The other day my husband and I were in the car and Into the Mystic came on the radio. Here’s the exchange that followed:
Me: Oh! It’s my funeral song!
Him: (exasperated look) I know I know I got it.
There are very few reasons to use the word “lucky” when talking about my dad being in the hospital and ultimately dying. At the time, I would have struggled to come up with any. Death always sucks. There are no two ways around it. But in the years since we lost my dad I have become more aware of the things that can make an already impossible situation even worse. The consequence? My husband is now married to someone who talks about funeral songs and DNR orders on the regular. Bear with me here . . .
When my dad was in the hospital my mom, sister, grandmother, and I were all in agreement about what my dad would have wanted. There were no big debates, arguments, ethics committees, or lawyers. I would love to say this is because our family had some specific, thorough conversation about what all of our end of life wishes were in case the worst was to happen. It wasn’t. We were just lucky. My parents may have talked about it with one another, but what I remember most is that we all just agreed that my dad would not have wanted things to drag out once care was futile.
I didn’t realize at the time how fortunate we were to all feel confident about his wishes. It was much later, regularly seeing the conflict that can arise in families around end of life care, that I realized how lucky we were. Of all the really crappy things we had to deal with, disagreement around goals for care wasn’t one of them. Not all families can say that.
Discussing End of Life Wishes:
It probably goes without saying that we live in society that simply isn’t comfortable with death. Of course no one loves death, but as Americans we are especially averse. We don’t want to talk about end of life wishes because we don’t want to acknowledge death. But we can’t run from death forever and after a loss there is one very productive thing I see many families do: they start talking about their own wishes. Once we stop avoiding the reality of death impacting our families, using this to have some real, frank conversations about end of life wishes can be productive. As much as we don’t want to think about when another loss might come, this important discussion may end up making that time just a tiny bit easier.
1) Do you have an advance directive, living will, or a medical power of attorney? If so, does your family know where it is and what it says?
2) Do you want CPR done?
3) Do you want to be maintained on a ventilator (life-support)? If so, for how long? You should consider these possible different scenarios: when you are terminally ill, when you have had a devastating brain injury or stroke, when you are in a coma.
4) Do you want to be and organ and tissue donor?
5) Do you want to donate your body to science/research/education?
6) Do you want a viewing, closed-casket funeral with burial, or cremation?
7) Are there any specific wishes you have for your funeral or memorial service?
8) If you want to be buried, where?
9) If you want to be cremated, what do you want done with your ashes?
10) Do you have a written will? If so, does your family know where it is and what is says.
11) Do all the important family members know?
There are many documents you can use for end of life planning. Some are very concrete in their approach and others leave things a bit more broad. Find one that will work well for you and your family. Five wishes is a well know advanced directive that is accepted in most states. It is less concrete, but very easy to complete. Click here for Five Wishes.
For a more concrete advance directive form you can use your state’s official advance directive/living will form. Click here to find your state’s advanced directive form.
Though I don’t remember a specific family conversation before my dad died, in the years since we’ve spoken about end of life wishes quite a lot. Not in a crazy, morbid way (says the gal writing for a grief website). Just in a we-get-it-death-happens-we-want-to-be-prepared way. My husband knows my life-support wishes. He knows I want to be an organ donor, that I want to be cremated, and that Into the Mystic is my funeral song. Death sucks and this is an small way to make an impossible time just a little bit easier.
Can you leave it to “luck’? Sure. But if I left it to luck Phish would play at my funeral. So do we recommend it? NO!
Oh, and in case you don’t know it, you can check out Van Morrison singing my funeral song here. If you wandered onto this post because you are making decisions on behalf of someone else, we have some tips about that here.
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