filled with hate or trolls. I look forward to reading more articles. Thank you kindly.

    • Janell  December 13, 2021 at 9:02 pm Reply

      My questioning came after watching my young innocent son suffer from kidney failure (he is doing well now with a transplant). I just recently lost my sister and this I felt would destroy me. I’m learning and personally you do not deserve to hear “get over it”. I loved this article and am glad you are getting something positive from it. I too feel there have been holes left in me that can never be replaced.

  21. Cathy  October 20, 2021 at 4:34 pm Reply

    Thank you, thank you and thank you again for this honest and so, so true article!

  22. Fiona  October 17, 2021 at 8:35 pm Reply

    I found this article very insightful. My husband died two years ago from cancer and I think about him every single day. He was my best friend, my true love, my supporter and a gentleman in every sense of the word. I met him when I was 18 and we were together for 33 years. I still have times when I’m overcome with a feeling of homesickness because he was my ‘home’. I still cry and I am overcome with overwhelming despair when I open his wardrobe. I talk to him and instead of kissing his handsome face, I kiss his cold casket. It breaks my heart not to be able to hold his hand or hug him but I have accepted that he won’t ever come back. I won’t ever stop wishing him back and I’ll never, ever stop loving him. I believe that my grief will never cease but will stay with me always and I’m learning to accept that. I don’t believe that time heals the open wound of loss but instead makes it less painful. I know I’ve lost a part of myself and that I’m not the same person anymore but again, I’m accepting of that. I’m learning to live without him and for me personally, each day that passes is a day closer to being with him again. My heart goes out to you all in your grief and may your God give you strength.

  23. Jackie  October 1, 2021 at 5:36 am Reply

    This article is so helpful, it gives me permission to be who I am, and how I feel. Its Okay to be grieving so hard after 2 years, no time limit. It enables “one” to be and do what needs to be cone done emotionally.

  24. Tommy  August 26, 2021 at 2:29 am Reply

    The most difficult part I feel when dealing with the grief of lossing a love one in my life and at the same time I realized that there is one no else in my life who loves and cares about me anymore. Forgive my bad English.

  25. Brandy Black  July 13, 2021 at 10:53 am Reply

    This is great insight. Only commenting that it applies to other griefs besides death as well.

  26. GINA M KEITH  July 11, 2021 at 3:40 pm Reply

    no Susan your not crazy my husband died also, and its been so hard for me to just live. i also had a heart attack the drs.said i was grief stricken . I try so hard to move on i cant seem to put my foot forward. ive isolated myself from all of my friends i dont see anyone anymore and it really does not bother me at all. i wanna move on and be happy but i cant the pain is too deep. his death devestated me . so your not alone in the way you feel .

  27. Robin  April 24, 2021 at 6:37 pm Reply

    Ron. Hi! I came across this website by accident, but I don’t believe in accidents. I was led here I believe by a higher power or whatever the reason may be. Anyway, all if your posts I can honestly say seemed to have come straight out of my own mouth! Every single word you said is exactly how I have been feeling but couldn’t put into words. My family, such as my Husband, Sister, etc. Just don’t understand why I still grieve for the loss if my Mom and Dad. My Mom was my Best Friend, and I was a Daddy’s girl. I called my Daddy Pa Pa Bear. He didn’t have a Son but I was right at his heels since I could walk up until the day he passed. The pain is just as if both my Parents passed yesterday. It has been 6 years since I lost my Dad and 10 years since my Mom passed. As I previously said above the pain for me isn’t as often but the pain hurts as if they just passed yesterday. Everyone’s grief is different and no one has the right to judge how you grieve. It’s a long story but I feel responsible for my Mom’s death. No one can convince me otherwise. Since the passing of my Parents I’ve pushed all my friends away and not on purpose. I also pretty much did the same with my family. I got tired of listening to them telling me to get on with my life. Or their in a better place. Or their not suffering anymore. And you need to get over your grieving and start living your life because it’s what they would want you to do. I eventually started telling everyone exactly what was on my mind. When my Sister said I needed to start living my life because it’s what they would want me to do, I politely told her and everyone else who was listening, “Well it isn’t what I want to do.” She also goes to church every time the doors are open, but I told her that she was being a hypocrite by judging me. I told both her and my Husband who hadn’t yet lost a parent at the time to quit telling me how I should feel. I told my Sister just because your apparently through your stages of grief doesn’t mean that I am. My Sister lives over an hour and a half away from me and my Parents. My Sister is older than me so she got married and I was still in School. My Parents moved me and Mom from Atlanta to the Country. So I feel that she wasn’t as close to them as myself over the last 30 something years of their life. I became a single Mother right after I graduated and lived with my Parents and got a job while my Mom and Dad spoiled my Son. My Mom and Dad were my everything, and I still don’t know how to live or function without them in my life. There is no handbook that is specifically on how to grieve because everyone grieves differently. I still have a very hard time getting out of bed. I don’t care most of the time and I don’t care what anyone thinks. I’ve heard some have called me lazy, but that’s so far from the truth. I still just don’t care. I pray that one day I will. I take it one day at a time. It’s all I can do for now. I do what I have to do to survive and that’s it!! I know I’ll never be the out going, witty, joking person I use to be, but that’s ok with me and that’s really all that matters. Thanks for taking the time reading this and thanks especially for all of your words of what you are going through. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone!
    God Bless,
    Robin C./ Georgia. Go Dawgs!!

    • Clar  October 8, 2021 at 2:39 am Reply

      I feel the same Robin, and you are right, every person is different. I lost 5 people less than a year recently one happen to be my Mum five months ago😭😭😭😭😭 and while dealing with my mum funeral I had miscarrage due to grieve. Honestly, me too, I don’t want to hear anyone telling me move on, or to live by faith, or it is well, or anything similar to that. I need my space and I don’t want to be rushed in moving on, I do believe in taking one day at a time, I don’t want anyone’s pressure of forcing me into things that am not ready. I am back to work now after being away for two months, I don’t mingle with people as I used to, I prefer my own company and if I get involve I do when want and how I want.

      Unless one goes through this, one will never understand! I wish you all the very best, and yes…one day at a time. May we all find comfort somehow. Much love ❤🙏

  28. Melissa  April 23, 2021 at 11:47 pm Reply

    My 26 year old daughter died 4 years ago from accidental prescription drug overdose. At least that’s what they called it. She had severe borderline personality disorder. I held her when they removed her from life support. Found out a few weeks later my husband was cheating. So I got divorced. I gave everything up in that divorce because I wasn’t thinking clearly. I’ve lost everything as well as my grandchildren because their dad took them and I don’t know where they are. I cannot seem to get past any of it. I get thru the days by working as a florist. My days off I cry and sleep and have horrible anxiety. I was managing ok on antidepressants and Ativan but the dr took the Ativan way down. Now I cannot cope. I am 51 years old. I am tired of life. So very tired of the pain. Complex grief. I have no will to go on anymore. I know it’s not like this for everyone. Many people can go on to enjoy their lives at least sometimes. I am not one of them. I wish I could. Oh how I wish I could.

    • Antoinette  October 5, 2021 at 2:55 am Reply

      My heart is with you and I wish I could hug you and we could hire a PI to track down your grand babies and then YOUD BE SURE OF YOUR WORTH AND VALUE ON THIS EARth. You could heal. I hope you pin you hair up and put on lipstick when you go in that flower shoppe. I hope you smile big at customers and brighten their day. I hope your television decides not to turn on when ur at home and can’t get out of bed so you’ll have to take a walk instead. I hope you need milk so you gotta run to the store and run into a new girlfriend or even better a handsome new guy friend. I hope while you clean you shake your booty and twirl around. I wish you catch one of your fav movies on tv and you laugh like you have not in a while. There is only one you and even if it’s not today don’t let those grand babies miss out on the love only you can give.. even if they aren’t around to get it right now.. when they do it will be all worth it. Cause LETS FACE IT.. nO ONE CAN BE YOU OR GIVE THE WORLD WHAT YOU DO. Please don’t ever give up looking for them and don’t ever give up on finding your NEW, MORE EXPERIENCED, STRONGER YOU.. yea that what situations do..THEY BUILD US UP IF ONLY WE LET IT.. let it YOU GOT THIS…

    • Moni  May 15, 2022 at 10:14 am Reply

      Wow thankyou Melissa I’ve got disabilitys and lost many people in life I just thank the lucky stars I’m still alive everyday

  29. Ronnie  March 29, 2021 at 2:23 am Reply

    This post and especially the mostly hopeless responses of commenters leaves me in despair that while I live it will be in this pain. I’m not supposed to avoid my grief by busyness but that is the only way I survive. My fit early 70’s husband was poisoned with asbestos by his employers over 30-40 years. The companies knew their products were carcinogens and sacrificed people for profit … as always. My rage will never abate. I will never heal from The loss of my best friend and soul mate of 55 years. I had hoped there would be some deadening of the pain but I guess not. I am old enough that I hopefully won’t have to live long. I am praying for the heart condition “ broken heart syndrome”

    Most of this sites posts have been helpful but not this one. It’s good to be truthful … now I won’t expect to ever feel any better. Just play out a ‘pretend’ life

    • Isabelle Siegel  March 29, 2021 at 10:00 am Reply

      Ronnie, I am so sorry for your loss and that this article wasn’t helpful to you. Please know that this was NOT the intended take-home message. We are not saying that the remainder of your life will be filled with pain; We are saying that grief may well always be a part of you, even as you move forward and find happiness: “I also need to tell you that that not recovering from grief doesn’t doom you to a life of despair. Let me reassure you, there are millions of people out there, right now, living normal and purposeful lives while also experiencing ongoing grief.” The difference is that, while we don’t GET OVER grief, we can continue on despite of it.

