9 Reasons It Is Not Crazy To Grieve A Celebrity Death

Understanding Grief Understanding Grief : Litsa Williams

Raise your hand if David Bowie’s death hit you harder than you expected.  Okay, I can’t see you; you can’t see me, but I assure you, my hand is raised.  I had a plan for today’s post, but I can seem to focus to write it because I have been thinking obsessively about celebrity deaths and the grief that accompanies them.  Let’s be honest, even if David Bowie’s death hasn’t impacted you, you can probably think of another celebrity death that hit you harder than you imagined.

I can remember exactly where my middle school-self was when I found out Kurt Cobain died.  I had a moment of collective grief at Target when someone in the checkout line shared the announcement that Philip Seymour Hoffman died. But I know as well as the next person that it is easy to feel a little self-conscious when you find yourself experiencing grief feelings around the death of a stranger.  The feelings creep up on you and you are saying to yourself, why am I so upset about this, I didn’t even know this person?!?  The sadness doesn’t just feel abstract, it can feel personal.  And that feels, well, kinda weird.

As usual, we are here to answer that nagging question that comes up all too often: am I crazy?  Nope, not even a little bit.  Feeling intense emotions around celebrity deaths is a common experience and, when we are already grieving, it can be even more deeply intensified.  What’s this celebrity grief all about and why does it happen?  Like so many things in grief, there are lots of reasons and no clear rules.  Some people feel intense emotions around a celebrity death, others feel nothing.  Though the reasons for those emotions may vary dramatically, here are just a few things to keep in mind:

  1. We don’t know celebrities, but we know celebrities.  They have often been a regular part of our lives, in the shows and movies we love, creating the music that defines moments in our lives, creating art and writing we love.  We have often seen them grow and change and, in some cases have felt connected to those changes.
  2. We feel connected to our favorite celebs.  These connections are not just about how much we love, appreciate and respect these people, but sometimes because they remind us of, well, us.  This can be as specific as their connection to a moment in our past, or as general as the fact that they are about our age or have something else in common to us.
  3. They are connected to friends or family who have died.  This is a big one.  We heard from so many people yesterday who shared that, though they personally had not been David Bowie fans, their mother, father, spouse, child or other family member who died was a fan.  Each time we lose something else connected to our loved one we can experience the sensation that we are even further from our loved one.
  4. We connect with the way the celeb died.  Whether it is cancer, suicide, overdose, accident or any other type of death, this can hit a nerve.  It may be because we have struggled with the same thing, or it may be because we lost someone in the same way.
  5. That celeb was always there to comfort us.  Maybe it was binge watching The Sopranos to get you through the early days of your own grief.  Or perhaps it was listening to the Velvet Underground that got you through a particularly painful time.  Whatever it was, when a celebrity dies who brought us comfort in our difficult times, it can be especially painful and bring up past losses.
  6. We see it everywhere.  Seriously, everywhere.  You turn on the TV, listen to the radio, log on to social media, look at google news and you just can’t avoid it.  This constant exposure can be overwhelming and it can make it hard to get a break from the tough emotions.
  7. It represents losing our past or our youth.  This is an interesting one, that I hadn’t given a lot of thought (maybe because I am still young enough that I am not experiencing the death of many celebs of my generation).  But someone posted on our facebook page yesterday, “I guess celebrity deaths make me feel like almost nothing is left from my childhood/youth…”.  This is a very real impact of celebrity deaths and, I suspect, probably becomes more and more intensified as more and more celebs of a generation die.
  8. Other people make us feel bad.  When people don’t validate our feelings it just leaves us feeling worse, like we can’t be honest and we don’t have support.  If someone has every made you feel like your grief around a celebrity’s death was irrational or crazy, you may have found yourself hesitating to talk about it with others in the future.
  9. They will never do or create anything new.  One minimizing thing people say when an artist, actor, or musician dies is “at least the world still has all their work”.  Though this is true, and these works of art, music, or political action are often what has touched us about celebs, having their existing works doesn’t mean there isn’t a deep sense of loss that they will never create anything new.  We will hear a new song, read a new book or poem, see a new film, or go to another live performance.  We can simultaneously feel grateful for the works that exist while grieving the loss of their potential future works.

To wrap up, I can help but share something I saw on twitter around Bowie’s death, interestingly tweeted by a fan before his death:

What has your experience been grieving a celebrity death?  Leave a comment to let us know!

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  1. Linda Metcalfe  January 13, 2016 at 9:02 am Reply

    My husband was a huge fan of David Bowie, he died from cancer in August 2015, had he been alive at the time of Bowie’s death, he would have rang me many times throughout Monday, and we would have had lots of memories of his concerts and his music to talk about, I still feel empty and sad because I cannot share these memories with him.

  2. Karen Capucilli  January 13, 2016 at 9:23 am Reply

    Thank you for posting this. It is spot on.

    • sue  January 12, 2017 at 1:34 pm Reply

      I’m a huge fan of george micheal & when the news broke of his death,it hit me pretty hard,I was in such disbelief that I cried,nothing has ever affected my life so much as his passing.I have now accepted that he has gone but he will always be a part of my life

  3. Annette Wallace  January 13, 2016 at 9:33 am Reply

    I was hardest hit (and surprised) by my grief over the death of Robin Williams. How could a man who made us laugh so hard also make us cry. What sadness and what a great loss.

    • Janelle  April 23, 2016 at 9:04 pm Reply

      I agree and now the prince of death just has me in this awkward sad and unpeaceful state. He represents all of my 80s nostalgia as a baby girl. The sound of his music inspired me to be an entertainer. Im 26 now looking to relocate to fullfill those goals and I must say that this one hurts and hit me the hardest. The King of Pop (I loved moonwalker) and The Preacher’s Wife, and Purple Rain. The grief is so sad great and I pray that I am relieved of my grief.

  4. Anonymous  January 13, 2016 at 10:14 am Reply

    I could care less. I have no energy left over to care about someone who I can’t name a single song he ever sang and when I was living in an orphanage a David Bowie look-alike came to visit us as part of their public image/charity events they would do every holiday that I was there.
    It was as if they thought letting us see all these “celebrities” and their look alikes would replace the loss of family, which I never had in the first place. Or didn’t until I met the one person in my life who ended up brutally murdered 16 years after I met him.
    I never believed any of the local celebrities or businesses cared about me as a person; how could they when they didn’t know me and most didn’t want to? I always thought it was like Little Orphan Annie and Daddy Warbucks, that they were doing it for their public image. Later I decided it was a great way to write it off on their taxes. When we went to the Coca Cola company, which was right next to the Children’s Home, I figured they wrote it off on their taxes, all the free gifts that just also all happened to be Coca Cola products. I got a jigsaw puzzle that I still have. When we went to a party where the Cincinnati Bengals of 1985 appeared, we all got gifts that were related to the Bengals. Tell me that doesn’t at least SOUND as if it was for the image as much as they wanted to be there. And some people like the PRINCE look-alike never even showed up four different times after he promised he’d come. The David Bowie look-alike made it clear to us how much he couldn’t stand the Prince look-alike for telling us four different times he’d show up and every time not making an appearance. That’s the only reason I ever decided to like the real David Bowie but I never investigate it; I didn’t go find out what songs he sings. I just liked him via what a person who looked like him said and that’s an awfully tenuous connection.
    It’s more likely that I’m so consumed with energy dealing with my life these days I feel as if I have nothing left over to give to anything else.

  5. Ross Robinson  January 13, 2016 at 11:15 am Reply

    These are so well written. Love the creativity and humor. You have great talent. Thank you.

  6. Debbie  January 13, 2016 at 11:30 am Reply

    I liked your comment at the end of the post ie how lucky we were to be around at the same time as one of our celebrities
    I’m grieving the loss of my 21 year old son from SADS just over a year ago
    I feel privaledged that I had him as my son for that time.

    As a mother I cannot, will not and don’t feel I have to LET GO of him.

    I have devoured books over the last year on connecting with my son and understanding, as far as my mind can allow although my heart is better at it, of where he is right now

    My immediate reaction to David Bowies death, other than understanding what really is going on behind this tabloid headlines etc for his family but that my son would meet him and that there was someone else in heaven, or whatever we choose to call the realm where he now is, that is with Matt. How exciting for him and for me to know.
    In fact we lost someone else this New year a 22 year old boy, which reignited the heat on the burning fire of my every day, I had the same thought of Matt greeting him

    So a different take but nonetheless one of the thoughts I had

    Thank you

    Your site is just amazing and such a great help to me


  7. Charlene Franz  January 13, 2016 at 12:27 pm Reply

    My husband, Jim, died at age 62 from cancer. So when I read the obituaries or learn of a death like David Bowie, I always think, he lived 7 more years than Jim. And Jim would be 68 now and still with me. Or I think, this person was only 48, wow, how tragic. We are blessed to have had him in our lives til 62. Seems kind of silly when I write about it down,

  8. D. Johnson  January 13, 2016 at 2:25 pm Reply

    Great quote by Dean! I can especially relate to the “losing your youth.” The 1960’s were a time that was very intense. Some of us naïvely thought we were going to change the world. As my health problems increase and my mobility lessens, and poverty is just never ending, it is a bit scary seeing those who are about 25-30 yrs older than me- people I looked to for guidance, inspiration- die. The younger generation, at least the ones I associate with, seem to lack genuine tolerance, respect, and the ability to carry on an interesting conversation. And values I hold dear are softly mocked as “antiquated.” Some days, irrationally, it seems as if I am getting lonelier by attrition.

  9. Deborah  January 14, 2016 at 12:28 am Reply

    John Lennon was my biggest loss, the thought that some sick person killed him shocked me. He was (is) a hero to me, his song ” Imange” should be our national anthem. He was kind and gentle and the lyrics of almost all of his and the Beatles songs were peaceful and fun to listen to always. They band showed love and they remained friends and family to each other, even when things changed, they supported each other also. I think that they lived in a time when drugs were used some ignorant uptight people did not like or approve of them. They were spiritual also. If people realize that alcohol has been at the root of murder, domestic violence, child abuse etc and the drugs that were used during the 60’s did not hurt anyone, like oh yeah I was drunk when I got in the accident that killed 4 people,Don’t hear those stories of marijuana or even l.s.d.- opium, alcohol, moon shine and heroine have been around for centuries… Wealthy women used to go to opium dens in the 1800’s. I am a licensed counselor and realize that cocaine, speed and other weird concoctions are harmful, and addictive( which is an illness like alcoholism). But most drugs used are possibly mind altering but alcohol blackouts have bee responsible for more deaths for centuries. I spent many years as both nurse and counselor and worked in prisons also. So I think I have a wide view of the good and bad things have been incarcerated for… And it is not the old ” hippie drugs” that have killed so many. If someone gets a Dui in most states the law is so lax, but there are others in prison for possession of small amounts of pot. Plus for some illness it is very therapeutic .

  10. gloria  January 14, 2016 at 11:59 am Reply

    I also was very affected by Robin Williams. At the time, my daughter, Laura was struggling with depression, and I thought, if Robin W. can’t get the proper help or find peace, with all the resources he has, what is the hope for my sweet, struggling girl? Depression contributed to my losing her, she just didn’t care enough to take care of herself. Celebrities become a part of our lives. Great article, as always, thank you Litsa & Eleanor!

  11. ThePrettiestStar  January 15, 2016 at 1:03 pm Reply

    David Bowie…. It was hard to hear of his death and I am still extremely sad. I was shocked that it hit me so hard.

    I have been a huge fan for decades. As the article said it helped me get through some rough patches as a teenager. I would come home from school and listen to records for hours and read all about him. I was crazy about the image of David Bowie and his voice and music. He touched my soul and because he never knew me it is someone that could never abandon me but now I feel abandoned. Now he is dead just like my husband who died young from cancer. I am also caring for my mother with cancer.

    I do not know how to find any joy anymore in life. My life has switched to one of just trying to survive as I am taking care of my mom and a small child.

    David Bowie always seem so brave always reinventing himself but yet I always feel so afraid and stuck not sure how to take care of others while taking care of myself. When you are left with nothing and have a young child to support life is extremely lonely.

    The two things in life that always put me to Joy was watching David live in concert and having my husband by my side and now both are gone.

    I had hoped that I could find love but it has only brought me deep pain. With my mother’s cancer came her hatred of me and I do not have anyone else.

    I cannot afford to go out so I do not have any friends anymore.

    Have any of you found a way to find some joy again after the death of those you most love and how to cope with living with somebody with cancer that spews hatred for you?

    I despise getting older I don’t mind the change of looks if I had a husband by my side but when you get older no one wants to date you anymore especially when you have a young child and everything just hurts and the weight and feeling of dullness and no drive just comes on the matter what you do.

    I think his death or reminds us of aging. We lose our vitality. Then we just die.

    Once you hit 40 your life changes. At that age you just lose all joy out of your life and as a woman you just feel flat all the time and your drive for everything just goes.

    • FillYourHeart  September 19, 2016 at 8:36 am Reply

      I hope you are feeling better now. It still hurts every day that David Bowie is gone. x

  12. shakeandcrawl  January 15, 2016 at 1:47 pm Reply

    A great, thoughtful post, thanks. I was more of a casual listener of David Bowie myself but a few friends are huge fans and it has helped them. Someone somewhere else raised another really interesting point about how we can sometimes feel the loss of a celebrity or a stranger most acutely because our relationships are one-way and lack the conditionality and complexity of our everyday relationships: as they put it, we can feel sadder about David Bowie dying than our own relatives because we’ve never had to deal with David Bowie when he was grumpy/stressed/annoying, and David Bowie hasn’t said difficult or hurtful things to us for our whole lives. A counsellor told me something similar when I was 18/19 , yet to go by some of the callous reactions to people’s feelings in recent years, it’s something a lot of older people haven’t really grasped…

  13. audrey  January 15, 2016 at 5:41 pm Reply

    ….for me it was looseing john lennon at age 13….it hit me like atruck and even my mun said sorry i know how you feel and i put that along side her looseing her parents…sometimes i wonder how the greif for a person who you have never met can be so strong….i guess some spirits are so powertfull they can reach out over the water ..the airwaves …and the mind….some spirits are eternall and for ever……

    • Yvette  August 21, 2016 at 3:29 pm Reply

      Audrey, thank you so much for posting your comment. Your words had a profound impact upon me. Your words set me free. I needed a spiritual answer and you gave me one. Thank you so much for posting! Thank you!

  14. Susan  January 17, 2016 at 12:13 am Reply

    Although I felt sad about David Bowie (I realized I expected he’d live to a wizened 95), the one death that caught me totally by surprise was George Harrison. I knew there were people I deeply admired and whose death would affect me greatly – for example, Fred Rogers or Philip Seymour Hoffman (I cried for days when they died) – I had no CLUE that I had a huge attachment to George Harrison. When I started to cry and cry about him, I thought ” Whoa! What’s THAT about?” (Turns out I thought he was once of those very famous people who truly seemed rather humble and decent.) It’s definitely true that these strangers encapsulate qualities that are important to us and symbolize what is personally dear to us.

    • Yvette  August 21, 2016 at 3:41 pm Reply

      Susan, thank you for posting your comment. I’ve been grieving over a celebrity’s death for the last couple of weeks. I could not understand why the grieve over someone I never knew could be so deep. Your comments helped to answer my question. Your insight was comforting. Thank you!

  15. Jillian  January 17, 2016 at 4:28 pm Reply

    Freddie Mercury and John Lennon deaths affected me deeply. Both were amazing, talented and peaceful men.

  16. Joanna  January 19, 2016 at 12:10 pm Reply

    I think there are “celebrities” and there are “artists.” Artists touch a part of our soul with their art. Isn’t that the purpose? They forever alter us in some small or large way. They hold up a mirror to us, show us our humanity, our pain, our joy, our stories. I believe that when an artist dies, we feel moved by not only their life, but it tugs at the places they touched in us. Asks us to remember, to be moved, to feel again those tender places, sometimes re-live the moments they originally altered. Sometimes that is great pain, great transformational moments. That is how I feel, at least, when someone who moved me deeply passes.

  17. Joanna  January 19, 2016 at 12:29 pm Reply

    shakeandcrawl, that is a great point. That is why family relationships are of then the hardest. We have so much history and we see all sides of family, but only the polished performances of artists.