  30. Zoe Campos  September 30, 2020 at 12:59 am Reply

    Thanks for assuring me that experiencing ongoing grief is considered normal and shouldn’t be seen as dysfunctional. My sister recently lost her husband to drugs and although we’re all dealing with his sudden death, I’m afraid that she might not be able to recover for a long time. It might be a good idea to explore our grief counseling options just in case she experiences worse.


    • Catherine Park  October 7, 2020 at 6:47 am Reply

      I want all of you to listen to me now!.. Get up every day. If only to get some breakfast, lunch and tea. Try hard to start thinking about other things, just a little and only if possible. You have to know that you are not alone.
      You also have to know that we have a loving God who is there no matter what. He loves each one of us way more than we even love our own children ! We are all children of God. Tell him your grief daily. Grief is a terrible thing and tends to morph into severe depression which I received in massive doses one year ago when all of my memories of the past hit me hard. (I had not dealt with these things at the time they all happened)..I am 56. I have been so struck by grief within the past 12 months from my memories that if I had died it would have been okay with me, such was and is my pain. I have not even been able to get out of bed for months with continuous crying and a total and awful feeling of dread combined with extreme fear of life which over takes me with adrenaline rushes through my body. I also withdrew from life. I have lost a lovely fiancee who I adored. He left me…then
      2 wonderful boyfriends (at different times), one through a heart attack and the other throat cancer (neither of them smoked or drank–ever). I have lost a baby and been divorced twice. I have lost very much cherished lifelong friends to death, Aunties, Uncles, grandparents, parents…. I am even grief stricken over all my dogs that have died. ! I am putting to practice what I am preaching and I can say it is more bearable. I am not bed bound any more. For I know that God is there and I know I will see them all on the resurrection morning…even my pets.! Just keep going a day at a time and live by faith ! I also watch a fair bit of telly to get my mind off things…Dr.Phil, Diagnosis Murder, Jake and the Fatman, NCIS–all of them.. Just do whatever it takes. We must NOT feel alone as we are all interconnected. (Yes I have read all these other comments and you all are going through great pain and trials). Part of the problem too is a feeling of disconnected -ness people have these days.
      If you are inclined to, google..guarding your thoughts with Mark Finley or some amazing Christian sermons with Doug Bachelor…. They are helping me and everybody I know and everybody I know is suffering depression !! We are really not alone !!

      • Jackie  October 1, 2021 at 5:45 am

        As a bible believing christian, I believe that I will see my loved one who died 2 years ago in heaven, but sometimes the grief, outweighs that promise to be reunited with him.
        Its all consuming. Some days are so dark, others not so. But that resurection assuredness pops in, however, it is a long wait until that glorious day.

  31. Susan  September 13, 2020 at 6:44 am Reply

    My husband died in 2016. My life is not a life anymore I lost him and everything we both worked so hard to have my home my furniture all I have is bills I can’t get out from under I had a heart attack this year dr said it is broken heart syndrome. I guess I have what they call severe grief. I moved one town over. And when I go back to the town I lived for 25 years I feel sick and alwYs cry I had good memories from my life there but now it’s like I don’t have them everything is hurtful to think of. Some times when I take the dog out at night I lookup at the sky and I feel like I’m dreaming and I just need to wake up because I’m not really there it’s like it’s not real and then I think it is real and I feel sick and lost and alone and I cry a little in the dark I tried to date and that was a catastrophe. I got a kiss goodnight and I couldn’t handle it. I felt like I was cheating I cried all the way home am I crazy why can’t I move on

    • Litsa  September 14, 2020 at 1:42 pm Reply

      Susan – I am so sorry for what you have been through. You are not crazy, but grief can be far more severe and complex for some than others. With all you are going through right now, it would likely be very helpful to talk to a therapist who specializes in grief – this listing might be a helpful place to start – https://grief.com/grief-counselor-directory/

      • Susan  July 14, 2021 at 9:17 pm

        Hi Litzy, thank u for your thoughts, I was married right out of high school we dated from sophomore to senior year was married and together for 59 years we had two lovely cocker spaniels. Both were really his dogs. Very spoiled. Our girl Allie would wait for him to come home and he would so make of her. “ how’s my baby girl he would go on and on the other a boy henry was just as loveable, I tell u this all because we lost henry to cancer he was fighting one week before my husband. Allie was lost without her buddy. My husband went into the hospital. Was diagnosed with double pneumonia. He was only there the one day. He actually died that evening from a blot clot in his leg dvt. I watched him pass in front of me. I went to a grief session three times couldn’t handle it it made me feel worse I would cry hysterically. All the way home. I don’t know why but it didn’t help me. I found a therapist and went to her for several months I really liked her I felt I was making progress I at first cried a lot but it was getting easier . I think I saw her for over a year. I called for new appointments to schedule ahead like I always did and they said she was gone had left the practice and they said since she worked for their hospital I was their patient not hers so they couldn’t tell e where she went and I couldn’t find her either also they couldn’t offer services as they had no. Other therapist but her. I tried so one else but didn’t really click and I know I need it but it’s very hard to rehash all the details the one good thing in my life is I still have Allie she sticks to me like glue but I worry if something happens to me who will love her like I do but it keeps me alive and I am thankful for that. And I have my one grad daughter who is seven and she loves me a lot so I do hold on to the good things I have and am so grateful. But u r right good therapy can really help I have Medicare so I didn’t have to worry about money there either.

    • Ron Murphy  September 30, 2020 at 1:55 pm Reply

      Susan, I am so glad that I am not alone in feeling this way. You are so correct. Since I lost my dad and my pet companions this past year, I have never been the same and I know that I never will be. Something died on the inside of me and I have never been the same since. I guess I will grieve a lifetime, and at the same time trying to live my daily life productively. Some will never understand my grief and that’s ok. Our experiences and connections to the ones we have lost are different for different people. That’s why there is no set roadmap for grief. I consider myself a very emotional person and it is very difficult to be around others when the conversation of loss comes up. I just begin to break down. I am better right now just being by myself. I use to be a very outgoing person, smile a lot and energetic. I am no longer that person and I am ok with that. I am who I am, no more no less. It is very difficult to trust happiness again. The most important thing for me is to know that I am not alone in my journey. Your testimony has proved that for me, along with many others.

      • Susan  July 14, 2021 at 9:28 pm

        Hi Ron. Thank u for telling me of yourself it helps to think others have gone thru similar feelings. I couldn’t sleep last night so I was laying in bed and used me I pad and looked up all the old seventies songs I liked I cried a lot in silence of the dark but this morning I felt somewhat lifted not depressed. Silent lucidity made me cry. Even the mamas and the papas calif dreaming reminded me of us riding in his car to school but it’s all good I guess I’ll always feel like I lost him yesterday. But I do cry less and it’s good to know we r not all coo coo. That. This is all ok and those, even family that dont get us, well too bad for them it doesn’t matter, we will all have our days and I pray that it is really true what the Bible says of the great resurrection of those who have passed. , I mean that’s why Jesus resurrected Lazarus ,he felt sadness in his heart for the grief stricken family who lost him and he loved Lazarus himself so he brought him back after many days in the sleep of death to give us in the world an example of how this will occur on earth in the new system of things when he returns but we just have to believe and wait.

  32. Pearl Gibbings  August 18, 2020 at 1:32 am Reply

    Thank you for this article. It was very helpful.

  33. Ron Murphy  July 21, 2020 at 2:00 pm Reply

    Hi I hope someone can relate. I lost my dad and my pet companion this past year. It has been a devastating time. My dad had a place out in the country with a little house and a pond that we use to always go the dogs and my dad. It was their favorite place. SInce they passed away I have never been the same. I have no desire to go there anymore. It is just too painful and emotional. I have very vivid pictures in my mind of being there. When they died something in me died also. I know some of my family may see things differently and would like to see me go over there again. I don’t and can’t do something for someone just to make them feel good. I know that I will never be the same and that’s ok. That just shows how much we loved them. I am not being selfish by not going it is just too painful and devastating emotionally. I am what I am , no more no less. I know some people say give it time. I think that is one of those myths also. It may help a little but I know that it will never be what it once was. I hope I am not alone in this. I hope someone can relate. Sometimes people just have to move or change environments just to survive. IT is the hardest to get my family to relate. We are all individuals.

  34. Stephen  July 21, 2020 at 10:40 am Reply

    Nearly 32 years ago, I lost my first love in an auto accident. We were only together for months, but I know in my heart that she was THE ONE. We were taking things slowly as she had just gotten out of a bad relationship. I never got the chance to tell her I loved her because I didn’t want her to feel rushed. I feel that had she lived, it wouldn’t have been much longer before we got to that point, as her mother later told me that she did indeed love me as well. I grieved hard, but back then my support from friends and family felt short. I met a wonderful girl a couple of years later and we married. We are still together, but as I do love her I still harbor intense feelings for my lost love. I feel guilty as I think that I am betraying both of them, During my marriage there were long periods when the grief lessened, and then a year or two of intense private grief would nearly overwhelm me. I can’t let her go, nor do I want to. I feel like I am split in two. I don’t really speak to anyone of it. I made my wife aware of my first love right when we got together, and she was very understanding and patient with me. But I do not wish to bring her any sorrow as I struggle with my emotions. Music transports me back to 1988 almost instantly, and I have a playlist that nearly brings me to tears nightly, but it also brings me back to HER.

    • Lorraine  September 6, 2020 at 7:12 pm Reply

      Hello Stephen. I am happily married to a man who lost his first love in 1973, when he was just 17 years old. She was killed in a car wreck and I know that she was the love of my husband’s life. I do not feel sorrowful about this because I know that my husband loves me very much. He listens to songs that remind him of her and my overwhelming feeling is one of deep sadness, not just for my husband but also for the young girl herself. They were together for just a few months when the tragedy happened. I encourage him to talk about her but he never really says much. In fact I think that even now, all these years later, he finds it too difficult to speak of it.

      • Stephen  October 1, 2020 at 7:07 am

        Hi Lorraine,

        Thank you so much for sharing that. Your husband’s journey mirrors mine, and I have never encountered anyone so similar. My wife also says it is okay to speak of her, but it is difficult. I do not want to complicate matters for her. God bless both you and my wife for having such great hearts to understand, because in the quietest moments it consumes me. I try to stay busy, and that helps. Thank you again, it really does mean a lot to know someone shares a similar situation.

  35. sandra diener  June 9, 2020 at 10:57 am Reply

    my Lydia took her life at 23 on January 20 2016. I found her. life is now HELL. cant wait until the day I get to die to be out of this unbearable pain

    • Amy  October 6, 2020 at 7:44 pm Reply

      I lost my 23 yr old daughter to suicide in November of 2015. I am fortunate to still have a son and a husband, because if I didn’t have them I would not have survived the loss. It never gets better. People like us go through our days in pain that others don’t know. I look forward to dying and will gladly go when my time comes. She was my only daughter. I know it was a combination of anti anxiety medication, Monthly hormonal changes and she failed a test that day. I think of her constantly, last thing at night, middle of the night, first thing in the mornings and off and on through the day. I knew an old, old woman ( she died last month at 99) and she had lost her son. She told me it never, ever gets better, but it gets easier to bear. Maybe. Maybe we just learn to carry it inside ourselves so as not to burden others with our pain.

      • IsabelleS  October 7, 2020 at 11:07 am

        Amy, I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope this article has communicated to you that it is completely normal and acceptable to never “recover” from grief. Your friend is right: It never gets better, but it does get easier to bear. I suggest you check out this article: https://whatsyourgrief.com/grieving-suicide-death/. I hope this website and community brings you some comfort. All the best to you and your family.

  36. Cathy  June 9, 2020 at 3:46 am Reply

    My husband died in an accident when I was nine months pregnant with our only child. He died 31 years ago TODAY and TODAY was the very first time ever that I felt no pain. It took 31 YEARS to get here!

  37. molly  May 31, 2020 at 6:00 pm Reply

    Thanks for all your work on grief and sharing with us. My father passed away a little over a week ago and because of COVID we will be limited to a very small private funeral unless we would choose to delay it. My mother and I have felt strongly about moving forward with a service, even if small, partially in thinking it’s an important ritual that would bring us some closure and also that waiting until its safer or limitations are lifted feels like giving more power or control in our lives to COVID as we would have to plan around it. My father passed from complications of COVID and lived in assisted living and nursing homes the last months of his life where we were unable to visit or support him directly due to COVID.

    Do you think it’s misguided to want to engage in rituals like a funeral expecting some closure? or are these rituals more about comfort for close family? What are your thoughts on delaying rituals like funerals or ‘celebrations of life’ due to the current pandemic situation?

  38. Lori  April 8, 2020 at 11:40 pm Reply

    my sister died in march 2017, 8 days before her 58th birthday. my mom died september 2019 i still grieve for both of them. i’m tired of people telling me how i should grieve, what i should do how i should feel, they don’t know me or what i have been through.

  39. Yara  March 24, 2020 at 10:22 pm Reply

    Hi… i felt like i have to write it somewhere. to let someone know how i feel.
    someone that i loved died three years ago.
    it feels like she was the only good in my life… you know? i will not lie, i cry about her death every night.
    sometimes i am thinking – when will i get over it? when will i move on?… cause sometimes i just feel like i can’t take it anymore. the fact that i know that i will never see her again is driving me insane.
    i know that i have to accept that fact and let go. but it’s just too hard.
    i didn’t tell anyone about how i feel. everyone are sure that i have moved on a long time ago cause i never talk about her.
    i hope that i am not the only one.
    and if you are reading this, it would mean the world to me if you will maybe… try to help me. maybe it’ll make me feel better.
    thank you.

    • Lori  April 11, 2020 at 11:15 pm Reply

      YARA you are not alone, I cry everyday for my love ones who have died. You will move on when You are ready, even if it takes forever, nobody knows you better than yourself. Grief is different for each of us, talking to your loved one, even if you do it alone it’s okay that is what I have to do. YARA don’t let anyone ever take away your feelings, it not you it’s them.

    • Nas Kotecha  August 12, 2020 at 6:04 pm Reply

      You are not the only one. I lost my husband of 47 years in August 2017, his 3rd anniversary is on 28th of this month.
      There is no time limit on grieving, it comes like tsunami. Like you I do feel I will sound like broken record so don’t talk to anyone. And everyone who says how are coping is really interested, it is formality I guess.
      I put make up on and perfect my smile when going out but once I am alone it is different story. Not all days are bad. Sometimes same song doesn’t make me cry and other times I cry. I do go to memorial gardens where his ashes are buried. Nothing takes pain away anyone says time is healer is rubbish. In reality you learn to live with it. I have couple of good friends who are in same situation and I talk to them. It is not like a light switch you will no be able to switch off grief but now I can talk about him without crying.
      Hang in there and think of the happy times.

      • Ron Murphy  August 16, 2020 at 12:34 pm

        Nas, you are so right. I get tired of trying to figure out how to answer people when they ask me how I am doing. I don’t want to lie but it is like I just want to say, I’m surviving. Don’t know how to respond. I wish they just would not ask.

    • Stephen  October 1, 2020 at 7:21 am Reply

      Hi Yara,

      In my experience the pain does not go away. It becomes manageable though. That pain is a testament of love. The depth of the pain is a reflection of love’s strength. Moving on is difficult, I feel intense guilt at times that I betray both my wife and my first love. But had I not married, I never would have experienced the blessing of fatherhood of two gret children. I kind of look at my first love’s passing as a way to save me. Would I have become so spiritual had I not been humbled by grief? Would I not be as compassionate to those in need if I had my heart’s desire? I pray that I am a better man than I was in my youth. Maybe God’s eternal plan for me was to improve and I hope that I will be reunited with her someday. For now, that is all I can do an it helps. My prayers are with you Yara, you are not alone.

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  41. Diane  February 9, 2020 at 2:12 pm Reply

    You don’t get over it
    You just live through it
    You don’t get by it
    Because cant get around it
    It doesn’t get better
    It just gets different…
    Grief just puts on another face

    • Timmy iler  May 20, 2021 at 2:25 pm Reply

      I know you are wearing your self down over the tire love 💘 of your life and I can see the hurt in your eyes and comment when I see you and look in your eye’s and am sorry that you have to deal with that kind of situation and that comes from my heart ❤ if I don’t get to see you again I will always see the hurt you have sorry about that God bless you ❤

  42. Vic  October 28, 2019 at 4:04 am Reply

    4 years from the death of my only son….my much-awaited son, and i still can’t get over him.
    But I’ve learned to live with my grief. I got here because I was looking for answers if what I’m feeling is normal.
    That I get to live my life as normally as I can, but when I’m all alone and I get to think of the days leading up to his death, I still cry.
    There’s really no getting-over…just coping.

  43. Claire Dixon  October 8, 2019 at 12:20 am Reply

    I don’t believe in recovering from grief, or closure, or acceptance. I am an all-or-nothing thinker, & I think when someone I care about dies, (whether a relative, close friend, or object of desire) it is disrespectful to their memory for ME to recover. Besides, I want God to know how infuriated, yes, INFURIATED, I am at Him for not stopping people from dying prematurely (even if it’s from natural causes) & for not stopping violence. I do believe in God but I don’t believe in resilience/closure/acceptance. No, I am not suicidal, I promise. I DO want to live; but I want to live tearfully. Just because someone doesn’t want to “move on” or “recover” doesn’t mean they themselves want to die. It means I love my all-or-nothing thinking & I love my aversion to “resilience”, “closure”, & “acceptance”. I have lost MANY people I care about. The ones I miss THE MOST are my dad (died in March 1986), my substitute grandparents who lived down the street from me, & Fran McDaniel, a beautiful organist who I still “crush on” even 25 years after her death. But I grieve prolonged for anyone I was close to, not just the ones I specifically mentioned. I fervently wish “closure”, et cetera, wasn’t a thing. People (like me) who like all-or-nothing thinking shouldn’t have to be bombarded with cliches & platitudes such as those & shouldn’t have to “recover” (as long as they aren’t suicidal, that is). I enjoy feeling intense. Including intense sadness. “Drama queen” is something I enjoy being. I wish people would accept that.