    • Anonymous  March 7, 2020 at 1:34 pm Reply

      Family relationships sure are hard! Most of my relatives don’t understand me, they think I’m too eccentric & quirky. I resent that. I like being different, because I sincerely think normal is boring. So thinking of certain celebrities as extended family & crushing on some celebrities (like I still do on Sir Stephen Cleobury) is a respite from family drama.

  18. Josephine  March 19, 2016 at 10:02 pm Reply

    It has gone almost 7 years, and I still cry myself to sleep pretty much every single night because I miss Michael Jackson so much

    • Abbie  May 3, 2016 at 3:33 pm Reply

      I am a die-hard Michael Jackson fan. I feel like I connect to him, his loneliness, his childhood and his dreams. I talk to him every night and admire the posters of him I have on my wall. Listening to his music & watching his short films is a daily routine for me and I feel guilty if I don’t do it everyday. On August 29th I always celebrate his birthday in multiple ways but on June 25th I refuse to get out of bed and all I do all day is sob over his passing. Each year it never changes, it feels like it’s happening all over again every time June 25th comes around. Whenever a sad song comes on whether it’s one of Michael’s songs or another artists, I cry because it makes me think about him. My parents sometimes worry about my grief for him because it’s been going on for so long but it’s just the fact that I love him too much to accept he’s gone & that I’ll never see him live in concert ever again. I consider him as my guardian angel, sometimes it seems like he’s looking down over me and protecting me. It brings a sense of comfort that he’s still here with me.

  19. Susan  March 27, 2016 at 10:50 pm Reply

    Dan Fogelberg’s death hit me hard. His music got me through college after my Dad died in the beginning of my sophomore year.

  20. Dawnie  April 26, 2016 at 2:53 pm Reply

    I’m beside myself over Prince’s death, my sister and best friend and I grew up on his music and Bowie’s. To me this is the second coming of the day the music died.

  21. Josephine  May 9, 2016 at 4:56 pm Reply

    I don’t think I have gone one single day since Michaels death in 2009 without crying. I love him more than anything and it cuts like a knife every single day that he is gone. I sound really dramatic, but I am literally feeling depressed because of his passing, and it was almost 7 years ago.

    • Yvette  August 21, 2016 at 4:05 pm Reply

      Josephine, I understand exactly how you feel. I recently discovered that a celebrity I admired greatly had passed. I fell into a deep state of depression and have felt tremendous grief. It’s amazing how people we have never met can have such an impact on our lives. I think that we see them for the beautiful human beings that they truly are, and spiritual we become connected to them. I feel blessed to have found this website today. My soul has been grieving. I have reached out to friends trying to find comfort, but no-one has really cared or understood how I felt. Reading the comments on this site has given me peace and comfort. Please feel free to contact me if you need a friend.

  22. Kelly  June 20, 2016 at 4:06 pm Reply

    Anton Yelchin’s is the only celebrity death that has made me cry so far. I am honestly struggling to believe he is gone, and I can’t imagine he will no longer appear in movies… He was by far one of my favorite actors and all his movies connected with me in some way… Really wish he was not taken from this Earth.

    • Litsa  June 21, 2016 at 9:37 am Reply

      Kelly, I just heard about his death this morning. What an incredible tragedy. It is unbelievable how deeply celebrity deaths can touch us. I do hope that perhaps the one small thing that will come from his death is others taking vehicle safety recalls seriously to prevent further injuries and deaths.

  23. Addie A.  June 21, 2016 at 1:35 am Reply

    I feel the same way about Anton Yelchin right now. He wasn’t that much older than me. He was just an 11 year old boy when I was born, so to see him go so soon and that young and in such a horrible way really hits home and hurts. Not to mention he was one of my first crushes when I started liking boys (people) as a girl with his role of Chekov in Star Trek. Star Trek is one of the few beautiful memories I have of my dad and I before my step brother was born. I miss Anton so bad and even if I wasn’t personal with him or I never saw all of his movies, I have many good memories of him and it sucks I’m getting much more into him now that he’s gone.

    • Litsa  June 21, 2016 at 9:47 am Reply

      Ah I am so sorry Addie. I am sure the fact that he is connected to those memories with your dad too only makes it more difficult. Though I am sure it is bittersweet learning even more about him and getting more into him now that he is gone, that is exactly what will keep his memory and legacy alive for you and in the world in general. Take care.

      • Addie  June 22, 2016 at 12:43 am

        Litsa, thank you so much for your advice. It really helped me, considering you’re the only one that actually took me seriously (my own mother said it was ridiculous if I didn’t even know him) but you are right, that is the only way his legacy and memory will live on in my heart. I have decided to dedicate my photography ambition to him since he also was a photographer and he had this talent to turn people into art when he took pictures of them. Thank you so much Litsa, deep from my heart I’m very thankful. My best wishes for you and your loved ones.
        Addie xx

      • Litsa  June 22, 2016 at 7:50 am

        That is a beautiful gesture, Addie! I am sorry you didn’t get the support you needed from your mom. It can be hard for others to understand what we are going through, especially if it isn’t something they have experienced themselves. We have a whole section on this site about grief and photography, so you may want to check that out if you are a photographer! Take care.

  24. Louise  June 25, 2016 at 12:19 pm Reply

    At 13 years old I lost my father aged 35 to cancer. At around the same time I discovered Bowie, 1972/3. I can’t remember much around his death, it was many years ago. I am 58 now but I do know that I cry almost every day since Bowie died, even more so 5 months down the line. It’s a feeling I can’t explain but comes from my very core and is extremely painful, so much so that I feel the time has come to seek help via my GP. Has anyone else experienced such emotion?

    • Litsa  June 25, 2016 at 11:02 pm Reply

      Louise, this is something we have heard from others and I think the connection between Bowie and the time around your dad’s death that you make is important. Because these emotions have continued for many months, it may be helpful to contact a counselor or therapist you can meet with, even if just for a few visits to discuss what you have been going though.

    • Major Tom's Wife  June 26, 2016 at 5:53 pm Reply

      You are far from alone. Bowie had some relevance in almost everything growing up and as an adult as well. It’s like the universe is playing 6 degrees of David Bowie. Everything links to him and I mourn daily. I try to think how lucky I to live when Lennon,Warhol, Lou Reed, Kurt Cobain and numerous other musicians however I cannot get past the thought that every day I will feel like something’s missing. I’m not ready to live in a world without him. I feel some days like Major Toms wife waiting for him to come home. Iggy is the only one left of that intimate triangle. May the powers keep him this side of the grave for more years to come.

  25. james brunt  June 26, 2016 at 12:16 pm Reply

    One week later, I feel like I am about to lose it over Anton Yelchin. I feel like crying big time.

    • Litsa  June 27, 2016 at 9:57 am Reply

      Ah, I am so sorry James . . . thinking of you.

  26. emily  July 7, 2016 at 6:52 pm Reply

    I am also extremely sad about Anton Yelchin. I have cried a couple times and it has been over two weeks. A celebrity death has never hit me this hard before. I loved Alan Rickman, and I barely batted an eyelash when I found out he had passed away. Anton has taken me down. I feel so awful about how he died, and think about how awful his parents must be feeling. I loved him as Chekov and Kyle Reese. He was an amazingly talented person, and from all accounts, a really nice guy. I have never been this sad about a celebrity death before. Not even when Jonathan Crombie (he played Gilbert Blythe in Anne of Green Gables) died.

  27. Layla Henriquez  July 11, 2016 at 8:35 pm Reply

    This was very interesting for me. I am going through what I would call “delayed grief”. When this celebrity passed away almost two years ago, I put away and locked it in my brain because I was in denial about it. About one month ago, I heard a song and it brought it back full force. I’ve been crying for three weeks straight and because I didn’t want to accept it back then, I’m just beginning to read the news reports of his death and yes it has become overwhelming. It hurts so much and this has never happened to me before. I am a little confused by it, but I’ve always been one with a sixth sense of things and strange coincidences and serendipity and all that happening all around me. Sometimes I even wonder if maybe a long time ago when we were both youner, if maybe we met. All I know is I feel him with me, almost like he’s watching over me. And I’ve never had this happen to me and wasn’t sure if I ever believed this could actually happen to anyone. I feel an immense sadness and an emptiness knowing he’s gone. I hope soon the day comes when I can listen to his music and listen to his beautiful, unique, voice and not feel a lump in my throat and a pain so deep, it’s hard to describe. I was feeling very lost and unhappy for awhile now, maybe some higher power sent me this so I could feel that everything is OK because I feel like I have a Guardian Angel now. Thank you for listening.

  28. Louise  July 27, 2016 at 7:42 am Reply

    I was 13 years old when I discovered Bowie, Hunky Dory was my first album approx 1972. In 1971 I lost my father aged 35 to cancer. I was 13. I spent a lot of time in my room listening to his music, the Velvet Underground also. I always followed him but didn’t necessarily follow his music post 1980. I got married worked had children and was busy. However, he always remained with me over the years and was part of who I am today. When he died I cried but not constantly. In about April realization set in, yes I know it wasn’t instant, that he wouldn’t be around any more. Since then, I find myself overwhelmed with grief, listen to the albums I missed in the 1980s and later and am really struggling now. I feel this is also wrapped up with my fathers death which I don’t recall grieving about just crying when I heard on the stairs. I’m now feeling I need help perhaps over this. I’m 58 and so many years have passed. I watch all David’s videos and listen to his music every day and I cry each day too. Think it’s time to visit my GP. Great to share this with anyone out there who will listen to me.

  29. Richard  September 4, 2016 at 7:21 pm Reply

    For me the hardest Celebrity death was Christina Grimmie. In my opinion she was one of the greatest singers that ever lived, her voice was gorgeous, and she was such a huge talent and only 22 years old. She was also a amazing musician and songwriter and her acting ability in her last four videos released was amazing as well, Not only was her rare talent “Unbelievable” but so was the person behind all that talent. She honestly did LOVE her fans with all her heart, and she had a heart of gold, over 3 million subscribers on You Tube, was on the Voice in 2014 and positively slayed the competition in my opinion. I have never been so heartbroken over a celelbity, because it was such a vicious and cruel murder, that makes it a triple heartbreak. I will never understand how ANYONE can shoot and kill a beautiful young woman with so huge of a talent. It just turns my stomach when I think about it. She was a huge inspiration to me and had a big impact on my life, a impact I will carry with me forever. I will always Love and Miss Christina Grimmie. There was no one else that could hold a candle to her. Deeply missed!!!

  30. A kid at heart  October 9, 2016 at 12:34 pm Reply

    Go on, laugh, but I felt quite sad when Ken Barrie died. When I was very little I used to watch the old Postman Pats, and now he’s dead, I feel that I’ve lost my innocence. Thanks for posting this.

  31. Roseanna Iliffe  January 2, 2017 at 11:38 am Reply

    I have just come across this post shared on a George Michael page on social media. I was one of his biggest fans, some said obsessed (ok I agree there !!) about George michael. Your words absolutely mirror my feelings. My own son has been the one to say i’m weird and strange to mourn a man I never met and yet I grieve in a way I never imagined. As you describe, George was there for me when I felt low and when I felt like dancing. Such a mixture of emotions he would bring out of me. Right now, as I type, while having a 5 min break from taking down my Christmas decorations and tidying round, George would normally be blasting and i’d merrily bop around to a bit of wham or fast love or any of his upbeat songs to keep me motivated. Now I find it hard to put him on without sadness and emptiness. He was the one to bring me out of these holes and now I can’t listen to them to help me, they make me worse. I feel alone and stupid. I found a page on social media, which has grown in thousands since that fateful Christmas Day. We all chat and reminisce and if it wasn’t for that page making me feel so normal I don’t know what I would have done. We are all devastated, some of us at different stages of grief but still grieving. I thank you for this post, which again has helped me feel “normal”. God bless you and thank you for your wise words although about another iconic figure in the music world, still an icon and idol to many, Including a very close friend of mine.
    Thank You x x

    • Tammie Carlisle  November 30, 2017 at 10:58 pm Reply

      I feel the same way Roseanne. I just watch the documentary Freedom, about George Micheal and feel so sad. It’s been almost a year, but I feel such loss. I will always remember him, and I hope he has found peace❤️

  32. Joanie  January 8, 2017 at 1:30 pm Reply

    When Red Skeleton passed I stay in bed a cried all Day, Michael Hutchence INXS Death still breaks my heart. DAVY Jones of The Monkees such grief tore my sister & I held a memorial,Steve McQueen! Still miss him so many and this last year so many will always hold them in my heart!

  33. Anna  February 7, 2017 at 3:41 pm Reply

    I remember Queen when I was in High school. His songs We Will Rock You and Another One Bites the Dust were played at our Pep Rally’s. Vaguely remember when he was sick but oddly enough I didn’t know the year he passed. In 1991 I wasn’t aware of much of anything around me. I find in my 50’s I revisit a lot of old songs and old movies. I recently came across all these interviews, documentaries and concerts of these past rock stars and after reading about Freddie Mercury my heart is broken. So I say to myself,”He’s been gone for 26 years and NOW I’m grieving? I find I grieve over celebrities who I have things in common with such as certain disappointments, fears and favorite things. I was devastated over Elvis Presley. Robin Williams death was heart braking too. I was very saddened over David Bowie and George Micheal as well. These are loves from my childhood. Although I never listen to Queen a lot, I listened enough to miss hearing the songs and remember singing and instantly remembering singing at the top of my lungs at our pap rally. Thanks for letting me share. Best wishes to you all.

  34. anna  February 7, 2017 at 3:45 pm Reply

    P.S. Now I listen to Queen, David Bowie and George Micheal and Elvis ALL the time!! I can always find Robin Williams and other late comedians on you tube frequently!!!

  35. Anonymous  April 30, 2017 at 3:12 am Reply

    I’m late to commenting on this post. But I stumbled upon it and I needed to read it. I have never been very affected by a celebrity passing. But my gosh, I am an emotional mess over Heath Ledger being gone. I think it’s a combination of many things. Every time I watch one of Heath’s film, I forget about the crap happening around me. He’s such a phenomenal actor. I also relate to him on such a personal level. We seem so much alike and it makes it hard knowing that the one famous person who had such an effect on me is gone. He was absolutely adorable. He’s a complete stranger to me on a personal level, but it’s so weird because I feel like I know him. I’m still grieving the death of my best friend, so also losing him is affecting me to a higher degree. It kills me knowing that he’ll never make another film again. He isn’t here to live his life. Someone so beautiful losing their life by pure accident breaks my heart. I cry so much that it shocks me.

    • CL  May 3, 2017 at 2:51 pm Reply

      I feel the exact same way. I’ve known about his passing ever since it happened, yet suddenly, in the past days, after re-watching 10 things, I cannot seem to stop crying. I’m obsessively reading about his life, watching old videos of interviews, and can’t figure out why on earth I am so sad about his passing. There are moments during the day where I just have to hear his voice, and the thought of how horrible Michelle must have felt when he passed leaves me sobbing each time.

  36. Haley  April 30, 2017 at 3:12 pm Reply

    I have strangely been grieving over the death if Layne Staley and he’s been dead for 15 years. I wasn’t even a year old yet when he killed himself and I think I’m going crazy over a dead man. Sometimes I feel I was born in the wrong era.

    • Anna  May 3, 2017 at 3:42 pm Reply

      Feel the same way. Going though the same thing Haley. Freddie Mercury has been gone for 26 years and after reading about his life in biographies, watching interviews and such, my heart feels so heavy. Had to stop youtube-ing Queen videos because it would cause me to feel like I was grieving again and even cry! I was 12 when Queen came on the scene. I think it hurts more when we hear or read of their lives behind the stage. Given a different place and time, they could have been our friend. And that’s what I feel I have lost. A friend. We relate to their human trials and tribulations. I still think of Elvis, John Lennon, David Bowie, Robin Williams, George Micheal, Heath Ledger, Prince. I was sad about the death of Vincent Price too.
      I’m so glad to see more posts! This site is really helpful to me at this particular time in my life.

      • Tammie Carlisle  November 30, 2017 at 10:52 pm

        Just found this article after watching Freedom, the documentary about George Micheal. He’s been gone a year, but I am just now really grieving his death. I feel really weird, even though I had a huge crush on him in high school. I feel a little better knowing other people experience the same thing. He had such a lonely life, I would have never guessed that.

    • Jay  May 20, 2017 at 11:33 am Reply

      I feel sad about Layne too. He’s my favorite singer of all time. I was only a baby when he died so its kind of different though but I still feel upset I never got to see him in real life. The one that really hit me a few days ago was Chris cornell’s death. It’s the first ever celebrity death that impacted me because I usually I never know about the celebrity until they died but I knew who he was before his death. I loved Chris and his music. He was also one my favorite singers. His songs made me feel like I should be strong and keep going when I went through a depression ‘phase’. Actually I binged listened to sound garden just few days before his death. It feels like he’s still here. But when I look at the stuff that says ‘Chris Cornell died at 52’ it brings me back to a sad moment. What upsets me is how he suddenly died and what caused him to die. I struggled with that and I feel bad he had to go through that and no one knew. Funny..because I always used to be weirded out when people are overly sad over a celebrity’s death like last year there was a handful of deaths but I never knew them or their work so I didn’t really cared. There’s literally not a second that goes by that I still think Chris is here. I never even knew him personally but I still feel for him and his family and friends. It’s devastating and I can’t believe it. I swear I’m not crazy. Haha.

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  38. Stephanie  May 20, 2017 at 11:18 pm Reply

    I needed this article. Thank you. I have been a tearful mess since Thursday after learning of Chris Cornell’s passing…I can’t stop thinking about him and his loved ones, or how heavy his heart may have been with the weight of despair for him to end his life…and as I pulled over tonite because I could not see through the tears as his voice came through the speakers of my car, I wondered if I had finally lost it. I mean, yes, he was this amazingly talented man, but I am not this die-hard fan that has been to every performance (none, actually)…but that voice carried me through some intense chapters in my life. That voice let me know, much like this article, that I am not alone in my feelings. And while I do not know how long I will grieve for this amazing man that I never knew, I will make sure that his voice is never forgotten in this home. RIP, Chris. You are in my heart…I hope that you are at peace.

  39. Sandy D Henderson  May 21, 2017 at 2:42 pm Reply

    I too have felt deep deep pain over the passing of Chris Cornell. This man was beautiful inside and out, greatest voice ever, a true talent I have followed since his start. To know his heart was so heavy saddens me to no end. I too suffer from depression. To know this great man could feel the way I have felt at times is sobering. RIP Chris Cornell. At least I know its normal to feel so touched by this.

  40. Jessica  May 21, 2017 at 4:53 pm Reply

    I cry for Chris Cornell daily now that he passed like he was my best friend or something but that’s probably because his music really got me through hard hard times in life. It was there for me and every word would fit how I was feeling, like a best friend his words helped heal. I was lucky enough to have gotten to see him for his solo songbook tour, up and front center. Let me tell you his voice was so amazing it was like angels filled every aspect of the room. I got to witness him sing acoustic and I can’t get over how unreal he made me feel listening to him. It was like his voice was magical and like black hole sun says, no one will sing like him anymore. He was truly my idiol growing up and now who I looked up to is gone and my heart breaks so much with every passing day of knowing I’ll never get to see his talent again live.

  41. Jessica  May 23, 2017 at 4:24 pm Reply

    Thank you so much for posting this. A year and a half later and I’m still crying over Scott Weiland’s passing.

  42. Sylvia  May 23, 2017 at 10:26 pm Reply

    Thank you, thank you for this! I have been stuck on Andy Gibb out of nowhere! Random, I was 7 years old when he died and I am now 46. He struggled with the same addiction I did. I have 13 years sobriety now. I am so sympathetic and empathetic of his disease and what he went through. Based on his last interviews, it seemed he was beginning to see his part in his disease, which was so promising for him. It breaks my heart that the damage done to his heart was so bad from his use, his heart couldn’t fight the virus and continue to live a long life. There is a George Burns show he came on and was telling George how jealous he was of his old age and truly hopes to live as long as he did. 🙁 I also have this intense attraction to him and that is the part I am truly embarrassed of, HE IS DEAD! But, I am so grateful for this post and know that I am not alone when it comes to celebrity deaths.

    I was also devastated when Michael Jackson passed, a true part of my heart and my youth died that day. 🙁 So grateful I was able to be around during his lifetime and enjoy his talent.

  43. James  May 24, 2017 at 7:28 pm Reply

    Roger Morres death just recently hit me i am actually cryibg as i write this i felt alone as nobody seemed to care but seeing how many other celebs are effected and reading this makes me ferl bettet

  44. Milkshake Mandy  May 28, 2017 at 4:18 pm Reply

    I have been grieving Chris Cornell’s death. He was a part of my husband’s and my life for over 25 years. He was our favourite singer, and his passing has left us feeling so empty. Today (11 days after he died) was the first day I have listened to his music, and I cried and cried. Thank you for acknowledging that celebrities do play a role in our everyday lives.

    • Summer VonHolten  June 8, 2017 at 2:08 am Reply

      I am very very saddened my CHRIS CORNELLS DEATH! O my gosh it still has not sunk in. I don’t get it or understand! He was brilliant and well loved by so many. May God take him into his kingdom and hold him and may he find peace and true joy. That singer, songwriter, human being, father, husband… will be dearly dearly missed and many are grieving and totally left confused.

  45. Lisa  May 28, 2017 at 6:51 pm Reply

    I am so sad over Chris Cornell’s dead. It hit me harder than I expected. I think about him a lot and I have cried a lot. I listen to his music and I have this heavy feeling. I mourn him like he was my friend, and it feels weird. And yet, I can’t stop grieving him. He’s been dead for about 10 days and I thought I would just stop thinking about him, but I’m not done yet. His music helped me in dark times, and I have always been very impressed by him as a musician. His suicide shocked me. I will just let myself mourn. Thanks for this article.

    • Elizabeth Kershaw  July 14, 2017 at 5:50 pm Reply

      I have been in tears almost every day since Chris passed away, I haven’t spoke to anyone about it ,but reading these comments has been a comfort to me as I don’t feel like I am on my own now.I had been a fan for 26 years,ever since “badmotorfinger” was released-that hair and that voice-wow! I thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen,and he was still handsome at 52! I also shared the same birthday with Chris-july 20th(me 1974)and for that reason I always felt I could relate to him.his music got me through some tough times in my life,so it absolutely breaks my heart to think of him on his own at the end.I am not religious or anything but I keep trying to tell myself that we live in a wicked world and he has been taken from it to somewhere more kind and peaceful. Keep listening to the music,take care.xx

  46. Katherine Leckie  May 29, 2017 at 7:52 pm Reply

    I don’t know if it’s grief, but I have moments of deep sadness that Stevie Ray Vaughan is gone. He will be gone 27 years this August. I never completely leaves me. I am a guitarist and from the moment I heard him play, I loved his music. The fact that he cleaned up his life, only to die in a helicopter crash, hit me hard.
    The recent death of Greg Allman seemed to have opened those feelings up again. I am totally agreeing with the above reasons it is ok to grieve a celebrity death.

  47. Dave  June 29, 2017 at 9:11 pm Reply

    He’s been gone for 4 years this July, but I still can’t get past the death of Cory Monteith. I can’t watch Glee or hear his voice or even think about him without crying. I think it’s a combination of things. The fact that we was so young (31!), and the fact that we’ll never know what he could have been. With his charm and good looks, he could have been the next Matt Damon or Ben Affleck. Or, with his goofiness and comedic stylings, he could have been the next Jim Carrey or Ben Stiller. With his romantic, leading man appeal he could have been the next Ryan Gosling or Patrick Swayze. We’ll never know what he could have been, or what he could have done. I miss him so much, and I’ve never even met him.

  48. Kris  July 18, 2017 at 1:11 pm Reply

    I’m very much hit hard by the passing of Adam West. This has never happened to me before and I never expected to be deeply affected by his death. Even up to now, I still cry rivers of tears whenever I remember him. In fact, just today, I was watching a compilation of his scenes in Family Guy on YouTube and cried buckets of tears (again) when I saw the last part of the video that said: “In loving memory, Adam West, 1928-2017.” I just don’t understand why I feel this much pain when, in fact, there had been so many celebrity deaths before his. Besides, we’re not even related and none of my family members are a fan of his. It’s just me, really. I read your post and it seems the most logical reason I can think of is because, well, for one, I’m a big fan of the actual superhero, Batman, and secondly, I love the ’60s Batman TV series and love Adam’s version of the caped crusader. I love how he made that whole campy thing work, straight-faced and all, which made his portrayal even more endearing; this is what made him into a pop culture icon. But what truly saddens me is the fact that he struggled for work after his short stint as Batman. I truly felt bad for him that Hollywood wouldn’t cast him into other roles because he had been typecasted, which is really sad because the man had talent. He was the most underrated actor during his prime. Maybe the hardships he’d had as a struggling actor while dealing with depression and alcoholism, is what got to me. It’s got to be something about that that struck a chord in me that somehow makes me feel connected to him because I myself am dealing with depression. I also admire him for really hanging in there even when the going got tough. I don’t know what I would’ve done if I were in his shoes. I guess another reason why I feel connected to him is because I see him as a real-life hero in that he was able to defeat his inner demons while trying to shake off his Batman image and association to the character and trying to cope with finding work to pay the bills and feed his family even if it meant losing his dignity, which meant donning his costume time and again to sign autographs and shake hands with fans at country fairs and motor shows, his lowest point being, as he not-so-fondly recalled, “Being shot out of a cannon dressed as Batman.” Despite all that, he was able to get out of it in one piece and was able to find his niche in the voice acting industry. He really did come out the winner in the end. His life story is quite inspiring and I feel that a lot of people will be able to relate to him. Again, maybe this is why I am grieving for the loss of a truly talented man with a great sense of humor because he is, after all, one of a kind and, for me, a true hero.

  49. Charlene mac  July 21, 2017 at 7:00 am Reply

    I’ve just found this page after the suicide of Chester bennington … it has literally devastated me. 17 years I’ve been a fan of linkin park and I followed literally everything they have done. Chester was my hero and I met him twice. The second time I was brave enough to tell him how much he and the band had helped me through domestic abuse and severe mental health, he told me I was amazing and gave me the biggest hug. Now I’m thinking who was there to give him his hug 🙁 I’m angry today too that he didn’t reach out to anyone and why he was left alone of Chris Cornell’s birthday when everyone knew how badly he was affected by his suicide 🙁 but reading all of this had made me see that it’s normal for me to grieve for him … there was a genuine love there for chester and a part of me has gone with him. Thank u for validating how I’m feeling xx

  50. Sheryl  July 21, 2017 at 7:12 am Reply

    Part of me has died with Chester Bennington………..saying I’m absolutely devestated dose not quite hit the mark. Crying my heart out. #NUMB. No-one else close to me understands only the Linkin Park fans know how I feel and without Chester Bennington I would never have met them. Rip to Chester and Rip to the part of me that has gone too x

  51. Ijin  July 21, 2017 at 12:24 pm Reply

    Thank you for writing this and making me feel less crazy. I’ve been hit pretty hard by Chester Benningtons death, especially as he got me through some difficult periods of my life, and knowing he just couldn’t get through his. I think a lot of my grief comes from knowing the darkness just overpowered him and he saw no other way out other than suicide. From someone who has had these thoughts, it’s scary to think that maybe it doesn’t get better, and I hope this doesn’t give out the message that it is hopeless, as it isn’t and it does get better. I hope Chester found his peace and I hope his family, friends and those where he played a part in their lives can find peace, that whatever his darkness was he is relieved of suffering and strength finds them to help them through this truly tragic time. Please don’t ever feel you are alone and someone will always want to help.

  52. Massive LP fan  July 21, 2017 at 4:06 pm Reply

    Like a couple of others Chester Benningtons death has led me here. I feel embarrassed to be so upset but it’s nice to know I’m not alone.

    Been a fan for over 15 words and their music has been an indescribable comfort in my life. Beyond devastated he was my absolute idol. I love the whole of Linkin Park but had a soft spot for Chester, loved the Out of Ashes album too. Just listened to him sing Hallelujah at Chris’s funeral and bawling my eyes out. I truly loved him as much as you can love a ‘stranger’. RIP Chester, perhaps it was a crazy moment of despair, maybe it would have passed if you had somebody there with you. Too late now though and I join thousands of L.P. fans who are truly devastated by your gorgeous soul passing, not to mention your wife, children, band mates and other loved ones who will be feeling a lot worse than us.

    • Taylor  July 21, 2017 at 8:04 pm Reply

      Reading this made me feel less alone, and comes at a comfort knowing realizing that so many others were so touched, and I know Chester knows that as well. ❤

  53. Taylor  July 21, 2017 at 8:03 pm Reply

    I am here from Chester’s death as well. Reading this made me feel less bad about my feelings that I have had over the worlds loss of this amazing man. When I read the news I broke down and just cried, and haven’t stopped. This man touched so many, and like me got so many through such hard times in our lives. He’s been there when times were rough and it’s hard to think that any of this is real. I look up and the sky though and hope that wherever Chester is now, this pain that caused him to do this is gone and he can finally be happy💙. I will continue to morn the death of my hero, and I hope someone else feeling the way I do feels this and knows they are not alone, because he was an amazing man, that touched so many, and will be remembered.

    • Tawny Fields-Bennett  July 21, 2017 at 10:29 pm Reply

      I am also here because of Chester Bennington’s death. Though this isn’t the first celebrity death that has hit me hard; it’s feeling like one of the hardest. I graduated in 2001 so I spent all of my “learning and struggling to be an adult” years (late teens and twenties) relating to every single L.P. song. The music was like a theme song to all of thoights, pains and emotions. I discovered the root of all my demons and my life has drastically changed since I found Jesus in 2011. It may sound silly, but reliving all of the music and relating to all of the pain I almost feel guilty…like somehow I’ve forgotten and left my friend behind without offering him help…lol and like the article said it makes me feel crazy because I don’t even “know him”. He was truly a deeply poetic, incredibly talented and beautiful soul. R.I.P. Chester, my prayers go out to he and his loved ones.

  54. Rachel  July 22, 2017 at 7:51 pm Reply

    I am also here due to Chester’s death. I had a surprisingly strong reaction to it which I found strange because over the past few years, I actually lost interest in Linkin Park. I was a big fan when I was a teen and I was dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts. I felt a deep connection to their music. It helped me feel less alone and it helped ease my pain. I guess that’s why his death is emotional for me as well. Without realizing it, their music actually shaped me as a person and made me who I am today. At the same time, I’m just shocked because Chester sang about getting through shitty times and facing the pain head on and that’s why his suicide seems a little out of character to me yet he was drinking and his thinking could have been clouded. I agree with one of the other commenters that he shouldn’t have been alone. This should be a lesson to really be there for loved ones with mental illness and don’t leave them alone when they’re going through a painful situation. Its also a probably good idea to not drink or do drugs if your mentally ill and going through something particularly hard. Mental illness clearly needs to be a more critical priority in our society and there needs to be more vigilance in keeping the mentally ill safe. At any rate, he will always be a legend. He did a great service by empowering many lives. 💛Rest in power, Chester Bennington.💛

  55. Aisha Pinkbun17  July 22, 2017 at 9:24 pm Reply

    I ended up on this page because I am still crying over Linkin Park’s Chester. I’m 22 and have been a fan since I was 7 years old. His music got me through dark time growing up, and I’ve attempted suicide myself a multitude of times. I’ve never really been hit this hard by a celebrity death before, but seeing this page made me feel less crazy about my own grief. Just a month ago I was hit by serious depression and was considering to end it all, but I snapped out of it. For the last week I was binge listening to Linkin Park and the morning of Chester’s death I had this bad feeling in my gut. Ironically, I popped their first CD in my car before heading to work. What really angers/frightens me is that fact that Chester saved so many of us, but he was swallowed up by his own darkness. Mental illness always seems to be brushed under the carpet. Even I am afraid to tell people how I feel… I hope Chester has found peace, and his loved ones can cope for the best. As for now, I’m just trying to shut out this sadness…

    • Violet  July 23, 2017 at 12:08 am Reply

      It’s crazy how many people are here about Chester. Maybe a handful to some but enough to show how much of an impact he (and Linkin Park) made. When I first heard the news, I was glib. Shocked, but I made a comment about how it was ‘unsurprising’. I hadn’t listened to Linkin Park since Minutes to Midnight, which I always thought was a mediocre album with only one good song.