    • S  August 16, 2020 at 10:48 pm Reply

      My feelings exactly after losing my husband and mother just months apart last year.
      Thanks for your post.

  44. Sophie  October 3, 2019 at 7:29 pm Reply

    Yes, it’s absolutely possible to recover from your grief. Grief is uniquely individual and it isn’t something that has to be permanent until you die ~ for some. I appreciate this site bringing awareness to grief in general. Big hugs to everyone.

  45. Hazel  August 19, 2019 at 1:22 am Reply

    Seventeen days ago marks five years that my Mamaw (paternal grandmother) died.
    The night she left was very long and confusing.
    I saw my dad cry for the first time in a very long time, my stepmom called me telling me to lock down the house, my aunt told me she was sorry about my Mamaw, and my mom called me to tell me to pack a bag to stay at her house for the night. That was all in the span of an hour.
    When my mom told me that my Mamaw died, my world broke, I couldn’t hear anything and I couldn’t breathe. I had my first panic attack, I felt like part of me died with her.
    Since she left, when big things happen in my family or in my own life, good or bad, I cry like the night she died, because she’s not here to share in the joy or be support.
    We were very different people, she was a God-fearing Pentecostal, and I am agnostic and lesbian. But I could tell her anything and she’d listen. We shared a love for games, books, family, dirty jokes, and old movies.
    She truly took a piece of me when she left.

  46. AA  July 13, 2019 at 9:38 pm Reply

    In bed struggling to sleep, unable to keep the pain from swallowing me up whole and feeling like I might drown in my sobs, I Googled “how to get over grief” in complete and utter desperation and somehow ended up here. I sure am glad I did.

    Lost my dad almost 4 weeks ago to cancer and as a staunch believer in Christ and healing, I was certain he was going to recover, right up until he died right in front of me. I cannot describe the cold, numbing shock and disbelief I felt in that moment and the crushing pain that has followed since.

    Reading this article and the comments have really helped me and I just want to say thank you. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone and my emotions are not abnormal. I hope sharing my experience might help someone also as I have been helped.

    I also look forward to sleep as it is my only escape and knowing others do the same is a relief. So much of what people have written, I deeply relate with. I became convinced I am clinically depressed. I’m still not sure I am not. I hold on to my faith when I’m able. I feel it’s all I have.

    I had a close friend basically tell me to suck it up and get on with it and saying how my brother is handling it better and it made me feel so very bad. I already felt guilty about being so lost in my pain that I couldn’t provide comfort to other members of my family and his words made me feel truly horrible.

    Then I felt a level of resentment towards him as I thought it quite easy for him to say this, still having both parents and not having had to deal with such loss. He finished off by asking me not to ruin his mornings by sending him messages talking about my grief. I’d only done so one morning, when I couldn’t sleep all night and felt like I would lose my mind if I didn’t let it out. Great friend, that one.

    My dad was everything to me. He was a sweet, kind, generous, funny man. A truly beautiful soul, instantly loved by all who met him. He was so full of life, larger than life. Every big moment I’ve ever imagined in my life- achieving great career heights, my wedding, having kids- all had him as a major star. Now everything I’ve ever imagined will never come to be as I imagined it. I feel I will never be truly happy again.

    I’m sorry, this has perhaps not helped so much.

    • T. Harris  October 5, 2019 at 10:16 pm Reply

      Its been 17 years since my Mom passed & 16 years since my Grandmother who raised me passed. I too had a friend tell me to suck it up in so many words… Well that same friend’s Mom passed some years later. Since, she lost her job because she could not ” suck it up” & Ive been a better friend 2 her then she was to me then.. I said that to say, Be encouraged. Grieve, Cry, try journaling your grief. It helps to ease the pain but it does not go away. And for that uncaring friend, dont worry. Their time is coming. U just be a better friend when grief knocks on their door. GOD loves U

      • Cynthia  January 29, 2020 at 2:36 am

        I also lost my boyfriend about 4months ago .uurm am doing better but the funny thing about grief is that it comes in waves one day am happy next day the whole set of memories and sadness piles up .somedays the same memories make me smile at other times hurt .it is a lonely journey as most people don’t really understand this they only say move on . They don’t want grief stories .at times I feel his presence ..but am happy with time am having more good days than bad days .during my lowest I jhus pray to God and yes am confident all be happy again

    • Angel  December 6, 2019 at 9:07 pm Reply

      Yes my sister just passed and I am also a believer and I honestly thought God would heal her and am barely holding on to my faith now…just praying for understanding and better days smh anyway
      ..I pray you are doing better

  47. Nina  July 11, 2019 at 10:58 am Reply

    To all of us collectively that have lost our love ones moving on is always going to be sad and challenging to the spirit . My beloved Thomas passed away in my arms in our home. At first the reaction was devastating i have never seen someone pass away, I kept thinking to myself why did this have to happen this way. Then i began to think it wasnt about me it was about him then and only then i began to understand the beauty if i may in being a part of someone going off to heaven to be with God, how close did i come to being a part of something so spiritual. I still grieve him daily but im able to function. Death is coming to us all at some point in our lives we no that, but living without that love one is a daily task but i think we forget that those who leave us on this earth still can see our pain without the ability to add comfort. I believe my Thomas is comforted by my will and strength to continue living in his absence understanding death is not for earth bound souls, i relish in the knowledge of knowing that all the days i spent crying when my time comes and i see him at that point i will realize that all that crying and sadness and he is standing here once again before me. There is pain when we are born and pain when we leave.

  48. Jean  June 30, 2019 at 10:50 pm Reply

    I feel tremendous guilt after my mother’s death about a year ago. I am one of those people who stays at home now–completely opposite from how I used to be. It seems that with the passage of time, I am piecing things together, and my guilt increases. It’s true that my mother was 100, but she didn’t need to die.
    I am a single senior citizen (70), and come from a large family. My experience with a psychiatrist in my late 20’s really messed me up. She told me that my mother showed “benign neglect.” It’s really a long story, but my mother had few options in life including the choice of her husband! I became very incensed, and even didn’t contact my mother for a year. When I did see her, the guilt was unbearable, but I think the anger remained the rest of my life.
    I spent most of my life trying to come to terms with anger for not getting married, almost being given away as an infant, etc. My siblings had their own issues. About 10 years ago, I decided to get more involved with my mother and sister as they were moved into a nursing home. My sister hated it there and died there four years ago. My mother hated it also, but she survived and had an apartment with 24-hour help. The aides for the most part were sub-standard or worse. I was never comfortable leaving her, not knowing if they would yell at her or worse. It made me so anxious, I could never relax.
    Two years ago, it seemed we had a relatively good pair of aides. One was super organized, but in truth I didn’t trust her 100%.
    The other one was crazy, but she never missed a day, was quite religious and watched Mass each day on tv, and always talked about a mother’s love… . My brother wanted to get rid of her, but I said “no” and laughed. He had seen her steal dishwashing liquid.
    All of a sudden, aide number one said she was quitting, and that I was tired of her. I was traumatized, but I couldn’t stop her. Aide number 2, the crazy one, became the principal helper. I believe now thatshe worked against us behind the scenes.
    About two months after that, I found the most gentle, caring person to help my mother. The first day she was there, we were talking, and I told her that I was leaving but that my brother would be there that evening and the next afternoon. She said yes and that she would do laundry. Then she said “What if she falls”? I said she wouldn’t fall if she held onto her when she was walking. What I didn’t know was that aide number one told her to do laundry, but she didn’t tell her to do laundry when my brother was there, and she let my mother fall. If only I had questioned her about falling.
    My mother’s fall was not ordinary. It really wasn’t too serious, but some “stuff” came out on her knee, and my brother and sister said it looked like an infection. I put some garlic and lime water on it, and after a month, her leg was reddish, so I decided to take her to Med Express. The doctor there said it was a serious infection, and that it had probably gotten into her bones or blood, and that I needed to take her to the emergency room. Well, in the hospital, she was put on IV antibiotics, and kept in the hospital for two days. When she got out, her knee was like mush. To make a long story short, she was never the same after being poisoned with antibiotics. And…I found out later that she didn’t have an infection. The situation got worse and worse, with aide number two becoming indispensable to my mother’s care because she seemed to be able to handle her and lift her when others couldn’t.
    But, she started showing herself to be a pathological liar. She wouldn’t let anyone into the bathroom when she was washing my mother. One day I went in and saw a huge bedsore and that her foot had some horrible fungal infection. The final blow was when she came to work with what looked like a cold, and she asked me if she could stay and I said “yes” and that that was what she got between seasons. She didn’t answer. About three days later my mother had pneumonia. It killed her. My brother and I also got it. But here’s something I didn’t know. There are strands of pneumonia that become chronic and can cause heart trouble, atherosclerosis, etc. I am afraid that I have atherosclerosis and other problems now as a CAT scan shows. I was a healthy woman before that. My brother has had by-pass surgery, too, since my mother died.
    I am so very distressed because of my guilt. Every decision I made regarding my mother in the last year of her life was wrong. It is true that the stress was almost unbearable, and with my mother having dementia, she couldn’t or wouldn’t tell me what these women were doing to her. It breaks my heart. I will never get over it. I have lost my job, my friends, my personality, my personality, my sanity, and I worry about losing my brother. This is in addition to losing my mother. I feel an intense, horrible pain in my heart, and I feel completely alone. I put several lives in jeopardy. It’s really unbearable. I am so glad when nighttime comes so I can sleep and not be expected to participate in life. I feel responsible for what happened because I should have gotten rid of the aide who was behind every wrong decision that I made. She was horrible, but I kept her and it has changed our lives forever. Now, I have intense emotional problems and intense physical problems. I don’t know which one to dwell on first.