      Now I’m sitting up at stupid o’clock in the morning bawling my eyes out because this band was my obsession in a difficult adolescence.

      I really didn’t expect to grieve like this. I think Aisha here hits the nail on the head; it’s scary to think that someone who we felt was there for us and shone a light on all the darkness we were trying to figure out in our most vulnerable years was so deeply consumed by his own demons that he couldn’t make it out. But I also feel like we owe it to him to keep going, because of the strength he gave us to continue, because of the raw emotion weaved into everything he touched.

      Still, I feel like a chunk of myself has been ripped up. Recently, I listened to some of their music, and in my mind, I could visualise Chester as he was during my very first gig so far away but still in the same room as me, the euphoria I felt at such a thought all that time ago hit me like a sledgehammer. The memory is still so visceral, and it brought back more and more.

      Examining my grief, I know that my reaction shows that Chester was good at what he did. Reaching out, touching people with his music, exposing his pain to terrible scrutiny but being bold enough to do so in the first place. And this is the first time that someone who was so integral to who I was as a teenager and who I am now, even if I failed to realise it, has passed away, and in such a tragic way. I was embarrassed at first but now I know it’s important to feel this. It’s important to process these emotions and think about what they mean for me, and to discuss them with other people and just… grieve.

      I hope everyone who drops by the page, whether for Chester, or David, or Chris, or anyone who was important to them for any reason, I hope you all found the comfort you needed, I hope that you have support or will seek it. I hope you’ll stay if you’re feeling like you can’t, because your experience matters and must be shared. I hope everyone who knew the departed knows they can reach out, too.

  56. Fiore  July 23, 2017 at 1:26 pm Reply

    I literally Googled “how to deal with celebrity deaths” after spending the past three days feeling so sad, tired and actually rather depressed about the passing of Chester Bennington. Celebrity deaths have made me feel sad, don’t get me wrong, but not like this. Usually a case of listen to their music for a bit and then get on with things. In this case I’m sitting in my room at night waiting for people in the house to go to bed so I can put headphones on and repeat Hybrid Theory until i have cried myself to sleep. I mean what is that all about? Part of me feels so silly for being like this about a ‘stranger’. I haven’t really listened to Linkin Park after Meteora, save for the tracks in the Transformers movies so now I feel a bit dramatic and I can’t voice this weird grief even with my friends because I feel silly. Like a big, 32 year old baby. Crying over someone I don’t know personally and who I have never met.

    I don’t know. I’ve never reacted to death like this before, even with friends and family who I have known, so these feelings are quite foreign to me. But I’m happy to have my weirdness validated. By strangers hehe! At least I’m not a weirdo on my own!

    Thanks for writing this article. I can go and listen to Linkin Park and feel less foolish for crying half way through it <3

    • Kelly  July 23, 2017 at 11:08 pm Reply

      If it helps, we are the same age and I have been doing very similar things. I have been googling why I feel so impacted by this. It is nice to know I am not alone as I feel like I cannot be truly honest about this with my friends. I also happen to work in the mental health field and am in school for counseling so it feels extra personal. The best connection I’ve made for myself it that these guys started at a perfect age for me. I was in high school and experiencing typical teen angst and their music really fit me. I have a lot of memories associated with their music. I have followed them over the years. “Waiting for the End” is probably my favorite song, it helped me through two breakups and I would literally listen to it on repeat in my car until little by little I started to feel better. I feel grief over the loss that I don’t know how I will get to experience them in the future and it very clearly won’t be the same moving forward, this part is probably selfish as I also will never get to see them in concert I imagine. I don’t know if that helps or not but I absolutely am feeling similarly to you. I’m trying to find solace in the fact he’s no longer in pain but it’s still hard. Praying for his family and friends.

    • Judy  July 24, 2017 at 12:37 am Reply

      I’m also 32 and crying like a baby over chester. It seems so strange to feel this way about it. I struggle with depression, and going to concerts is one of the few things I can do where I feel truly happy. I saw LP a few times, and was really looking forward to seeing them next week. I’ve been to hundreds of concerts, but my favorite was LP during a thunderstorm where I danced in the rain without a care in the world. I think part of what makes this so hard is that I don’t know anyone else who is this upset about it. Thank goodness for the Internet to let us know we aren’t really alone.

  57. Natalia  July 23, 2017 at 9:52 pm Reply

    I’m also here beacause of Chester but I think another important reason why i am feeling so awful is that I never got to see Linkin Park live, which is probably the only thing I ever dreamed of. I live in Bolivia and when they went to Peru I had the chance to finally go to a concert, but my parents said that the flight and the hotel and everything was too expensive and of course I understood and thought that there would be another chance in the future. I kept thinking that there would be another chance until there wasn’t. So it’s not only the fact that one of my heroes passed away, it’s also the frustration of never being able to make that dream come true.

  58. Kimberly  July 24, 2017 at 7:11 pm Reply

    It’s helpful to read the others here for Chester. I last saw them in 2014 and had a wonderful time, but I did not keep up on L.P. news. I’d listened to Hybrid Theory and Meteora countless times through elementary, middle school and even highschool and college. The day before his passing I was screaming along to Nobody’s Listening.

    My husband texted me while I was at work in disbelief and I immediately took to the internet. I made it about an hour further until my boss let me take the rest of the day off because I couldn’t speak without sobbing.

    I cried for another hour with their music on shuffle. I read more articles being released. I didn’t understand why someone wasn’t with him on Chris’s birthday. But mostly I just had no idea he was depressed since I didn’t follow the band news. I feel so hurt, I keep crying 4 days later. I want to scream. But I also want to feel this, I don’t want to pretend my feelings aren’t there.

    But I don’t know what to do. Crying won’t bring him back or help me understand. It’s just so painful to really listen to ALL the album’s and hear his voice and lyrics screaming for help. There’s nothing as a fan I could’ve done to change his mind.

    I also became afraid for my other favorite artists with rather dark music. Trent Reznor, Marilyn Manson… idk where they are at in their lives but like Chester, appearances can be decieving.

    So I’m trying to educate myself on depression and suicidal thoughts and be there even more for anyone in this downward spiral.

  59. Angela  July 24, 2017 at 8:26 pm Reply

    I’m here too because of the death of Chester. I have been a Linkin Park fan since I was in middle school, I’m now 27. I had tickets to see their show in Las Vegas in September. My sister called me and as soon as she told me the news I just started crying. I came to this page because I’ve been so upset for these past few days. I constantly search for any new news…even though there can’t be any other outcome to the story.

    I tell myself I didn’t know him so why am I so upset? I can only imagine the true pain his wife, children, family, and friends must be dealing with. I feel selfish because I’m so sad I’ll never get to see them in concert while all these others are missing him as a father, husband, and friend.

    I always thought Linkin Park would be there and I’m incredibly sad Chester and essentially Linkin Park are gone.

    I’ve never been really affected by a celebrity’s death. I was quite sad about Robin Williams and Cory Monteith but Chester’s death has hit me particularly hard and I just wish I could turn back time, I keep hoping it’ll somehow be a bad joke.

    I hope in the end he found peace

  60. Mon  July 25, 2017 at 2:28 am Reply

    It sucks that I can’t grieve Chester properly because I’m too busy with my anxiety and depression that his passing triggered back; I was already dealing with a relapse or / with preventing a relapse that I felt coming weeks ago and when he died I just gave up. I had a panic attack earlier today when I saw a headline about the 911 call and I had to go to the loo to cry over the dedication the band did. I guess I feel like I myself lost part of my battle when he lost his.

  61. Sam  July 25, 2017 at 3:52 pm Reply

    Like a few others before me,I just stumbled upon this site because of Chester Bennington’s death which hit me like a ton of bricks when I realized that the reports turned out to be true-I was online when his name and Linkin Park began trending on Twitter and initially thought (and probably wanted to believe) it was just another hoax.LP was a big part of my teen years when my brother and I used to endlessly play Hybrid Theory and Meteora. Collision Course was released during my senior year in high school and I was truly obsessed with Numb Encore (yes,I’ll be turning 3-0 at the end of this year!).I have to admit that I was one of those fans who didn’t care much about the band members’ personal lives and just appreciated the art that they produced.I also listened to Mike Shinoda’s band,Fort Minor.Since then,college and life happened so I didn’t listen to the band as much but it wasn’t until literally a few weeks ago that I began reminiscing about the past and started listening to LP again incl. Chester’s acoustic version of “Rolling in the Deep” which I played in my kitchen one Sunday afternoon in June,and told my brother that I could not believe that this much time has elapsed because it seemed like just yesterday it was released.I also remember vividly thinking that I’d like to see them live in concert one day because they sound better than most artists.

    I’m well aware that this “reminiscence” of yesteryear as well as having since learned about Chester’s experiences with bullying and abuse (which I can relate to) has led to me being affected by his death (often crying like a baby at times) as if I knew him personally when reality is quite the contrary and isn’t even 1/4 of the pain his family and friends are going through right now-most fans can relate to this conundrum.I’m glad to have read about experiences from other like-minded people in the wake of Chester’s death because I bet if you were to share these thoughts with most people in real life,they’d probably think you are a ‘certifiable nutcase’.

    The only consolation in all of this is that Chester may have finally attained the peace that he so badly yearned for during his life.

  62. Vicky  July 26, 2017 at 1:47 pm Reply

    I guess I am not alone.

    I have been grieving Chesters death since that morning. I felt something was off. I woke up grouchy and headed into work. I still had not been notified by my family of his passing. I stumble upon it because of the ABC13KTRK alerts on the OJ case. So, I cleared my phone and like always, jumped onto Facebook to clear my notifications.
    I favorited TMZ when Paul Walker died. So everytime I get on Fb, TMZ is the first thing I see on my feed before anyone else.

    And then it begins. With out any warning. I was shocked. I couldn’t believe it. I thought it was a bad joke. Miss information on their part. I clocked out and went to the break room. Looked at article after article. No news outlet had broken the story so it wasn’t true for me yet. A coworker saw how upset I was, that he helped me find a news provider who broke the news first. It said ABC England. And then, thats when I received the alert from ABC13KTRK. My phone was blowing up by then. My Facebook full of messages. My nieces, my husband, my concert buddy from my high school and a few of my close friends as well trying to reach out to me.

    It’s set in. For the first couple of nights I would wake up thinking it was just a bad dream. But now I just cry and cry! My heart is broken. I feel like a piece of me has died. Honestly I just want to stop feeling like shit! It’s been a long time since I felt like this!

    I loved Chester. His music helped me through a shitty teenage life that I had!! I had been at the low point in my life where everything seemed as if it would be better for everyone if I ceased to exist. Of course I went through heavy counseling. Trying to get my head on straight. It took a good while but of course it still lives inside of me. My depression is not accompanied by suicidal thoughts anymore.

    I have been okay for a good while now. Every so often, i do have my self inflicting episodes where I over think shit in my head. So I try to relax and leave that alone by being with my little girl whom means the world to me. If it wasn’t for her…. I don’t think I would be walking this earth now. So on that note, I close this.

    Thanks to Chester Bennington for helping me thought it with his beautiful voice and messages. I had a friend with out him even knowing it :). I will miss you forever. And I hope to meet you once again. I love you. You indeed were my hero!

    RIP Chester Bennington
    “You were loved by the world!!”

    • Ally  July 26, 2017 at 4:24 pm Reply

      You are deff not alone! I have dealt with depression ever since I was a kid, shitty childhood you name it.
      I went to counseling weekly not that long ago and was put on antidepressants but stopped taking them in april because I was feeling better. As soon as I heard about Chester I spiraled back into it, I cant stop watching videos, interviews, one more light is on repeat, Ive cried. Even though I didn’t know him personally him and the rest of LP got me through a lot as a child too and even my adulthood up until now. His infectious smile, the way he treated people, and talked about his problems I just had such a huge relation. I feel like I just lost a really close friend and that feels crazy to say because I only met him once back in 2007. It hurts so much to know that he was going through so much pain and that no one was able to help him.

    • Pr2479  July 26, 2017 at 7:54 pm Reply

      Wow. I thought I was the only “crazy” person out there that has been hit hard by Chester’s death. I can’t stop listening to LP songs. I’m crying everyday. Like ppl have said on here already, i feel like I lost a buddy of mine. I was in my late teens early 20s when I fell in love with their music. I lost a piece of my growing up when I heard of his death. It hurts. Then again, his family is hurting so much more. I feel so bad for his kids and wife and the thought of how those kids will be in the future saddens me as well. RIP Chester. And for his family and friends, I hope one day they will fine peace

      • Melanie  September 21, 2017 at 7:15 pm

        You’re definitely NOT crazy. There’s millions of us out there who are all feeling the same way! If you haven’t already, join some of the fb memorial groups. They’re great support.

    • Laura Townsley  March 8, 2019 at 5:59 pm Reply

      Every coupe of months at this point i look up videos about him. I always end up listening to his version of Hallelujah that he song at Chris Cornell’s funeral and end up bawling like a big baby… its 2019 i don’t know if ill ever stop hurting over his loss. How you wrote this is exactly how i felt What worse is my dad died at the end of may that year in a boating accident. They both could have been prevented at least i hope they could have…. it sucks so damn bad. No one around me understands how i feel.

  63. Sheridan  August 1, 2017 at 3:38 pm Reply

    I’m so glad to have found this article and thank you. I thought people who were morning celebrities deaths were silly. Until yesterday. I spent the day mourning the death of Sam Shepard. In my youth I idolize him. I was terribly jealous of Jessica Lang. lol. I hadn’t thought of Mr Shepard in years. His plays inthalled me. His acting was very good but his playwright skills are tremendous. Fool for Love was like an anthem for me. With his death ended my youth, my struggles in the theatre and caused me to revisit a life long passion I poured everything I had into it for many years. I had hoped attending an Ivy league school would have been a chance meeting with Mr Shepard. Due to ongoing health issues I nevervamounted to more than attending a fine school. Mr Shepard passing brought all that back and then I felt so old. An American great gone and so is my youth, gone. Today i,m feeling sad and drained. I hope tomorrow will be better and one day be able to open one of Mr Shepard plays and languish in his raw beauty of an American Western experience. RIP

  64. Michelle  August 2, 2017 at 10:25 am Reply

    I’m here also cause of Chester. This hurts and I can’t stop mourning. Can’t stop listening to LP and crying a lot. I feel stupid & I feel completely alone and feel like no one is supporting me because no one understands.
    Your grief about Chester helps me a lot.

    • Vicky  August 4, 2017 at 9:20 pm Reply

      You are not alone. There are tons of fans still mourning his death. My self included.

  65. P cake  August 5, 2017 at 3:54 pm Reply

    Mourners of Chester, there are some great Facebook groups out there. It’s a little comforting to know so many people feel the exact same way as you. You’re not alone.

  66. Megan  August 10, 2017 at 8:39 pm Reply

    I am still grieving over Chester. I think I might for a while. It’s kind of embarrassing so I don’t talk about it much, except with my youngest daughter who was raised with LP. She and I both struggle with severe anxiety and depression. I felt suicidal a couple of years ago too, so I know Chester’s pain. He was my age- even born the same month (5 days after me), so I kind of feel connection there too. We are both very sensitive and wear our heart on our sleeve. I feel so silly about grieving over someone I didn’t know, but I understand his pain and it hits so close to home. I wish I could get over it, but celebrity or not, grief has its own time table. I’m glad I’m not alone. I’m sad that I can’t really talk about it with others without them thinking I’m weird. I’m just a very sensitive person and things like this affect me greatly. I have a hard time with change. This is a lot to process.

    • Kaat  December 27, 2018 at 3:50 pm Reply

      He killed himself three says after my birthday. I don’t talk about him go other persons becausr they don’t understanding.
      I love you ❤️
      Evert single one of these LP familie

  67. Donna  September 6, 2017 at 11:43 pm Reply

    George Michael… I still cry sometimes when I hear his music… And sometimes his music makes me feel better. Really mixed emotions, but I felt like I’d lost a childhood friend even though we never had actually met.

    • Terri  September 16, 2017 at 4:21 pm Reply

      I also am grieving the loss of george michael. I’ve loved him since 1981, and his death had hit me really hard. And I’m trying to understand why I feel so incredibly sad, and cry whenever a song comes on. I’ve decided what I’m gonna do, is watch his documentary when it’s on, drink coupius amount of wine, and see if I can cry this utter sadness out.

    • Lisa  February 20, 2018 at 2:47 am Reply

      I agree COMPLETELY with you about George Michael. I first heard him when I was 14 years old and feel like I know him as a long time childhood friend. I LOVE LOVE LOVE his VOICE! RIP George Michael. Love, Lisa

    • Jane  March 2, 2018 at 5:32 pm Reply

      I’ve been a fan of George Michael since 1984 when he was in Wham. I never met him nor went to his concert but I listen to his music. I cried over George like losing a dear friend. I’m surprised at how much I loved George and that I’ve cried over him. His song A Different Corner Makes me feel emotional. George was the same age as me as we were both born in 1963.
      He was too young to die.

  68. Becky K Harrison  September 16, 2017 at 5:08 pm Reply

    I am going through this right now with the passing of Troy Gentry just last week Friday 9/8/2017. I start to feel guilty for having it hit me harder than I thought anything would (Only one thing that I believe would be harder which won’t get into).

    I am only one of probably millions of fans and found that most people when shared the news, pretty much passed it over (a couple reacted with tear emoji); but only one of my sister’s reached out and gave condolences to me and I still wasn’t’ sure it was okay (though I know we grieve how we do), I also feeling guilty that I did not have this impact when losing my own cousin in May 34 years old to cancer.

    With Troy, I try to tell myself, yes grieving for what the loss means to me (they helped me through my 1st serious depression) and I got to see them in concert twice that I will now cherish forever. I had just got through saying not long ago, if I was ever going to be able to afford a concert again (though had been blessed seeing Montgomery Gentry) it would be them 🙁 But also grieving for his wife & kids and don’t ask me why my heart breaks nearly as much for Eddie, as after his grieving which will may not completely heal, he has to figure out “where to go from here.”

  69. Debra  September 19, 2017 at 1:09 am Reply

    Best article I’ve read…
    On July 20th 2017, I got a call at work from my daughter stating that Chester Bennington from Linkin Park had killed himself. I never reacted to a celebrity death in such away. Yeah it was sad when Robin Williams Died, and it was sad when David Bowie died. All deaths are sad because of their friends and family they leave behind.

    But Chester for me was what this article was about. I didn’t know Chester but I swear he was the only person that knew me. His music was like a personal tour in my brain. I never felt alone because Chester sang the words that I needed to express. I got into his music in my early 20s my kids grew up listening to his music. I watched him grow from hybrid theory to one more light…his humor, his humbleness, and of course his talent.

    I never thought of topic 4 but that hit the nail on the head. I related a lot with Chester a lot of his songs were about depression or dying in some way. I have tried countless times to end my life to just to fail and often times after failing and getting back up it was chesters voice that got me through those dark times.

    I have nothing to give the world just another waist of space.., and Chester succeeded and he had so much to give as #9 talked about. I have no more of his stuff to look forward to and say omg yes that’s exactly what I was trying to say…
    and I think the worst part is the shame of all of it…like #8 talks about… if I try to tell ppl how hard it is for me (even before I lost Chester my depression was extreme this makes it so much worse) they roll their eyes… they think I’m pathetic.. so therefore I think I’m pathetic… they don’t know 2 weeks ago I tried to end it all… they don’t know that just a few minutes ago I was walking around my hotel room looking for ways i may be able to hang myself…. when I go to my friends and family and all I get is eye rolls or the get over it speech and than of course some stranger will say something nice but deep down you know they won’t know if u will be buried 6 ft under the next day nor do they care (they say they do but we all know ) and than once ur dead that’s when your friends and family listens…

    I think these articles should be put out there ppl shouldn’t be ashamed of their feelings. Even if you don’t understand why someone is grieving something like even children can grieve toys you can still sympathize and not make them just want to hide away and feel like freaks..,

    Great article ❤️

    • Melanie  September 21, 2017 at 7:20 pm Reply

      Thank you for writing this.
      It is all so true. I feel like people are judging me over my grief and thinking that I should just get over it. I could be completely making it all up in my head, who knows. I’ll never know. It’s comforting to know that other Chester fans understand how each other feels and I have found my comfort and support through his fb memorial groups.

      Big hugs. Xoxo

    • Robin  February 24, 2018 at 1:18 am Reply

      I feel the same Debra. Chester was such a caring amazing person. It’s been 7 months now and I still cry about him several times a week. I believe he came to me in a dream because he sees how I’m struggling. Just remember our promise and commitment to him is to MAKE CHESTER PROUD! We need to stay strong and learn how to overcome our demons for him! He will always be a light within all who love him! 🙏🏽💖🕊✨🎶

    • Kaat  December 27, 2018 at 3:47 pm Reply

      His voice is ❤️
      I really understanding you, all of you.
      The LP soldiers are the best People in the world ❤️

    • Laura Townsley  March 8, 2019 at 5:53 pm Reply

      I feel exactly the same. His death still rocks me to my core.

  70. Anonymous  October 8, 2017 at 5:10 pm Reply

    Thanks so much for this article. I feel like such an idiot because I cannot stop crying over Tom Petty. I feel physically sick. Your words have helped a little.

    • Sandra Mansfield  October 10, 2017 at 5:33 pm Reply

      I wrote you a very long reply. Before I could fill in my information though somehow I lost it. You are not alone. I am devastated and can’t stop crying either. I’ll post more.later. Watch for it. Maybe I’ll find what I wrote. 🎶🎩✌🎸🌈

    • Allyson  October 12, 2017 at 12:09 am Reply

      Don’t feel bad. I’m still in deep deep mourning for Chris Cornell. You can love a person without knowing them fully. I have good days and then some days the breath is taken from me and all I do is cry.
      I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time. I can honestly say I can relate and your feelings a valid. I will pray that you are filled with peace and the hurt subsides sooner than later♥️Allyson

    • Allyson  October 12, 2017 at 12:10 am Reply

      Don’t feel bad. I’m still in deep deep mourning for Chris Cornell. You can love a person without knowing them fully. I have good days and then some days the breath is taken from me and all I do is cry.
      I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time. I can honestly say I can relate and your feelings are valid. I will pray that you are filled with peace and the hurt subsides sooner than later♥️Allyson

    • Kortney  October 22, 2017 at 6:05 pm Reply

      I feel the same way about Tom Petty. I am 40 and he was my favorite starting in my childhood. I am remembering different songs of his and they represented a different time in my life. I have listened to his Sirius station nonstop and have exposed my 4 and 6 year olds to his music (they love it). I was also devestated with Prince. It seems like the true artists of a generation are leaving. Everything these days is so hyped prepackaged and instant. I totally get the mourning of a legend

      • Cynthia Rose  November 28, 2017 at 9:21 pm

        Just reading the words “Prince” makes my heart hurt. I actually stumbled on this article when I searched for message boards/groups who mourn Prince. It’s been a year and a half and it still feels so fresh. I don’t have a friend or family member who understands my pain so I was hoping to reach out to other fans. I’ve been a fan since I was only 10 yrs old and I’m now 46. His music and concerts have been a HUGE part of those 36 years! I can’t even begin to tell u the ways. I’m so glad I came across this. I’m glad there are people out there who understand. I just hope the pain of losing him eventually subsides. He was so young…I thought for sure we had another 20 years of music…R.I.P. Beautiful One. 💜

  71. Merissa  October 18, 2017 at 11:13 am Reply

    Wow, thank you for this article. I have been crying all morning over the news of Gord Downie’s death. I’ve been enjoying his music since I can remember and it’s always playing when we are on long road trips and camping. It makes me so proud to be Canadian. I think that’s why it is hard to come to terms with the fact that he will never bless us with more of his beautiful music again. Some of his songs make me emotional to begin with, but hearing them now that he is gone makes them harder to bear. However, reading this article makes me feel like I am not alone, and I will continue to honour his memory by listening to his beautiful songs <3

  72. Kate  November 4, 2017 at 2:05 am Reply


  73. Kate Galea  November 4, 2017 at 2:11 am Reply

    For me there has only been one celebrity death that has made me feel so upset and depressed even to this day. And that’s that passing of Cory Monteith. I miss him so much, he is on my mind 24/7, I cry every day.. I’m currently watching glee and whenever there’s scenes of him my heart just stops. He had so much to live for knowing his death was “accidental” doesn’t make it any easier, it could have been avoided. I follow his loved one on social media just so I can see posts of him. I probably sound like a crazy person but I felt like I’ve met him that I’ve known him my whole life… his voice and his extremely kind heart is truly pure. He was one in a million. Rest in pace angel!

  74. Mackenzie  November 14, 2017 at 8:53 pm Reply

    I’m still grieving Steve Irwin, better known as the Crocodile Hunter. Tomorrow is Steve Irwin Day and I follow both of his kids on social media and saw their posts about it and openly broke down. I can be scrolling on Facebook and see his picture and I start sobbing. All my childhood I grew up watching his tv show and wanting to be just like him. That’s where my love for animals, especially reptiles, grew from. I wanted to grow up and move to Australia and work at his zoo with him. I even had a pet snake named after him for a few years. I remember the morning I found out I was out of town and didn’t believe what my parents were telling me. I played it cool in front of everyone but once I got into the shower that morning I laid on the time floor and sobbed. I tried the whole 3 hour drive him and for the next fews days. I remember sitting in class in 7th grade and my teacher brought it up and I needed to be excused from class I was crying so uncontrollably. I never knew him but I saw him as a father figure and wanted to be just like him. He was my Michael Jordan. Here I am typing this and crying all the while. Thanks for letting me vent.

  75. ZBEE  December 8, 2017 at 8:00 pm Reply

    for me it’s selena quintanilla and i’m never getting over it i hope i will see here 1 day

  76. ZBEE  December 8, 2017 at 8:26 pm Reply

    i’m not even a real fan. i don’t really knew Selena Quintanilla of course but i love the way she was she really gave me an amazing 90’s feeling so my love for her is deep and it will be like that my whole life for sure sometimes i search the internet crazy what happens after this life just to make sure to see her, it’s crazy right. if i listen to Michael Jackson and i realize what happend at the end of her life i break in tears and my heart breaks in pieces and i cry like a baby. i’m a men aged 18 and i just like her Sooooooooo much. sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night and hear her song: Dreaming of you, and it gives me feelings that she is close. she is a star and she for ever will be i will never forget her, and one day i will go to her grave and give it some roses, but the feeling of me loving her is permanent.she gives me an indescribable feeling i’m not just a fan of her music or other things i like her by everything she is my dream girl i hope i don’t sound too crazy ,but when i wake up i wake up with her in my mind and the rest of the day i walk with her in my mind i just want to feel and touch her and talk to her about everything i’m in love with here style if i ever can talk to here i have so much to say to her i’m in love with her forever i will never forget Selena Quintanilla. Anything For Selenas

  77. ZBEE  December 8, 2017 at 8:33 pm Reply

    and i can tell you guys that what i’m feeling is more than this text i just want too see here one day. nothing is impossible you never know

  78. Angel'le Robinson  December 18, 2017 at 7:00 pm Reply

    I am getting to this article a bit later and for a very different celebrity who was more an idol or a man to look up to for me. (Altough I did love Bowie). Kim Jonghyun. Yes, a kpop star. I know, “you can’t even understand what they’re saying.” Okay, now that we have acknowledged the ignorant people of the internet, let’s get back on topic here. Kim Jonghyun literally had the heart of a puppy. He loved everyone, with all his hear, and didn’t ask for anything in return. He was so loyal to the people he cared about. But he struggled with depression.. up until today, December 18, 2017. Now he will never struggle or hurt again. And while I never had the honor of meeting him in person, every performance video I watched felt personal. He had more talent packed into his pinky than I will ever have in my entire body. I looked up to him so so much and could only dream of singing that well. Yet he took his own life because he believed he wasn’t good enough, would never be good enough, and things would only go downhill for him. I wish with all my heart that I could tell him he was wrong but he never even saw my face. So this article has helped me so much. Thank you for helping me. I felt crazy but I have been crying all day. I still have dried tears on my face, possibly about to be replaced with fresh ones.

    • Sheep Sky  December 18, 2017 at 9:44 pm Reply

      I’m here because of Kim Jonghyun too. SHINee’s music was my childhood and even though I didn’t actively follow Jonghyun, this hit me hard. Comforting to see another person also read this article for Jonghyun…

      • Serene Brielle  December 21, 2017 at 9:19 pm


      • Serene Brielle  December 21, 2017 at 9:27 pm

        Sorry for my previous comment it was an error. I’ve been a shawol since 2011 and I owe almost everything to SHINee. It hurts so much to know that he’s gone and I can’t even formulate my words or come up with a complete thought. I haven’t been able to cry but theres been a weight on my chest ever since I found out. This is my first time dealing with a celebrity death and I’m not sure how to recover/deal with it. Rest in Peace Jonghyun. Thank you for everything. Thank you for making me smile almost instantly, thank you for guiding me through the tough times with your beautiful music. Rest easy blingbling

    • Unknown  December 19, 2017 at 2:39 am Reply

      I am also here because of him. Right now I have to go to school and I think I will burst out crying. I’m worried no one will understand. I don’t want to ruin Christmas either but this actually hit me harder since I never really thought about this possibility. And I never had someone I know or love die. This is the first time. I’m still struggle to understand the whole concept that I’ll never see him again. My brain can’t process it.

    • insaf  December 19, 2017 at 8:06 am Reply

      Oh guys…i wasn’t expecting to see some shawols here. I’m here because of Jonghyun too. He was my favorite Korean Idol, i loved him so much. Hearing his voice was a huge pleasure. Now it’s gonna be horribly painful. And i have no one to share my pain with… i feel so alone in this… we knew he was struggling but we were helpless, we couldn’t do anything…

    • Angelz  December 19, 2017 at 9:28 am Reply

      I’m here because of Jonghyun too. I don’t consider myself a Shawol but I do listen to his songs a lot and his passing has hit me harder than I thought. I’ve been crying since the news broke yesterday and reading his final note really struck a chord because I myself have been struggling with depression for several years now. I thought I was crazy for being so sad about someone that I barely knew but reading this article has made me realize I’m not. Thank you.

    • Kyra  December 19, 2017 at 6:02 pm Reply

      I have been crying nonstop for two days now and I don’t know what to do. I lost my appetite. My throat became sore. I wish I could’ve died instead of him. I have never felt such a hopeless sadness before, not even when my two dogs or Grandma and grandpa died. Jonghyun and SHINee have been such an influence in my life. They helped me to smile when I couldn’t smile. And now, he’s gone forever and I’m still in shock. I don’t want it to be true. Even though I loved him with all my heart I wish I could go back in time and appreciate him more. He was such an inspiration to us all, to the world. I don’t know when this endless cycle of darkness will pass… all I know is that if I could give up everything in this world to get him to be back on earth, happy and healthy, I’d sacrifice anything. Rest In Peace Jonghyun.

    • seana  December 20, 2017 at 8:39 am Reply

      i wouldn’t consider myself a shawol, but for me and other young fans shinee was that group we thought would always be there. even if you weren’t a shinee fan, you were still a shinee fan. i didn’t think jonghyun’s passing would hit me this hard but i’ve been crying for two days now. even though i’ve listened to some of his solo work, it’s such a shame that i’m learning so much about him since his passing. he truly was a compassionate and understanding human, who loved a lot. he gave so many comforting words to his fans who were going through similar things that he was. if anyone should have won this battle, it should have been him.

      now more than ever i wish i was religious, because i desperately hope he’s in heaven, that he’s happy and free from pain. he deserves it.

      my only thoughts are that i wish i could’ve helped in some way. it’s so cruel how the universe saves some and not others. he would’ve been so alone right at the end and i can’t even fathom how he was feeling. i hope he’s free from pain now and can finally rest. we’ll miss you jonghyun

    • tyler  December 20, 2017 at 11:53 am Reply

      I’m so glad to see people struggling with Jonghyun’s death in the same way I am- it’s been a real struggle these past few days. I have been institutionalized for suicide attempts in the past, and the fact that he didn’t have enough support breaks my heart. It’ll take me a while to get over this one…

    • Ame  December 21, 2017 at 5:32 am Reply

      I wasn’t even a SHINee fan and to be honest I didn’t even connect Jonghyun’s name to his music until my Korean friend told me about his passing. It was only when I read up on it that I recognised his face and I suddenly felt devastated by his death. A part of my brain keeps telling me I’m being irrational because I didn’t even know him but I think a part of me is connecting his struggles to situations closer to home and that’s why I’ve been hit so hard. Reading more and more about him makes it harder to accept because he was quite literally an angel on earth and for his sake I truly hope there is a heaven because one of its brothers has come home. RIP Jonghyun you were the purest of souls, brilliant and so talented and I hope you’re free now wherever you are ❤️ Your light will shine on forever!