    • Frank  August 7, 2019 at 2:36 am Reply

      Hello Jean,

      My mom passed a few weeks ago and she too had dementia. I thought I would die and it felt like I was coming out of my skin. I now hate dark rooms, have panic (grief) attacks and became claustrophobic (I never suffered from these before). I also did the “What could have I done differently” bit. Know you mom is out of her pain, like my mom is now. In the end she stopped talking, became bed-ridden suffered bed sores and infections after infections. Does it help me knowing she’s in a painless, better, place? Not really. All my logical reasons why she’s better off not being here just fall apart when the pain, the emptiness of my mom not being that constant presence hits me. I don’t know what to do with myself when my mom was my world. I was truly my mother’s son.

      Just know that someone has heard you and you aren’t alone.

      • Jean  August 10, 2019 at 3:35 pm

        Hello Frank,
        Thanks very much for your response.
        After writing my piece, things are worse for me. I really think that unending, harsh, and rejecting family pressure on me caused me to change how I did things for my mother on a subconscious level. I just made one mistake in judgement after another. And my mother, with dementia, knew everything that was going on. She knew about people and their motivations–but wouldn’t say anything. She was amazing.
        My sister died almost five years ago and then my mother last year. I am really going crazy with guilt (although I had it from before her death and tried to erase guilt by keeping her alive, if that makes sense.) Maybe I just tried too hard–I don’t know.
        Here’s the horrible part. If I had just tried to make peace with my family, maybe things would have been so much better.
        I am really in hell just thinking I lost my chance to keep my mother alive. I miss her so very, very much. Actually, I feel totally alone now. She was adorable, but one influential family member didn’t like her.
        She had nothing wrong with her physically, and the dementia was stable. She would, though, stand up and try to walk without her cane. That’s one of the things that ended up killing her. As I said before, one aide told the new aide to do laundry, but gave her incomplete instructions, failing to tell her to wait for my brother to arrive to do laundry. The new aide said to me, “What if she falls?” but the way she said that made me think she was asking what to do if she falls. I said, “She isn’t going to fall. Just make sure you are always holding onto her.” She left my mother alone to do laundry the next morning and my mother stood up and fell.
        Oh, the questions and guilt I feel about this are enormous and crippling. I keep remembering new things and putting things together. It feels like hell and that I don’t deserve to live. Something was wrong with me but I didn’t know it. Most of this stuff I have realized much too late!

        Also, later my mother had a small blood clot on her leg from the fall, and it was misdiagnosed as an infection by a doctor and the hospital. It really makes me sick to my stomach. The hospital ended up killing her by pumping her with antibiotics. If only I had taken a warm cloth and put it on her knee. I just can’t say why I didn’t do it. Well, it’s true that the doctor told me In error that she had a life-threatening infection that had probably gotten into her blood and her bones. I rushed her to the hospital, even though my mother said she didn’t want to go to the hospital. Oh, God, help me.
        I hope you are better. Are you?
        Take care.

  49. Belinda Cluff  June 10, 2019 at 4:49 am Reply

    You always hear people regretting g not saying this or that. Then it happens to you. I have only experienced two weeks of pain. I feel sad, devastated and sick. I miss my mum.

  50. Thomas Stinson  June 1, 2019 at 1:02 pm Reply

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  51. Mara Dozier  May 22, 2019 at 12:42 pm Reply

    My husbands ex-wife passed away suddenly on May 6th. They have a daughter together, and I have been in her life since she was 5, she is now 17. We live in the same town, so we always saw each other , and her and I worked well with her mom at Co-parenting along with my husband. My step-daughter is weeks away from graduating HS, and then heading off to University in the fall. Her mother was an alum of the school, and she planned everything, they were so excited about decorating her dorm, freshman orientation, everything. My SD (Step-daughter) and I have always been semi-close, but never had a mother daughter relationship, as I was very careful not to interfere with that. The two of them were thick as thieves, best friends really. I have been trying to comfort my SD, and provide support, but she doesn’t want it. She has totally withdrawn from me, and her father. She is living with us now, but is only at the house 60% of the time, as she continues to go to her mothers townhouse to “pack” but nothing gets accomplished. I have asked what I can do, and she tells me I am trying to hard, and that she will come to me if she needs anything. So, I haven’t talked about anything with her about future plans, etc…

    On top of it all, my husbands father and step-mother are reaching out to my SD directly and taking her places. Which is wonderful, but a little history. When my husband and his ex were divorced, they discontinued a relationship with him and took his ex in as their own daughter. We see them twice a year at birthdays and Christmas, as we have two other children together.
    My husbands father has contacted him to tell him how he needs to set up an account for my SD with the life insurance money, as he was still the beneficiary. 1. they have no right to tell us what to do, and I know this, however they have been more or less sneaking visits with my SD and not telling us, or inviting us or the other children. I was told as the memorial by the ex’s friend, that my husband and I couldn’t possibly provide the support my SD needs, because we have two other children. It was also mentioned by my SD uncle that we need to make sure all the insurance goes to my SD, and not to my other two kids. We have no idea even how much the policy was for, we don’t think much only $50,000. But I nor he would ever take her money away from her. But get this, when it came to paying for the cremation, memorial, and all of my SD living expenses, it came out of our pockets. I have kept a log, and I am sad that I had to, but glad I did so that I can pay us back.

    All that being said, my husband and my relationship feels like it could crumble in an instant, as he is basically treated like an idiot by his and his ex wife’s family, and I want so badly to speak up, but he continues to tell me if I get involved I will mess up his relationship with his daughter.

    If anyone can provide me some support, let me know that this type of behavior happens when people die.

    • Jacqueline Becker  June 1, 2019 at 7:29 pm Reply

      People become very strange when there is money involved so just be aware of that. It is still too soon after something as devastating as this for your SD to being acting like normal. You have offered your help and that’s the best thing you have done. She will always remember that. Reason why she won’t be acting rationally is 1. She is in shock. 2. She is a teenager and 3. having the “other family” to contend with, who are not 100% on your side. What you have said is pretty much normal for you and your husband to be experiencing. He is very torn at this time so no pressure at all despite your misgivings. This is a very delicate time in all of your lives so tread very carefully as you would not want to destroy what good solid relationships have been built over the years. Don’t rush things. It is still too soon for her to be deciding what to do with her moms things. It’s going to be hard not to do or say anything especially if you are a very outspoken person. Just remember SD is in deep shock … just being there for her is all you can offer.

  52. Karen Alexander-Perry  April 21, 2019 at 9:33 am Reply

    My husband passed away suddenly 12/9/19. I kept my promise to him and pulled him off of life support as their was no hope for him after a catastrophic event. He also did not want a funeral, cremation & only a celebration of life. I cry every day over something, a memory, song….doesn’t matter. Some said it’s because I didn’t have closure and when I had my husband’s party it would get better. Well I had the party and it was a wonderful turnout. He is a retired policeman and his brothers in blue showed up in force. This was not a solemn occasion this was a party! This was what he wanted. It was great to hear everyone go up and tell a story or share a memory. It made me more proud of the man I was married to and also more in love with him. But now he’s gone…I put up the front at work but there are times I hide in the ladies room when emotions takeover. I say goodnight and hug his ashes /kiss them/talk to them… The party didn’t give me closure…what does that even mean? It just made me miss him more

    • Ruth  April 30, 2019 at 10:48 am Reply

      Hello Karen,
      Your story resonated with me so much. My husband died of oesophageal cancer on November 25, 2018. He didn’t want a funeral, he didn’t want to put me through that. He had a “cremation without ceremony“. Nobody was there, not even me. After his body had been taken from our house the next time I saw him was when his ashes were returned to me in an urn.
      Instead of a funeral Steve organised a party around his birthday in January. It was a wonderful turnout, and again replicating your emotions, I was so proud of my husband. But I am over five months down the road, not one day goes by when I don’t cry for him, for our stolen time and for the emptiness I feel without him. So I am sending you my love and best wishes across the miles. Take care of yourself and hopefully we will all walk in the sunshine soon.

  53. Sherry Tucker  April 17, 2019 at 2:07 pm Reply

    Today, April 17, marks the second year since my 21 year-old daughter was suddenly and tragically killed in a traffic accident. She was a junior at UT Austin–so happy and lovely. I came across this blog just now. Thank you. I am aching and grieving, and expect to do so in some form for the rest of my life. Yet, there is hope and I hold on to it so close.

    • Patti FrankishVogt  April 19, 2019 at 3:53 pm Reply

      I lost a daughter of 23 in a car hi-jacking incident 13 years ago. I have learnt to adapt to life without her, constantly wondering what she would be like after each passing year. The grief & pain remains because we loved so much. It is the learning to adapt to the void. I have put the incident in a box far away in my mind & if I visit it, it’s like yesterday but feels like 100 years ago at times because I have not seen or hugged her for so long. Grief stays while we learn to adapt to life without that lived one.