    • No one  December 21, 2017 at 10:06 am Reply

      I’m here because of Jonghyun too… I think I need to open up somewhere or I might make other people sad.
      So um.. here is some back story. I have always been quite introverted and I don’t let many people close to me. I have this little shield to protect me from the world, this world is too cruel. It has hurt me many times to learn about some horrible things people have done and are doing at the moment everywhere around the world. But like I said my little shield kept me at least somewhat safe. I only let my friends (I have two friends) close but not too close.
      Now there is this little complication with the shield: it numbs everything down. I don’t remember when I last genuinely felt happy, sad or liked the air I was walking through or anything… I know how it feels without the shield because when I was little I didn’t have this filter like shield with me. The only things I let past my shield were the things that couldn’t hurt me and brought joy to me. Things like music, movies and games. I live through these things. At some point, I got into kpop. Now as we all kpop fans know there are many things that come with listening to kpop. All the comebacks, variety shows, funny messages and everything to get us hooked on these “perfect idols”. It fit like a glove. I could feel happy and sad with them and I felt connected to reality. So, as I told earlier I have this shield, this filter. To feel something, I let exactly two groups of people in from kpop. The first one is SHINee and the second one is BTS. I got hooked on these people. They are captivating for many reasons. But for me, the people who I related most I got most involved with. These people are of course the people who are struggling like me. I love Jonghyun. And I love Yoongi. Their music I relate to on another level. The sad lyrics and stories, their personalities. They are like two suns I admire. Of course, when I learned that Yoongi has been struggling with depression and possibly even suicidal thoughts I hoped with all my heart he would get all the happiness in the world. So now I’m getting to the dark part. Jonghyun. His lyrics always made me feel something deeper but I couldn’t quite catch what. I was super into all his solo stuff. I never did anything like talk with other fans or get involved in the same way other fans did. I think this has something to do with my “shield”. I always look at these people from far away, I never got involved closely.
      The 18 of December I open my phone. I scroll down the social media page as always. Suddenly something pops up that has me re reading it many times over. SHINee Jonghyun, dead. I couldn’t believe it. I still can’t. I never realized he was hurting so much. I don’t know how I missed it. I’ve been crying. A lot. My sun has gone away. World is dark. I’m lost. The last days I’ve been either crying helplessly, shutting myself down and been numb or denied it ever happened. Jonghyun-ah. I’m sorry I couldn’t do anything for you. The world is too cruel. You got past my shield and now it hurts too much. I don’t know how to go on. I’m tired. Even before all this I was tired, I thought that I wouldn’t care if I died now. The numbness is more than just a shield it’s a part of me. I now see that. But being so numb doesn’t feel good inside. It feels like there is more but you can never quite get it. Normal life that is. So Jonghyun. I feel like I’m now over the edge. Losing you hurts too much. I’m more tired than ever. My personal life is collapsing in the background too. You always pushed me forward and made me at least try. I could always think about you and Yoongi and remember there are good things in the world, it’s worth it to push on forward. Now I’m not so sure. I suddenly see how much you were hurting. In your songs you screamed for help, no one came, no one could get to you. No one could understand you. Now I see how in the live of “Elevator” you try to keep back your sobs after you sang. On Knowing Brothers. Now I see how you asked people to read your book about a boy who had to deal with vicious depression. You were asking for someone to listen to your story and help you. Now I see how in the end of the episode you start crying for no apparent reason, it was supposed to be a variety show…. Were you hurting even then? What about when you were alone in the dark at night? How much pain did you have inside you? Why did the world hurt you so? Why did it give you this pain to deal with? I don’t understand. How am I supposed to go on now? I’m so tired. I’m hurting. And I’m hurting more when I think it can’t be even a small portion of the pain you were in all those years. You tried to help other people, you asked others to send you their stories. You made song about those stories. But in the end you couldn’t help yourself…..
      It hurts. Pain. Dark. Tired. I want to sleep and never wake up. I don’t think this world is for me. It’s too dark and painful. After all I realized you were in the dark with me. Now even you are gone. Tired. I’m just so tired.

    • Shine1707  December 21, 2017 at 2:52 pm Reply

      wow, I thought I’m the only one who’s here because of SHINee’s Jonghyun. I don’t even watch TV but I watched every single videos that have SHINee members in youtube and other sites. In my family, I’m the only fan even if crying for some minutes they don’t understand. They think I’m crazy, although my friends understand me because they are fans of some kpop groups too. It is just hard, it was 2 days before my exam I woke up and received that news from a friend. It is not just some exams because it is for my cpa module. I only support SHINee, even bought album, hoodie with SHINee and poster. It hurts a lot for me. I feel like I lose a part of my life in losing our Jonghyun. Their songs are there for me when I was down especially Jonghyun’s. I am relieved that there are really people everywhere in the world who feels the same way. Let’s keep supporting and praying for SHINee.

    • Sunshine Dimarucot  December 21, 2017 at 2:55 pm Reply

      wow, I thought I’m the only one who’s here because of SHINee’s Jonghyun. I don’t even watch TV but I watched every single videos that have SHINee members in youtube and other sites. In my family, I’m the only fan even if crying for some minutes they don’t understand. They think I’m crazy, although my friends understand me because they are fans of some kpop groups too. It is just hard, it was 2 days before my exam I woke up and received that news from a friend. It is not just some exams because it is for my cpa module. I only support SHINee, even bought album, hoodie with SHINee and poster. It hurts a lot for me. I feel like I lose a part of my life in losing our Jonghyun. Their songs are there for me when I was down especially Jonghyun’s. I am relieved that there are really people everywhere in the world who feels the same way. Let’s keep supporting and praying for SHINee.

  79. Xander M  December 19, 2017 at 10:53 pm Reply

    I’m glad this article exists. It’s taking me a long time to accept Alan Rickman’s death. I started reading Harry Potter in 3rd grade, they were the first long books I ever finished. I had a shitty childhood and I always felt attached to Snape, because of him similar sad life. And of course, watching the movies brought me to Alan Rickman. As I got older I started watching him more. Interviews, random YouTube videos, Sweeney Todd, Die Hard, Dogma, etc. He is still my favourite celebrity and always will be. I dreamed of meeting him one day, I’m so sad that I never got that chance.

  80. Kezia  December 22, 2017 at 8:47 am Reply

    I’m glad I’m not the only one who mourns for Jonghyun so much, especially since im not a shawol…
    But like someone said, I kinda expected for SHINee to always be there and grow old with them, and hear about their marriage, etc.

    But alas, herr we are…

  81. Sara  December 25, 2017 at 12:18 am Reply

    I’m here cause of Jonghyun. He was my EVERYTHING. I feel like I lost EVERYTHING. He was my ultimate bias. I didn’t commit suicide because of him & his music. I feel so many emotions. I even feel angry & betrayed like he left me personally after giving me hope. But that’s such a selfish thought. I just want him back, I want to do everything over. Cause I’m on the edge. I wanna be where he is. I wanna go to him and be happy. He’s the second person, first celeb, I’ve lost that makes me want to die after their death. The light I’ve been seeing out the tunnel of my own depression is getting dimmer. I’m in pain.

    • c.  January 2, 2018 at 9:33 am Reply

      i know it may seem hard right now, believe me, because i found this article and started crying as i know i’m here because of jonghyun. i’m struggling still. i saw your comment and didn’t want to just pass it by. i hope you’re okay. please keep going, even through this grief. by no means will it be easy, and i’m realizing it slowly, but just know you are not alone in your feelings. it hurts, i get it so so much. please, be safe. there’s an angel who would want that for you, and everyone else.

  82. jieun  December 27, 2017 at 7:16 am Reply

    i am also here for jonghyun. it will be almost a week since he left this world, and i am still in denial. ive known shinee since 2009 and somehow grew up with them. although i stopped following their activities after 2013, i never stopped loving them. i was in the car on the way to the mall when i heard the news, what’s weird is that minutes before i even knew about it i already felt sad and uneasy, like somehow i knew something bad was going to happen. im feeling so guilty, what if a fan like me could have made a difference? i dont know…but i always think about a different ending to this story. like somehow jonghyun was saved and this is all a nightmare. my heart feels so heavy. i cant imagine the pain of those who are close to him. ive been crying for days now. and sometimes i would just stop and think about him and feel extremely down, i wrote a letter to him saying how sorry i am that ive somehow failed him when during my dark moments shinee was something that made me happy. i will love you always kim jonghyun. thank you so much for everything.

  83. Vicky  January 2, 2018 at 8:43 am Reply

    I stumbled across this article because I’m still really struggling with Carrie Fisher’s death. I think part of the issue is that I didn’t realise how great she was until she passed away and the other part is that I didn’t really deal with it at the time. It happened around Christmas time and I had missed the news that she was in hospital on the 23rd because I’d been travelling that day then her actual death came as such a shock to me meanwhile my family were so blasé about it.

    I keep reminding myself that she wouldn’t want us to be sad. She was all about “finding the funny” in everything. I need to get up, dust myself off and enjoy my life. OCD definitely isn’t helping with this because it’s sucking me down a whole of missing her so compulsively reading about her or watching a show/movie she’s in or wrote and fuelling the cycle. I guess I just need to accept that my heart is going to ache for a while rather than trying to fix it.

  84. JD Cooksey  January 5, 2018 at 3:27 pm Reply

    I did feel really bad about David Bowie, but it was David Cassidy that had me searching the internet for grieving buddies. I asked my counselor if I was crazy and she assured me that I was not. I do find, however, that most people are not willing to admit that they grieve celebrities. Too many people want to judge. Not nice. Thank you for this article.

    • kellie in md  January 24, 2018 at 1:06 pm Reply

      i’m also still grieving the passing of David Cassidy. it helps, some, to be part of a group of other fans. here’s one facebook page you might consider (if you’re not already a member LOL) it’s called “David Cassidy Tribute Page”. there’s also lots of loyal and loving fans on his own facebook page, which you can find from the main page of his official website, and Jane (who manages it all) is wonderful!

      please join one of the fan groups. a lot of us fans are in several of the groups, and we’d all be happy to have you!

      🙂 “kellie in md” <3

  85. Florence  January 8, 2018 at 7:36 pm Reply

    I don’t even know where to begin, really. Exactly 20 days ago, Kim Jonghyun chose to leave this world in search of a better place, and although I can’t blame him for what he did, it doesn’t stop my heart from aching in my chest. I hadn’t been a Shawol for very long, maybe a few months, but I came to love and care for him like a close friend, and when he died, I felt like I had too. His personality and interests were so similar to mine, and he has been the only man to ever connect with me in such a way.
    When I heard about his death, I literally felt like my world was collapsing. I couldn’t stop shaking for hours, and my whole body cramped up after a while. I was in shock for a long time, and it wasn’t until early the next morning that the first tears started to fall. They haven’t stopped since.
    The saddest thing is, everyone I have tried to talk about it to thinks I’m overreacting, or that I’m just “mourning” for attention because they don’t understand why I’d be so devastated about the death of someone I’d never even met. In reality, though, I feel like I’ve lost a piece of my soul. I honestly do.
    After slowly getting to know him through interviews, videos, etc, he became not only my idol, but my inspiration too. He made me want to get out of bed in the morning when my world was gradually falling apart around me. He helped me sleep, eat, and even leave my house on occasion. He made me want to work towards achieving my dreams of becoming a singer and moving to Korea, and I was just starting to get somewhere when I heard that he’d passed away.
    In all honesty, my depression has never been worse. I am legitimately bed-ridden now, but I don’t resent him at all for it, because I know how it feels to suffer for years and like you’ll never be good enough, or that you’ll be trapped in this constant state of misery forever. In fact, I felt so broken that, for the first seven days or so, I felt like killing myself too. Not just because he’s gone, but because my whole life in general is crap. I wanted the pain to stop so badly that I even wrote a suicide letter and started getting things ready. But then I realised that I’d just be disappointing Jonghyun if I actually did that, and it’d be incredibly disrespectful, so I decided to stop and try to cope as best I could for as long as I could.
    The only thing that’s really keeping me going at the moment is the thought that, even though I’m not really religious, I’ll finally get to meet him in Heaven (or something akin to it) when I’ve lived my life and have lots of stories to share with him, and I encourage everyone else here to think like that too. Love and hope are the only things stronger than pain and misery, but they’re only strong if you hold on to them. I hope whoever is reading this will feel better soon. xx

  86. Ciara Lee  January 11, 2018 at 11:57 pm Reply

    Its been almost a month and I cant get over Jonghyun’s death, its affected me physically now..i cant sleep, im struggling so much with sleep, falling asleep at 8am or something stupid most nights. I keep crying and wanting to be alone. Ive never been like this before. Ive been a strong Shawol since 2010, my room is full of drawings of the members and posters and all of their albums which family in Korea bought me. SHINee makes up my childhood memories..their music is happy memories for me, and like you said in this article… it feel as if my past has been taken away. Not omly that. Jonghyun was the most beautiful soul this planet had. An absolute inspiration who never ever deserved this. ‘He was too good for this world’ is what I tell myself daily. I have so many reminders of SHINee everywhere I go due to how big I got into their fandom…and now, its almost been a month since that day I felt myself crumble, and many fans are getting over it, excepting it and cheering up, i just seem to be getting worse.. even when i do finally sleep I will dream of him and the other members, I just want my chest to stop hurting, i want to sleep , I want to live thinking positively no matter what has happened. This has affected me so deeply.

  87. Taika  January 17, 2018 at 7:33 pm Reply

    Honestly, it’s somewhat relieving to see other people who I can relate to and seem to be going through similar emotions as I am. I was a shawol for only a fairly short time (although I still am and will always be), only from the beginning of 2016, and throughout these two years I fell in love with the most amazing and kind person whom now took his own life away. I can’t really name him out loud yet because it hurts too much. To be honest, I’ve been ridiculously lucky in the sense that I’ve had so many people supporting me on this, my friend called me when it happened because he wanted me to hear it from him in case I needed support (believe me, I did), my other friend agreed to meet me on the same day and I spent three hours just crying on her bed while she gave chocolate and pain killers and my teacher let me go from the last lesson because I was too broken to think of anything school related. (This same teacher actually asked me whether I was still shaken from this suicide a few days ago because I can’t hold thoughts together and I don’t know how I feel about that) My family wasn’t that understanding but I tiptoed around the matter and they thankfully let it go. Still it’s been nearly a month now and although I’m not getting worse, it isn’t getting better either. This is quite literally the first time I’ve experienced grief and it has changed me on some fundamental levels.

    The worst part is that whenever I would feel sad the first thing I did was to play either SHINee or She Is and let my negative emotions be washed away. Now, I don’t know what to do since the source of my relief is the very thing that’s making me hurt. If I tried talking about it I would probably get some nasty comments about how I should be over it already, a month is too much grieving for someone you never met etc. It’s as if I’m supposed to stop feeling all of a sudden and go back to “normal” because, sure, emotions totally work under my direct control. Odin if that makes me angry sometimes.

    So now I’m always a bit sad inside, I avoid anything that reminds me of SHINee and I cry until I can’t breathe while I listen to them perhaps once a week if I can manage that much. I know I’m feeling awful and that this isn’t going to disappear like magic, it will take time and effort and then next Samhain I will light a candle in his memory and hope that by then I can start smiling for the memories rather than being tormented by them. I wish all the best for everyone who’s going through the same emotions and I hope many others share their stories somewhere. Not only does it make grieving easier it also helps to see that no one’s alone in this, so many others were affected and maybe there’s even some support to be gained from reading others experiences. At least for me it helps.

    (Also 2016 was a year of many big celebrity deaths such as Alan Rickman, David Bowie and Prince and back then I used to look at the people my mother’s age who were deeply affected by this and I used to wonder whether that would be me in 40 years as slowly time would come to gather the people who managed to shape me, and I’m not kidding when I say I don’t love most of my relatives as much as I love SHINee and all the members, just remember that love exists in many forms and love towards one’s idol shouldn’t be compared to love towards their mother, they’re two different things, but before this I hadn’t had any visceral reactions to celebrity deaths so I kept wondering it would really affect me. The answer’s yes, I it wasn’t obvious, but basically 18th of December I just kept thinking “well now you got your answer” and that is quite literally one of the worst feelings I’ve ever had in my life because it made things so much worse than what they already were.)

  88. Emily  January 18, 2018 at 10:28 pm Reply

    It has been 19 months since Christina Grimmie’s death and I still cry everyday. It still hurts the same over a year later and I don’t know how to make it stop.

  89. mo  January 19, 2018 at 3:20 am Reply

    I’m here for Dolores! Luv You!!! You are great.

  90. Inc  January 22, 2018 at 3:17 am Reply

    OK so there are many people here.. So I am very new to this korean drama and kpop stuffs.. I have heard only 2-3 groups.. I have heard shinee songs in bof and I have even seem onew in dots.. And the strange thing is that I didn’t search much about him I don’t know why I always do search about every members in a drama so that’s one thing then I even downloaded minho’s drama but I didn’t watch it I don’t know why.. I even heard stand by me I didn’t search about the singers who sung the song.. I even seen someone reacting on shinee song still I didn’t follow them I don’t know why.. I am not like this I always do search about anythings person or groups whenever I see them for them for the first time it may be because it was written in my destiny that I would never get to know about shinee until jonghyun’s incident.. But when I heard about this news I don’t know what happened to me I searched everything related to shinee and jonghyun I watched many interviews and shows of them and got to know how cool and sweet that group and how nice that guy is.. Strange thing is that even if I never knew him it hurts like hell seriously I just can’t stop crying and I can’t even say this to others because they will be like don’t act you weren’t even his fan.. Yes that’s true I wasnt his fan that time but I am emotional and it hurts a lot and after watching everything about him I started to like him I just love him.. And it hurts even if I didn’t know about him it still hurts.. Its been one month already still that pain is there it feels like I have known him for many years or something like that which I can’t even express.. I just miss him and the worst part I became his fan when he is no more in this world not at least physically… But I know his soul is here and he loves us alot

  91. Bethany  January 23, 2018 at 4:49 am Reply

    Thank you for posting this. I know it is 18 years late but recently I have been grieving the loss of talented actor/comedian Jim Varney. His character Ernest was a huge positive influence on my life.

    I feel very sad but I’m glad I can see him and he can make me laugh any time.

    Jim we love you and we miss you every day!

  92. Maria Paz  January 23, 2018 at 11:00 am Reply

    I’ve been a shawol since 2010 and Jonghyun became my bias since that time, I spent all my middle and high school days being a fan of them and started to like other groups, when I entered to college I started to like Bigbang a little bit more (they were my second place until 2015 because SHINee was always my number 1) and they started to share the number 1 place in my heart alongside SHINee, but the thing that I regret the most is that I met new friends in 2017 but I didn’t talk about my love for Jonghyun and instead I just talked about Bigbang, so they didn’t know I was a huge blinger 😭 When he died I was suffering so much and tried to explain my situation to my friends and all I just want is them to believe me 😭 I wish to go back in time and try to change everything but it’s impossible 😭 I still cry when I think about him, when I listen to his music, thinking that we won’t see him never again is just so heartbreaking

    • jieun’s soft smile  February 10, 2018 at 7:37 am Reply

      Me too. I feel guilty for not talking about him more. And since I’ve only been a shawol for a year and a half, I feel like a bandwagon stan. I regret not talking about him to all my friends like I did other groups when I really took time to support and love him. I miss him too much

  93. jieun’s soft smile  February 10, 2018 at 7:25 am Reply

    I am here for Jonghyun. I’d been a shawol for a year and a half and Jonghyun had stood out to me from day one. I struggle with suicidal thoughts and he had been such an inspiration to keep going. I am also bisexual and his support for the LGBTQ+ community kept me going too. I listened to SHINee’s songs whenever my anxiety was present and they made me feel at peace for a while. He made me believe there are good people in this world after all. I remember when I found out he’d taken his own life, a thousand thoughts ran through my mind and I almost froze at the bus stop. I was in public and couldn’t cry and it was so hard to hide it all. I didn’t know if I was even allowed to be sad since I’ve never met him in the flesh before. Normally I go on social media to take my mind off something that’s bothering me a lot, but everywhere I went was pictures and long paragraphs about Jonghyun. I remember going to the bathroom to cry during a test and having to make almost all of it up the next day. My friends didn’t understand why I was so broken about the death of someone I’d never met, but it felt like some of my experiences, my memories, and a part of me were dying as well. They still said I was doing it for attention though. I couldn’t listen to his voice without crying, and I remember wanting to spend the whole day in my room under the covers. I cried myself to sleep that night, and the next few nights after that. I just wanted a sign he was okay. When Poet Artist came out I couldn’t listen to him without breaking down where I was. However, I cried at first listen to Before Our Spring, but now it feels like a warm hug from Jonghyun himself when he sings. It’s February now, but all the months after Jonghyun’s death still feel like December. I miss Jonghyun so much and I just want a sign that he’s okay, wherever he is.

  94. Evelyn Staren  February 22, 2018 at 12:16 am Reply

    I am a huge fan of David Cassidy.I was 14 when i saw on him on the partridge family and i fell in love with him.I had his pictures on the my wall.When he died it was like losing a first love.He made a huge impact on my life and if i would have gotten the chance i would have thanked him.I was picked on a lot in school by boys and girls.His music at that time in my life was comforting and inspirational.when he sang it was like he was singing the song just to me.he died in Nov.2018 but i miss him and will always love him through his music he spread so much love and joy.

  95. Ramya  February 27, 2018 at 1:41 pm Reply

    I am grieving the loss of actress Sridevi.her movie “mom” made my teenage daughter understand my feelings.it solved st least 50 percent of our problems.i am so depressed seeing articles on her.she solved my problem but left the world with 2 lovely daughters with no one to take care of.i feel so bad for their loss.i feel so sad to the daughters.it is do painful.i saw this site when I was seeking for solutions

    • MK  February 28, 2018 at 4:54 pm Reply

      I am grieving her loss too, I am devastated by her death. I was always familiar with her life and seeing her pass is absolutely heartbreaking.

  96. Jade  March 13, 2018 at 7:09 am Reply

    it’s been almost 10 years since Michael Jackson has passed, and I was five years old when he did, its only after when i was about 14 that i started listening to his music and i started obsessing over him and i wanted to know everything about his life and i wanted to understand exactly why he died and prove all the rumours about him to be wrong which i did! Michael could’ve made such a difference in this world if he was still here today i swear to god i am so devastated . Listening to his interviews, his house videos with his kids, and even the lyrics to his songs that he composed BY HIMSELF , i could just see what an amazing, honest and talented man he was. The music world will never be the same. Michael, i love you, rip.

  97. Brittany  March 31, 2018 at 6:00 am Reply

    I was just recently told that the death of one (out of two) of mu fave musicians isn’t the worst thing to have happen, and that there’s a lot worse that can happen in my life. Thing is this musician managed to break through my suicidal ways and make me learn how to accept myself as someone worth living through her goofy and bubbly personality. I also had a comfort song of hers that would lift any mood even if no one else could. Reading that from a friend (and someone who likes me I might add) made me question if my feelings aren’t valid… But I know they are because it wouldn’t have hurt to have it said to me if they weren’t.
    (rip Christina Grimmie)

  98. Anantha Krishnan  April 8, 2018 at 8:44 am Reply

    It’s been well over a month since the Indian actress Sridevi passed away, but my sadness has only increased. I’ve spent so many nights (and days) crying and I truly believe her death has made me a little depressed. I told some people about how much I miss her, but they kept shoving off my sadness for two reasons:
    1. The one you mentioned, about people finding it ridiculous that celebrities can be mourned over.
    2. I’m 19, and Sridevi was a celebrity of the yesteryears (most popular during the ’80s and ’90s) when I wasn’t even alive, making my mourning sound even more strange.

    I had seen a good couple of her films prior to her passing, and following it, I decided to watch most of her filmography. I have so far, seen 50 of the films she led, in the one month since she’s left us, and that hasn’t helped any better. I just find myself grieving so bad, playing the songs in the films she appeared in over and over again, and thinking of nothing but her.

    She was extremely beautiful, and was a celebrity crush of mine. Maybe the fact that someone of such “divine” beauty is no more might be something that I find myself unable to cope with. It’s been over a month, and people have slowly started to put their sadness aside relating to her passing, but I’m still just as sad as I was on the day of her death. I feel miserable. I don’t know what to do.

  99. Mereclina  April 18, 2018 at 3:31 pm Reply

    David Bowie still hurts me a lot, being in my 20’s I had found out that morning on Instagram as I noticed a lot of David Bowie pictures being posted. After quickly googling his name I had for sure found out he died. I broke down for a good 10mins, I had just been listening to some of his songs the other day. And now suddenly he was gone. I hadn’t even known he had cancer. Then a week later Alan Rickman died, and I had found out the EXACT same way. Instagram…suddenly a bunch of Alan Rickman photos were being posted, and my heart broke. 2 of my favourite people gone in one month, dying at the same age, both taken by cancer! Though Alan hurt a bit me more as I grew up watching him in all the Harry Potter movies, the prime villain in Die Hard…he was this person that you’d have never expected to leave so soon. But I guess the one that really hurt the most was Paul Walker, again I grew up watching all the Fast and The Furious films and even the 90’s film like ‘She’s All That’. I was pretty heartbroken about Paul, he was only like 40. Now it always kind of stings watching movies that had Alan or Paul in them, because they’re immortalized on screen and David Bowie is immortalized in his music…but there will never be anything new with them ever again.

  100. Andrej  April 23, 2018 at 8:58 am Reply

    So it is Avicii he was the first one that introduced me to world of EDM [Electronics Dance Music] I love his song so much i can listen to him all day and night long and when i heard that he passed away i was like are you making jokes out of me??? so i tuned to my favourite Dance Radio and there was breaking news that Avicii have died so i started to cry a little and when i was like okey i will have a little memorial of his songs and i was crying a lot when i was listening to his tracks i was why it must be him??? It is a huge loss for world of Music. I still feel sad for what happened and i know it is just an artist but he was talented at what he was doing. He died with things he loved to do so making music…Rest in peace Avicii

  101. Ruby  April 24, 2018 at 3:29 pm Reply

    Avicii’s death hit me hard, I’ve loved his music since I was about 8 or 9 and I’m now 13. When my Mum got the BBC breaking news about his death; I was sad and confused, I wanted to cry. I can listen to his music anytime, his music is truly amazing, he is a truly amazing person. He’s inspired me since I can remember, I’ll never forgot him and I’ll always love him. My best friend is also a fan of Avicii, I only met him about 2 years ago but we’ve listened to his music together so many times, we’ve danced to his music and sung the lyrics together. So when he saw Avicii had died, he was sad too. The thought that Avicii won’t make any more music makes me sad but we do have his wonderful, wonderful music that was released before to listen to. Avicii will never be forgotten, his music will always be listened to and enjoyed. RIP Avicii ❤️🙏🏻

  102. Dustin  April 26, 2018 at 8:55 pm Reply

    I found this article as I was searching for why I could be sad about the death of Avicii and didn’t realize other people have read this article recently and are commenting about Avicii.

    I am 31 and this is the very first time the death of an artist has truly hit me. I began listening to Avicii several years ago and he was a fantastic artist. Since finding out about his death I have been finding myself upset, sad, and confused why. He was only a couple years younger than me and it’s sad to think that he was pushed to his limits when he didn’t want to be.

    I myself find drinking as a coping mechanism in this world when I do not feel like being myself around many people. My biggest fear(im an only child in a small family) is who do I have when everyone passes away… just me? That’s something that I know I will have a hard time dealing with and unsure of how that will play out. I tend to wonder if Avicii felt the same before he died/suicide? Shitty feeling I know.

    Either way, great article and thanks for reading my scattered thoughts.


    • Marcela Oyarce  December 9, 2018 at 6:54 am Reply

      Dustin, I’m very much like you, when my parents die i will be alone in this world and They are very old. Some times i wish i die first. Also i find myself drinking to feel better about my life, i dont seem to fut any place and things i do dont END Well. I am crazy in Love with Rory Gallagher and i know that i chose him because he Is a good person to Love. I Just read about depression when you dont get Love and care from anybody and this Is my problem. So i fell in Love with Rory to have Love in my life and to relate to someone who had similar problems to mine and Rory did. Also he was a good person and a great Musician so I’m happy i found a feeling so beautiful to feel. But it hurts too much also. I cry when i read about his sad end and poor Health and i am thinking that by Loving or feeling deep connection with a dead person We “chose” Is as a matter of fact what We need and that Is the feeling for them. It’s a scape from reality or a way to cope with it. But this doesnt mean i will quit on him by being reasonabke. It’s imposible. I need the feeling i have for him to feel happy es dadness and all the emociona i get from this “game”. But It’s not a gane. It’s survival
      I totally get you, a Hug.

  103. Vanessa  April 28, 2018 at 6:31 pm Reply

    The death of Avicii has disturbed and upset me in a way I have never experienced with someone I don’t know hence trawling the internet looking for reasons . RIP xx

  104. Lynn Oldfield  April 30, 2018 at 4:09 pm Reply

    Two famous people ‘got to me’ soul deep over any of the othere though I respect them all and what they achieved & mean to people. Firstly the brilliant guitarist and fellow Yorkshireman Steve Clark ( Def Leppard ) who died over 27 years ago. .Always my favourite member of this awesome rock band, was absolutely shellshocked and devastated when he suddenly passed away. .at the young age of 30. . Still miss n grieve for him to this day….Fast forward to October last year and the world is forced to say goodbye to the late great Tom Petty…..His loss hit me so very hard..Loved his music for years, he helped n inspired so many of us…And like Steve, he came from a tough working class background, had a hard childhood and very difficult relationship with his father ( as I have too myself ).. ….So yes, we all have those great, well known and maybe not so well known people who have helped us along to heal ourselves in life and when they leave us, it’s like loosing best friend or close family member. .

  105. Irina Forwzy  May 12, 2018 at 4:03 am Reply

    For some reason or other the two Celebrity crushes that have impacted me the most are Heath Ledger, whom died in his sleep at such a young age and Scott Hutchinson from one of my favorite groups. In the case of Ledger, there was an added layer, I had a crush on him when he passed on. I think the article is seeing celebrity deaths from the point of view of someone older, and that’s a valid point. There’s also the point of someone younger though. The normal cycle of life is that someone dies around their 80s, you are used to them dying of old age, heart attacks, cancer, of course we’ve slowly been numbed by individuals dying earlier from cancer. However, dying in your sleep, a car crash, suicide, these are things that break from the normal course of nature, and make is ever more aware of our own vulnerability. In the case of Ledger, I had a crush on him, I grown with him, seen such amazing potential in him and had wanted to see him flourish in life, win is Oscars, continue to work on other projects as I aged. Then his life was cut short when he never woke up from sleep And thus though we are aware that death can happen at every corner, we normally do not believe it is and this death made us see that it truly can be the case. Then, Hutchison’s death. Many of Frightened Rabbit’s fans knew that he was suffering from Depression, but one expects that with the level of funding and care he would have, that maybe he would have lived a normal life like the majority of individuals with depression, a man only six years older than myself. And while I personally do not have depression, I know friends that do. And seeing just how fragile they can be, and how within a matter of hours they can just switch from wanting life to completely disassociating themselves with life, and breaking the overall psyche to always try to save your own life and fear death; it breaks your heart. Because you realize that you are fallible and can develop depression from several situations occurring and impacting you, as well. And that you are not permanent. Nothing is. The loss of that talent as well, and potential for it to grow.
    With Bowie, I did feel but it was a different sort of feeling. The reason why I felt was because I was listening to his album with a group of friends when fifteen minutes later, we found out he had passed away. The sheer coincidence is what got us all there.

  106. Kourtnee  May 16, 2018 at 1:00 pm Reply

    For me I have two deaths that have hit me so hard. The first one is Robin Williams and his suicide. Just reminds you that even the happiest seemig people can hide their true feelings. The second is Paul Walker, just such a beautiful person, did tons of charity and had just been starting to reconnect with his daughter. Paul’s outlook on life too and his happiness was contagious.