  54. wisdom  April 14, 2019 at 6:34 pm Reply

    it nice to be out here

  55. Uma  April 14, 2019 at 5:32 pm Reply

    Thanks to Bridgette for her insightful comments. I think I am going through both the mourning and grieving for my husband who passed away last January 25. I am going through intense emotional and physical pain.

  56. Freya  April 10, 2019 at 6:57 pm Reply

    Dear WYG: I love your original article and shared it with other grieving people before you added the preface. It speaks the truth to me and many others who face endless pressures by those in the non grieving world to ‘get over it.’

    I will never get over my partner’s dying and death in 2016 but it doesn’t mean that I’m curled up in a corner. I live a double life, pretending everything is normal at work and with friends and acquaintances who don’t get grief, while crying and writing endlessly about my grief in my time alone at home. I’ve learnt through endless reading that this is normal, healthy, and helpful. Facing up to the pain instead of playing stoic old me, has been life changing in a very positive way. I only discuss my feelings with select people because I’m so tired of other people’s judgement when I speak the truth. I often wonder how many thousands of other people are walking around carrying their grief like an invisible secret?

    Our grief denying society is doing so much harm and articles like yours are badly needed. I’m greatly saddened that you’ve added the preface as it undermines the powerful earlier message that so many people need. The points you’ve made in the preface stood out clearly to me in the original text. The original version was more precious than gold. A million thanks.

    • Charmaine Tunn  November 24, 2019 at 3:51 pm Reply

      I so recognise the ‘double life’. My son died 6 months ago. When people ask me how I am, I feel they think I should be ‘getting over’ it. I never say what I am really feeling. One person recently told me I had to ‘draw a line in the sand’ or I would end up with no friends: even the best of them would leave me. This upset me a great deal and I have been thinking about it for days. Am I grieving too much? Am I holding on to my grief? Am I taking longer than ‘other’ people? It has floored even me how sad and regretful I still am. So I say I am OK but I’m not. I go on social outings, I say I am fine, but I’m not. I wonder is this how it is for most people after say, 6 months, or however long people think it is OK to grieve ‘in the open’?

  57. Lorraine brown  April 10, 2019 at 2:48 am Reply

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  58. Kelly  April 10, 2019 at 12:18 am Reply

    Hi Leeson: I’m so sorry that you’ve gone through so much! I pray that the stigma associated with mental health challenges will go away sooner than later. There are so many people suffering, that need help but won’t reach out because they are afraid of what others will say/think. Please hang in there and I’ll pray for you and your little one! Take care!

  59. Amanda  April 9, 2019 at 4:59 pm Reply

    Grief is misplaced love, so this article basically tells us we won’t get over that love. Everyone grieves differently but nobody is the same after losing someone so important to them. Again, this is a very touching article and I’m glad I came across it.

  60. Amanda  April 9, 2019 at 4:52 pm Reply

    I love this!! Thank you for this article! This is one of the best things I have read about grieving.

    • Nandy  July 29, 2020 at 7:55 pm Reply

      I can’t escape the pain its too deep? I lost both my parents in 2004 but it feels like its just happened, I even blame God for breaking my own heart to prove to me tht he only takes the best.
      I cry everyday …I mean everyday, I can’t cope at all and I’m so tired of this life I really need to move on.
      I miss them so very much.
      This thing affected my life so bad coz its been years now.
      I tried to pray so hard …asking God to give me the strength to carry on but I still feel the same especially when I’m alone.

      • Litsa  July 29, 2020 at 9:13 pm

        I am so sorry for your loss and how difficult these years have been for you. Do you have a therapist you are working with? Grief is always good days and bad days, but when so many years have passed and it is still so challenging to carry every day, that is often a sign that professional support is what you need to build the strength to carry forward. I would strongly recommend speaking with someone if you haven’t – grief.com has a listing of grief counselors or you can always contact your health insurance if you have it. They can tell you providers who accept your insurance. You can also call the national suicide prevention hotline any time, 24/7. This is not just for if people are thinking of giving up or hurting themselves. Prevention means providing support whenever people are feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. You can reach them at 1-800-273-8255.

  61. Bridgett Gee  April 9, 2019 at 8:17 am Reply

    This article had useful information, but she didn’t explain the difference between mourning and grieving.

    My perfect 20 yr old daughter died in a freak car accident on Labor Day 2014, here one day, gone another. The one thing not mentioned in this article is the difference between mourning and grieving. Mourning is the intense emotional (and for me physical pain) that accompanies the immediate days, weeks, month, years after the death of a loved one. It’s hopeless, all-encompassing and dark and you think you will never recover. My therapist referred to this period as it’s like having a wet, cold, heavy blanket on you that you can’t remove. Like everything in life, everyone experiences mourning differently. I was in mourning for two years after Madeline’s sudden death. I went to therapy; my therapist also experienced the death of a child, her 22 yr old son in a car accident. I worked in the MH field for years and even so, I couldn’t even begin to know how to navigate these waters. For me, therapy was the key to the beginning of the understanding of how I was going to spend the rest of my life. I didn’t go the group therapy route bc, of my professional background and I knew I wanted the floor all to myself. I spent one year in therapy and then I knew what I had to do. Without therapy, I would’ve been floating out there in nowhere. Not knowing how to articulate or understand what was happening to me. It was a Godsend. I believe that everyone who experiences the death of a close loved one needs to go to some form of therapy, you need to talk, cry and understand you’re not losing your mind. Those intense feelings are the price of love. After that and now my “new normal” is when the grieving began. To me, it is the reality of how I will spend the rest of my life. It’s not as intense as mourning, but mourning does come in waves during times when I miss Madeline most, as it “normal” for the loss of a child.

    When the intensity goes away the grieving begins, which I will do for the rest of my life. Grieving is the longing for the person who died, that feeling you get when you open your eyes in the morning, all day and ending when you say goodnight to them. Over time (at least for me) the pain lessens. One friend who lost a child years ago said “In the beginning I had a big rock in my pocket, over time it gets smaller but I’m still left with a pebble and at times my finger hits that pebble and it hurts a little and it reminds me of the burden I carry and how far I’ve come.” My therapist told me the happiest of families recover better when experiencing the loss of a child, which we were. Nothing was left unsaid and all feelings of love were experienced and felt daily when she was alive. That is what helps to heal; we remind ourselves daily that Madeline would NEVER want us to spend the rest of lives sad and living in the past and it keeps us going. God Bless all mourners, I hope what I’ve experienced those who lost someone significant to them. I hope you find comfort and healing as the days pass.

  62. Kathleen  April 8, 2019 at 11:53 pm Reply

    Thank you Eleanor, your article validates what I’ve been experiencing 6 7 months after the death of my son.

  63. Jennifer  April 8, 2019 at 5:03 pm Reply

    I wish I had some of the optimism that some of you have expressed. For me, everyday gets harder not easier. I am in so much pain and agony every moment of everyday. My reason for getting out of bed in the morning is so I can continue to work on his estate as I had promised… I have no idea what I am supposed to do the day after it is closed out. I absolutely, agree I will never recover from losing the love of my life.

  64. Joe  April 6, 2019 at 8:24 am Reply

    I guess it all comes down to this folks:

    Do you want to be lied to or told the truth? If you go to the doctor and have a terminal illness and the doctor tells you “all is well, no worries” does that then mean all is well? NO, your still going to die regardless of the “good news” the doctor spoke.

    He simply did not tell you the truth. This article is spot on (in my opinion). Id rather be told the truth than live in a make believe world or see life thru rose colored glasses. WE will never recover from our loses (there is no way on earth our loved ones will ever come back which is the old real recovery) but we will survive but in a whole other world with (less of everything). That’s the way i see it after 3 years.

    Is life still worth living at this point? Early on i would have said NO, now at least the jury is still out. That’s my only hope at this time. And that’s a lot from a guy like me, my wife tells me I’m a pessimist, I say I’m a realist. It seems like “time” is our only true friend after loss. This is my reality.

  65. Taylor  April 5, 2019 at 3:17 pm Reply

    Great article! I especially like the part about focusing on warm memories. To me, the worst part of grieving is the first two or three months after a friend has passed. All I could think about was how much I missed him. Then a friend of mine told me she discovered a website where she could create a permanent page for her friend. She felt better as she was creating the page and later when she was feeling down, viewing the page on her smartphone or tablet made her feel better.

    So, I created a page for my friend’s “warm memories” and invited his other friends to contribute stories and pictures to the page. Now we all feel like he is with us. It was a great healing tool! And we are continuously adding funny stories to his page.

    For those interested, the website is https://www.DepartedRegistry.com. There is a nominal one-time fee for creating a forever page, but it has been a BIG help in keeping our focus on the warm memories.

  66. Lori  April 5, 2019 at 10:53 am Reply

    Hello – I’m a social worker working with the bereaved in a hospice program. The word I often use in my work is that grief “softens” over time – it never “goes away” just as the love for your person doesn’t “go away”. But it becomes less painful. Some people find that term helpful…

  67. James Smith  April 4, 2019 at 2:16 pm Reply

    Thank you WYG my mother has just died and I am glad you are here, feels like having an understanding friend, my way is the poets way.

    They ache

    when it rains

    old familiar pains

    gained playing games

    the wining and the losing

    the right the wrong choosing

    the price we pay for another day

  68. Andrea  April 3, 2019 at 10:36 pm Reply

    I’m 22 years out from the death of my husband, and there isn’t a day goes by, even today, that I don’t think about him. He died young, of cancer, and the pain of those first days was horrible.. numbing…lost…thinking I couldn’t go on like this for too much longer. I realized one day that an hour had gone by without pain…then a few hours…then a day…then several days…and the crushing, suffocating pain over time diffused into an appreciation of our time together…always tinged with what could and should have been. As more time passed, I came to reject the idea that I would ever “be over” his death, but would instead have to incorporate his death into my life. Always appreciating what we had, still mourning in a way what could have been. This is a long way of saying it gets better. It takes a while. But it does get better. And the fact that we mourn means – in my mind, anyway, that I had something special…and that over time I felt gratitude for that piece of history that I will never, and should never, erase.

    • Sue  April 9, 2019 at 5:01 pm Reply

      What a wonderful commentary Andrea! I lost my husband 3 days after Thanksgiving last year. I am not even 6 months out from losing him and I am trying my best to adjust to this absolutely terrible “new normal” life of mine. I was very moved with what you had to say about your loss of 22 years ago. You have given me the hope that things will get better and I so appreciate your comment – “Always appreciating what we had, still mourning in a way what could have been.” I so feel this way too! But it gives me strength in knowing that it is possible to go forward with my hubby always with me in spirit.

  69. Joe  April 3, 2019 at 1:43 pm Reply

    I feel for you Mark – I also lost my 17 year old son (car accident) in 2016. That was the day I became two people (one before and one after). Obviously I prefer the former. A day (really every second) doesn’t go by without regret, guilt, and horrible sorrow along with dozens of other emotions i cant even put into words.

    In 3 years after trying EVERYTHING that i thought would help I finally gave up because i realized, there is nothing that really helps except to bring my son back (which isn’t going to ever happen). Once you lose hope (I’m there now) that’s when the real pain starts. One day at a time as they say.

    The best thing anyone ever said to me was “that’s the most fu&ked up think Ive ever heard of” when he found out what happened. He didn’t give me any BS that doesn’t do anything from everyone else (who hasn’t lost a kid). I wish I had better news for you my friend but i don;t, other than I’m in the same boat as you. Each day is like climbing a mountain. At the end of the night my only “hope” is that i fall asleep and forget about the reality of it all for a while.

    My only suggestion is to take all good things every day that you like (or used to like) and get rid of negative things and people, that helps a little at least.

    That said, we (you / me / everyone on this page) will survive, it just isn’t the same world we now live in.

    • Marian  April 5, 2019 at 6:44 pm Reply

      Thank you!
      You have truly expressed every thought I am feeling. It is difficult to put into words. I hope that people read and internalise your words. I too, have lost my 17 year old son. No words can express my feelings! Thank you, Joe!

  70. GaryB  April 3, 2019 at 1:08 pm Reply

    I am going on 8 months since my wifes shocking and sudden passing from lung to brain cancer. I kiss our companion urn next to my bed good night and good morning. We had just retired after 37 years marriage and 43 years of solid love for each other. We worked hard through most of our life-never really fortunate and struggling financially but we took care of our 4 children and always had a roof over our head-mostly rented. Finally it was our time- we had grand children and we were able to buy our dream retirement home (only due to my Moms passing 2 years prior to my wifes and our inheritance). But we had just entered a wonderful phase of life retirement me at 64 and my wife on back disability. She got all of 2 months of the good life before some evil force decided “enough of that for you”. Now all my wonderful plans for trips- anniversary parties-vacations etc… GONE. The beautiful home? its now a house with all furniture purchases once a plan now put on permanent hold. There is now no need to furnish complete and in style as we had planned. There are 2 empty bedrooms and a basement once to be readied for ultimate “man cave” status is basically just a cluttered unorganized storage place for all our unopened boxes we never go to go through. Its not a home any longer-shes gone- its just a house. I now desperately scramble to find a job just to get away from here for 40 hours a week and remember I retired not do do so and now right back into the rat race I go. What else is there to do? I cannot sit and look at the walls and stare out at our beautiful backyard and inground pool. That was all for her! ALL for her and I was so proud to have brought it to her. Now without her why do I need all this? It was once a perfect fit for the 2 of us- Now alone its way too much . Unfortunately I am allowed to “age on” while she is gone and that too depresses me. I read about those who pass only months after they lose their spouse and how lucky are they? Me? Now I kiss a box of ashes as I enter darkness of my room at night. Then when I get up in the morning and say to myself “not again” I kiss that box good morning. Yeah welcome to my Golden years- the ones I worked my ass off for 40 years to get to with my wife. It was for us to now sit back and celebrate all we did and look forward to all we can do. It was always to be with and for her. Now we were both robbed and grief and I will be partners in life until I am finally rid of it on my own last breath. I did not want this “journey”. I am a changed forever person-one once with so much life and happiness- a good guy to be around of I say so myself. Yeah because of my wife! It was her that made me smile-laugh and be happy go lucky. It was her that made me feel so good that I bought a tuxedo for 4 weddings. We only got to 1 and she missed our 2nd due to diagnosis and surgery 2 days before! The pride and joy tuxedo now shoved away in anger. It was for us- we were Cary Grant and Myrna Loy…now its all gone and over. I have told the kids to cremate me with that tuxedo. I want to be sure I have it with me when I finally see my wife again!

  71. Mark Henricks  April 3, 2019 at 12:34 pm Reply

    I am not sure I see the benefit of having yet another person tell me I won’t ever recover from my son Brady’s death from suicide at age 16 in 2016. Perhaps it’s clear to others why people who are such desperate pain that they would willingly lie down and die must endlessly be told that they’ll never recover. Personally, I don’t get it.

    • Eleanor Haley  April 3, 2019 at 1:38 pm Reply


      I’m so sorry about the death of your son. My heart goes out to you.

      I want to emphasize for all our readers that there is always hope of healing from the intense pain. Where there is grief there will always be some potential for pain, but hopefully, over time, it will become something a person learns how to live and cope with. Something more manageable and which doesn’t prevent the person from living a life that they find meaningful. Though, I do know this can often take a very long time.

      In saying we don’t recover from grief, I’m not trying to say that we never feel better. Though pain is inherent in grief, I see grief as being more than the nightmarish parts.

      As we said in the article, it is possible for one’s relationship with grief to change so that it begins to play a different role in their life. A role that can still bring pain, of course, but which also connects a person to memories of their loved ones and which represents the imprint that person had on the world as well as the ongoing role they play in the lives of those who continue to love them.

      If this isn’t your experience and/or if you disagree, I completely support you in doing so. Everyone experiences grief differently.

      • Jason Nugent  April 3, 2019 at 2:33 pm

        I have to say that I agree with Mark. The premise of this article disturbs me. I expect to read something like this on Facebook from someone who has only their own limited experience as their guide. I’ve read and heard things like, “You’ll never get over it!”, “You’ll never be the same!” (and NOT in a positive way). There is such a thing as resolved grief, and as a contributor here, you already know this. No, I don’t want someone to pressure me into ‘speeding up’ my recovery or hurrying to resolve my grief. But some encouragement in the direction of resolving grief would be helpful. I lost my 16 year old son, Micah, last August when he drowned in Lake Erie. And no, I will never be the same. But the EAP counseling, support from friends and family, and the tangible presence of God in our lives is leading towards resolution. Not a quick one, not an easy one, but to eventually be able to reach out to others who are stuck in unresolved pain. It is true that some people will never see their grief resolved. But not because it wasn’t possible. This could be a case of semantics, but if that’s the case, please clarify that in your article. I’m really not trying to be hypercritical, I just wanted to affirm Mark’s feelings and say that they line up with my own.

      • Mark Henricks  April 3, 2019 at 3:06 pm

        Jason: I’m sorry for your loss. It has been extremely difficult for me since my son died. However, I am much better today than I used to be. For instance, now it may be several minutes after I wake up before I think about what happened with Brady. From where you are now, that may be hard to believe. But I think it’s a realistic hope. I recall one long-bereaved father telling me that one year at least he didn’t realize it was the anniversary of his child’s death until the end of the day. That may not be recovery, but it’s pretty close if you ask me. I’d take it. I hope you get some peace today.

      • Eleanor Haley  April 3, 2019 at 4:52 pm

        Dear Jason,

        First of all, thank you for sharing your perspective. I would never wish to question your experience with grief and healing and, speaking generally, I agree with you about the healing that is possible and, frankly, necessary.

        As I mentioned in the article, semantics and how we talk about grief do seem to be so important in this conversation. If for no other reason than for the fact that so much of grief is unique to the individual and subjective. I wonder if the place where we differ is how we conceptualize grief and the idea of grief recovery. I’ve said much of what I might say here in my response to Mark who originally began this thread so I will try not to be redundant.

        I will simply say that when I say that grief remains a part of our lives I do NOT mean the intense pain of grief. No one should expect to live with the intense pain of grief for their entire lives and, if someone is struggling with pain on any scale that causes them personal distress, I fully believe (as you said) that things like counseling, support, and other methods of coping offer important help towards healing, one day at a time, bit by bit.

        However, as a contributor here, someone who has experienced loss myself and who’s had years of experience working with grieving people, I do not believe that there is such a thing as resolved grief. Resolved pain? Okay. Resolved conflict, both internal and external? Yes. But the grief remains – it just takes a different form. Again, though, this goes back to how you conceptualize grief. I conceptualize grief as a part of the ongoing relationship you have with the person who died, your memories of the past, the feelings that you have around the loss, and many other things.

        Finally, as I said to Mark, I’ve seen how the expectation of finding recovery and resolution can leave people feeling baffled and abnormal when grief continue to have an impact (even if that impact isn’t negative) on their lives. So, rather than grief resolution being the endgame, I’m more comfortable encouraging people to find hope in the belief that you can change the role that grief will play in your life and that you can find healing, purpose, comfort, and an enduring connection.

      • Chelle  April 3, 2019 at 5:11 pm

        Jason, the biggest take away here is that grief is different for the individual. Your experience is not my experience. My partner died nearly 17 years ago and I feel grief every day. I will never ‘recover’ the way the world around me wants me to. I live life, I laugh, I have fun but I am also deeply sad and some days, the weight of grief feels heavy. Society tends to see recovery from grief as you are back to what you were before that person died, which is ludicrous. As time goes on, society is less willing to grant you the space to grieve. I know this from experience.

        “It is true that some people will never see their grief resolved. But not because it wasn’t possible.” – you may not want to cause offense with these words but you do. You are saying to me that I could have recovered if I really wanted to, I just choose not to. Try to remember that your experience is yours and if you have manged to ‘recover’ that is amazing, special and rare. But please don’t tell other people that they are choosing not to recover.

      • Mark Henricks  April 3, 2019 at 3:00 pm

        I’m sure you are trying to help. I applaud you for wanting to emphasize that there is always hope for healing. I don’t see that starting off by stressing that we’ll never recover and then returning to that theme repeatedly serves that admirable goal. You are of course aware that bereaved people, especially parents bereaved by suicide, are at much higher risk of suicide than other people. Perhaps it is obvious to everybody how it helps someone in that position to tell them that they’ll never recover. It’s not to me. Even if you later concede that they might recover a little after a long time, I don’t see what positive goal you’re trying to accomplish here.

      • Eleanor Haley  April 3, 2019 at 4:17 pm

        Hey Mark,

        Thank you for sharing your perspective on this. I think it’s helpful for us and hopefully for others as well. I don’t know that we disagree about anything, except how we might define the experience of living with grief or what it might mean to recover from grief.

        I can certainly see your point about how the article seemingly starts off in a way that seems negative. My intent was to quickly qualify that living with grief isn’t synonymous with living a life of intense pain. However, I can see how someone who doesn’t share my perspective (that grief is about more than just the pain) or whose loss is very recent, may interpret this very differently than I intended. You’ve indeed given me something to think about.

        That said, I remain hesitant to say that we ever “recover” from grief. Because I understand grief to be a part of the continued relationship we have with the person who died, the rituals and traditions we continue in their honor, and yes, the pangs of pain that can hit us years afterward on an otherwise good day. My experience of grief, and what I’ve come to understand after working with many grieving people, is that grief is always there, even if it’s just a little.

        I also come from the perspective of seeing people being told they will “recover from grief” and then seeing these people feel confused or abnormal when they find years down the line that grief is still a part of their lives. Or perhaps they find that something brings their grief to the surface years later – maybe a milestone or another important event – and they wonder, why is this still coming up?

        I only mean to normalize this experience and to perhaps reframe the goal of grieving, if you will, from making complete grief recovery to instead, learning how to live with grief. And when I say that, I don’t mean learning how to live with the intense pain of grief, I absolutely believe we need to heal from the intense pain of grief and no one should feel condemned to living with this. Rather, I mean recognizing that scars will remain, but that the scars won’t prevent them from feeling ‘okay’ someday or from achieving a sense of well-being or from finding purpose in life or, most importantly, from living a life that allows them to feel close to their loved one despite their physical absence and which allows them to honor, connect with, and remember their loved one in a way which feels warm and comforting.

        Again, I thank you for sharing your perspective. I think it really highlights how differently we all experience grief. Though we share commonalities, our journeys are all so individual and we can really learn from one another. And as I said, you’ve given me something to think about regarding the beginning of this article and I will think about what I may be able to add to reframe my intent a little bit.

      • Mark Henricks  April 4, 2019 at 2:10 pm

        I’m sure you mean well, Elizabeth. I’m less sure that you can make a blanket statement that grievers never recover from grief while at the same time maintaining that everyone’s grief is different. Although both statements are very commonly made by people talking or writing about grief, I don’t see how both can be correct. The second denies the possibility of the first. And I think the second is more correct.

        Obviously, I can’t change what happened. Nor am I likely to forget my only son if I live to be 1,000. But neither of these is necessary for recovery. Here are the six relevant definitions of recovery from Dictionary.com, which is as good a source as any:

        an act of recovering.
        the regaining of or possibility of regaining something lost or taken away.
        restoration or return to health from sickness.
        restoration or return to any former and better state or condition.
        time required for recovering.
        something that is gained in recovering

        Of these, only the second is something we can say for sure isn’t going to happen. Brady died and he’s not coming back. (At least if he did he’d be the first ever.) The others are absolutely possible and I absolutely intend and expect to recover in those senses of the word.

      • Jody Kubis Sen  April 4, 2019 at 5:17 pm

        Thank you Eleanor,
        I think a part of the problem with attempting to discuss the topic of grief and loss is that we have very limited language for much of what we grieve. The western culture is especially impoverished of rituals and observances that lend the respect/honor due to those we love with the fierceness that when we experience their absence, our world as we know it, expect it, implodes and explodes all at the same time. The reason we have such limited language is because we do not engage in conversations of death, grief, and loss. The death of a child is one of those disenfranchised griefs that no one talks about. The out of order death is an enormous complexity of emotions. It is fraught with landmines that can take off a limb at any “tiny” seeming misstep. I have experienced those feelings of guilt over others’ expectations of where I “should” be in my process. Because we are so not practiced in the skill of talking about grief and loss, our semantics operate in a very small window. I appreciate this forum for this very reason. If we can share with each other and support each other and understand that each loss we experience , whether a being, a dream, a plan, will have it’s very unique grief and mourning.

      • Jacqueline Becker  June 1, 2019 at 6:51 pm

        Eleanor, Mark, Jason, Chelle, Jody thank you all for your wonderful input on this subject. I have throughly “enjoyed” the discussion. Eleanor you have impressed me immensely. Your having worked with many grieving people enlightens us that grief will always be there, even if it’s just a little. My teenage son’s suicide devastated me and left me childless but in time, I decided to reinvest in life again by having two more. If I hadn’t done that, I honestly don’t think I would have “recovered” as well as I have. Life for me is good again but I am also aware that there will always be a dark cloud above me … I will never be oblivious of that deep loss. So yes it’s good to reiterate that we are all so different in our grieving and to be respectfully aware of our differences.

    • Grace Young  April 3, 2019 at 4:48 pm Reply

      I hear you- I don’t get it either. When my firstborn son Jack Young Jr. died by suicide on his 27th birthday, it was a blow to everyone who knew him. Our family created Particle Accelerator in memory of Jack Young Jr. in response. It’s an annual all day music festival in our sweet little town of Putnam, CT. Local bands donate their time, we have booths with information about how to get help in our area, food, bounce houses, and our Wall of Angels with luminaries. It’s being held on June 8, 2019. We figure, if we can save a life, then he will not have died in vain.

    • TRACY  February 28, 2020 at 8:41 am Reply

      Jason and Mark, thank you.

      My exquisite, almost 19 year old daughter died 3 weeks ago,suddenly. Her 21 year old sibling and best friend is as devastated as I am. The grief is overwhelming and the world has changed in an instance. One which we don’t want. BUT, the thought of these feelings being forever make it even more overwhelming. Isabella lived life. She’d had a double transplant one year ago, and appreciated every moment life gave her – from running in the rain, to dancing on stage, to the absolute sheer enjoyment of “just living”. She never stopped laughing, smiling, loving. It would be her absolute worst fear to think that we would continue to grieve in this manner for the rest of our lives – the life she fought so hard for. So, Jason and Mark – thank you for giving me hope that it is not abnormal to crave desperately the need to get to a place where I could even smile again.

    • TRACY  February 28, 2020 at 8:45 am Reply

      Mark and Jason, thank you.

      My exquisite, almost 19 year old daughter died 3 weeks ago,suddenly. Her 21 year old sibling and best friend is as devastated as I am. The grief is overwhelming and the world has changed in an instance. One which we don’t want. BUT, the thought of these feelings being forever make it even more overwhelming. Isabella lived life. She’d had a double transplant one year ago, and appreciated every moment life gave her – from running in the rain, to dancing on stage, to the absolute sheer enjoyment of “just living”. She never stopped laughing, smiling, loving. It would be her absolute worst fear to think that we would continue to grieve in this manner for the rest of our lives – the life she fought so hard for. So, Jason and Mark – thank you for giving me hope that it is not abnormal to crave desperately the need to get to a place where I could even smile again.

  72. jacob  April 3, 2019 at 11:57 am Reply

    Again, just love your posts… you have a great way of saying it all. Your writing hits the mark.

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