    I feel silly for feeling emotional sometimes about these two men but I feel validation now.

    Rest on angels.

  107. Brittney  June 10, 2018 at 5:49 pm Reply

    Jonghyun ,Freddie Mercury, Michael Jackson are the ones that hit me most and Anthony and Kate spade but Freddie and jonghyun hit me the most. So painful.

  108. Erkhem  June 11, 2018 at 5:55 am Reply

    It’s been exactly two year since her death, but Christina Grimmie’s death still haunts me to this day. It all feels so unreal. For most celebrities, I am not moved to that degree because I never knew them personally. However, I grew up with Christina Grimmie and she never felt like a celebrity to me, but a close friend that I related to a personal level. What pains me the most is that she never had the chance to live life fully the way she deserved.

  109. Kelly  June 12, 2018 at 9:54 pm Reply

    I have been saddened by untimely deaths, both in my personal life and in the celebrity world. I was deeply saddened by the loss of Michael Jackson and George Michael, whose music I grew up listening to. These are people whose lives I followed in the media as I also lived my own. Yes, I know them very well. Each and every loss saddens me. I recognize that death is a part of life and that the older we become, the more losses we will witness. I have recently lost my own brother to suicide, so this cause of (unnecessary) death causes me great sorrow and despair. So many losses of talented people who had so much to offer the world—
    from Robbin Williams, Aaron Hernandez, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington, Avicii, Kate Spade, to one of my favorite television personalities, Anthony Bourdain….when does it end? Talented people who could have offered the word even more, if they had lived. It goes to show you that you never really know what one is going through on the inside. Please come back, is what I want to say to all of those beautiful souls. I hope that at least they are at peace now. We are none the better for it though. I am deeply wounded by the loss of such wonderful people, both common and celebrity. Please check on those you love, who are also affected by the loss of sensationalized/celebrity deaths or suicides and who may be suffering their own internal battles. Although sometimes the pain of my own loss seems hard to bear, I know I can make it through. Life is precious, and I want to live.
    Those I love or admire will always be a part of me, celebrity or no celebrity.

  110. Mary Langenback  June 19, 2018 at 8:28 pm Reply

    I was 7 years old when I first heard of Kieth Partridge, later known as David Cassidy. He was 12 years older than I and about 3 or 4 income tax brackets higher than mine! I lived in Oklahoma while he traveled the world. I had virtually no friends while he was more popular than Elvis or the Beatles! In my loneliness he became a brother to replace one who was nothing more than a monster to me. Yea he was something like an imaginary friend, but I really needed it. I was 55 when he died and you can’t tell me that his death shouldn’t have had an effect upon on me! He was one man I thought was the most gentle , safe and real on this whole planet!

    Goodbye my friend, it’s hard to live and hard to die, I will join you one day and if our Lord permits we’ll talk like we always needed to. I loved you in my heart. God bless you and keep you safe.

  111. Louise  July 6, 2018 at 6:18 pm Reply

    This is a really interesting article that explains a lot. My father died aged 36 in 1971. I was 13. At or around the same time, I’d started listening to Bowie’s albums. His music was pivotal in helping me through the grieving process. When he died (Bowie) I felt my whole world had collapsed. I could understand why but it makes perfect sense, it still pains me even now, some days harder than others. Still a feeling of disbelief. I’ve tried to explain this to others but not quite sure people understand the depth of pain I was and still sometimes feel. It hits like a bolt out of the blue, a sinking feeling that I hope he’s better with time.

  112. Marcela Oyarce  July 19, 2018 at 10:47 pm Reply

    Just the article I needed. I’m going crazy finding out what Is there to find about Rory Gallagher. His life was full of bad luck and tragic destiny. I’m 60 years old and knew him 8 months ago. Everything about me and him Is unbelievable strange. Although I’m a woman, we look alike in our youth and all along till he passed. I struggle with depresion since I have been alone all my life as he felt he was. Also I have terrible fears and doctors made me an adict of tranquilizers and antidepresants, just like him. I can’t relax enough and can’t sleep and pills don’t work anymore. I am alone sorounded by cold people who I have to be cautious all the time and I really think that Rory never had a real friend except Mark Feltham and others just used him and abandoned when he needed them most. I was very beautiful and not at all fat till I started with medicines, and just like Rory I gained lot of weight with pills. Rory was an an angel but I am not but I kind of good person who helps in whatever I can. I could continue but just the mentioned is hard to believe But I have to mention that very unnatural things have happened to me related to Rory which are totally strange not to say frightening. But I have no fear. I know he had a powerful presence and that still exists in my life. Donal, his brother, tells he recieves vibes from Rory in dreams and that doesn’t happen to me except once he asked me in a dream “do you want to see me” and I answered “yes I want to”. Then an ugly demond in the shape of black flames on the other side asked me “aren’t you scared”. Which I put my hand in my heart and pulled out a bright force that was Love and showed it to the demond, who was sucked strongly out from there. Only that dream. Others I see a besutiful young man from the distancy whom I feel is Rory.
    I try not to cry over Rory’s last months and the way he left, it’s impossible. I cry a lot. But I can’t help reading about him or listen to his Music or look at him in photos.
    Rory’s albums being in the 14 first spots of the charts made me happy and terribly sad since he doesn’t know. There is a YouTube vídeo, his last TV session, where he says he would want “two great Albums in the charts”..,. Oh how I cry… He can’t enjoy.,. Terrible… One day .,, one day…
    Sorry. English Is not my language

  113. Anonymous  July 20, 2018 at 11:10 pm Reply

    Same, Jerry Lewis the comedy legend… that hit me hard. You feel grateful and tremendously sad to have experienced their entertainment at the same time…

  114. Freya Perdomo  July 24, 2018 at 9:49 am Reply

    For me it was Andy Whitfield… wow, so young, gone so fast and right after becoming a huge star with his role as Spartacus. I was deeply hurt and I could not understand why, I obviously never met him, after reading the article I realized I identified so much because he looks very much like my x-boyfriend, Andy being so much more handsome, but he reminded me of him. I started watching the first season and when I learned Andy was gone I broke into tears. I was shocked at my reaction, but I understand a little better now. I felt so connected I even watched “Be Here Now” his documentary film with his wife and kids filmed before, during his treatments…I had to for closure. I still feel so much empathy for this family, he was so young, strong, looked healthy and poof, gone at 39. Reminder to seize the day, live life to the fullest everyday. By the looks of Andy’s life, it was a good one, with a lovely, caring, wife and two adorable kids that look so much like him. I hope they are well and I hope they know they will be with him again one day. Gone but never forgotten.

  115. Jenny  August 3, 2018 at 2:52 pm Reply

    What’s so painful to me about Anthony Bourdain’s death is that he referred frequently to suicide, depression, and hanging himself in his shows and interviews over the years. That’s 20+ cries for help! I would feel so much better knowing that someone at least tried to help him. I hope someone writes his biography, so I can know that his cries for help didn’t go unheard.

  116. chris  August 3, 2018 at 10:56 pm Reply

    There is only one celebrity passing that had a profound impact on me. It was Don Grady. As a child I emulated him. Not only did I want to be him, I wanted him as my brother and friend. You may remember Don as Robbie from “My Three Sons.” But he was also a gifted musician. As a child, he was on the Mouseketeers. It was because of Don I went into performing, working in theme parks, national tours, regionals, off-Broadway etc… But Don considered himself a musician, which is why I studied piano and am now a professional. I also began writing and because of Don I have composed seven musicals, writing music, lyrics and libretto. One even launchd the career of a major household name. Regardless, Don meant everything to me. Partly because I was disowned at a young age and crazed the stable family portrayed on My Three Sons. But also because of his achievements, which I also wanted to achieve. I use to fantasize about being a fine musician and working with Don in the studio or on stage. None of this came to fruition and I therefore never met him or his lovely wife Tin Cole, who is also a gifted performer. But I felt deep connection to him ever since I first saw him on television. It’s amazing how such an asymmetrical connection can inspire and transform someone. I never talk about my “friend” Don to anyone, but this article makes me understand why I perceive such a strong connection to a beautiful human being who happened to be a celebrity that passed. Thank you Don Grady. You will always be deeply admired and missed.

  117. Magg  August 14, 2018 at 12:15 am Reply

    Robin Williams. Joan Rivers. Carrie Fisher. Those all hit me extremely hard. Many, many other celebrity deaths have greatly bothered me. I always get very serious about watching the “In Memoriam” segment of award shows. Anytime an actress I have looked up to dies it affects me. The most recent was Mary Tyler Moore. There are some stars still living who are getting up there and I dread their deaths.

  118. Nurul Bintoro  August 14, 2018 at 3:25 am Reply

    I’m here because of Chester. I’ve just been a fan of Linkin Park for 4 years at the time of Chester’s death. A celebrity’s death never hits me this hard. When I heard about celebrity’s death usually I’m just like “Oh no he’s gone! R.I.P” But when I heard the news about his death I really can’t stop crying. I feel part of me died with him. And that was the first time I really understand what grieve is and how it feels to lose someone you love. I’ve gone through several family member’s death before him but none of them makes me sad or grieve. Maybe because none of them were close with me but with Chester I feel I’m really close with him even if I don’t know him personally. R.I.P Chester Charles Bennington 1976 — 2017

    • Kaat  November 29, 2018 at 4:48 pm Reply

      Finally I have someone who feels the same as me. I still miss him. I really became obsessed with Linkin Park. No one understands this. Well thank you for making me feel that I’m not the only one.
      May your love never end, and if you need a friend, there’s a seat here alongside me ❤❤❤❤❤

    • Laura Townsley  March 8, 2019 at 5:50 pm Reply

      I am the exact same way. I don’t know why. I can’t wrap my head around it. I’m a complete mess some days like today. A man who could sing like and angel and scream like a devil is what they say and its so true. I mean is it because commited suicide? It was something that was preventable maybe? I don’t know. I’ve listened to linkin park since the beginning. There music has always inspired me and hit home for me. He’s such an amazing talent that is lost to us all. I couldn’t imagine what his close friends and family are going through. I honestly don’t know why his death has rocked me to hard. I honestly didn’t expect it. My father passed away at the end of May 2017 due to a boating accident and then Chester. I haven’t been the same since and i find myself on days like today just completely morning them both. Chester was always the voice inside my head and the music inside my heart. I find it so damn odd that his death has his me so damn hard.

  119. Daphne  August 17, 2018 at 8:04 am Reply

    Im here for Jahseh Onfroy or as many of you may know him as XXXTentacion he was killed it’s been two months since his horrible death and it stills feels like it was just today. every single day I wake up to a nightmare that he’s actually gone it’s hurts SO MUCH I have cried every single day ever since it happened I’m in so much pain my heart is completely crushed. i was in school taking a quiz when I found out, one of my friends said “oh my god X just died” when that last word came out his mouth it sent shivers down my spine and I felt sick I didn’t want to believe it, it had to be false but then i went online and it was confirmed. i can’t even explain how I felt I NEVER had felt that much pain in my life and now I feel that same pain every single day, no words came out my mouth i just immediately started crying my eyes out in front of every one I didn’t care. i called my brother right after, I was sobbing my brother told me that it was probably fake. he was in denial, I also didn’t want to believe it was true. it just couldn’t be true but I knew he was gone because I had a sick feeling in my stomach and my head hurt. when I go to his page I see so many hate comments saying that he deserved it and it’s just sickening NOBODY deserves to be robbed of their life. i really wanted to meet him and now I never will he was the only person that could change my mood in an instant he was everything to me. my happiness, he kept me sane. i miss him so fucking much it hurts like hell the love I have for him is inexplicable. i had seen that boy grow up to the man he was he was turning his life around I was so proud of him I was watching him flourish into an amazing human being and in an instant he was taken away from us. i am completely broken the moments when I’m not crying or sad I just feel.. numb it doesn’t feel real. when I explain this to some people they take it as an “obsession” but it’s not like that he was there for me when no one else was I saw myself in him we were so alike, I found some type of comfort in him. i knew who to turn to when the world turned their backs on me and now all of that is gone he got my mind out depression and anxiety and when he died I just felt a rush like it was all coming back. it feels like my insides are burning it sometimes feel like I’m dead already. LONG LIVE JAHSEH🖤

    • Mirek  January 21, 2019 at 2:15 pm Reply

      You just said everything that i went thru i keep going back to his old songs to feel better but i cant i could but not anymore

    • Joshua  August 30, 2019 at 10:34 pm Reply

      It hurts so much that he’s gone, even to to this day I cry about and I somewhat refuse to believe his actually gone, a precious soul that just wanted to change the world for the best, the protector of the youth, the guardian angel we all had, I’m crying rn typing this while listening to his music, people will never understand the void he filled in my life when I needed somebody there for me, he was always trying to motivate us, he tried making us all happy, I’ve never seen someone who has been through so much pain in their life and still try to make others positive , I will always remember Jahseh #LLJ

  120. Ocean Summers  August 22, 2018 at 9:47 am Reply

    I’m so upset over River Phoenix’s death. It’s been nearly 26 years since he passed away of a drug overdose and I have been feeling so sad about it lately after doing research on him and how he died and watching all of his movies. Wow. What a talent. Truly one of the best and most gifted and talented actors to ever walk the planet I believe. They say that if he were to still be alive today, he would be as big as Leo DiCaprio and Johnny Depp. What a tragedy that he had to go at such a young age, only 23. I am an aspiring actress myself and it just truly saddens me and brings me to tears that i will never get the chance to meet him, give him a hug or shake his hand and tell him how much of an impact he has had on me and how much he inspires me to persevere with my career. River was an activist, and a vegan. He publicly promoted his strong beliefs of animal rights, being vegan since he was 8. Watching many of his interviews of him talking about veganism has now inspired me to go vegan as well. I just am in love with the way he just is who he is and does not apologise for it. He couldn’t have been less phased by being a movie star and purely did it for the love of acting and that truly shows in his work. Many of his directors from previous films said there was no one who didn’t love River and that he never did a bad take and was always so great to have on set, such a hard, hard worker. I truly believe that he was an angel sent to this earth to inspire other people, bless us with his talents, and enlighten many on veganism and so many other topics. Such a tragic loss. He would be turning 48 tomorrow. I really hope his memory lives on and that he and his talents are never forgotten. ❤️

    River Jude Phoenix
    August 23rd, 1970 – October 31st, 1993.

  121. Alice  September 4, 2018 at 12:15 am Reply

    I don’t know if I am crazy. I’ve only known about this guy for a week! I didn’t know he even existed before then! And now all of a sudden just knowing about his tragic life story and death has really saddened me for the past week.

    But here goes. I was introduced to the 70’s hit TV show ‘Mind your Language’ starring Barry Evans. This guy was abandoned as a baby and left at an orphanage. But eventually he went onto become a really successful actor in the 60’s and early 70’s . However, after turning down the opportunity to continue starring in the hit Tv series ‘Dr in the house’ he mentioned he found it very difficult to book any acting jobs, and eventually descended into obscurity and became a taxi driver. He never married, nor had any children, and I think he lived alone. He died in 1997, and his cause of death was never identified. They say he might have been murdered or it could have been suicide by alcohol poisoning or something. But when he died, they said there had been a blow to his head. I strongly think he was murdered, because his car had been stolen the day before and lots of valuables were stolen from his home. What’s really sad is they said he wanted to come back to acting, and just knowing that he will never produce any more work is truly sad.

    I also wonder what could have been if he hadn’t turned down his role in ‘Dr in the house’.

    This guys story is just really sad 🙁 What’s also really sad is he died before I was even born. So I will never get the opportunity to meet him 🙁

    Anyway there’s that 🙁

  122. Carmen Schwisow  September 18, 2018 at 9:26 pm Reply

    Thank you for writing and publishing this article. And thank you to those who’ve written about George Michael. I was was introduced to him in 1987 when Faith was released. I still remember listening to the opening bars of Faith, thinking it might be a gospel album. Boy was I in for a surprise! 🙂 Needless to say, I fell in love right then. Ever since GM has been my absolute favorite. In junior high while most of my girlfriends were listening to New Kids (nothing bad to say about them, BTW), I stayed devoted to GM. In 1991,my step mom took me and my girlfriend to see him in concert at the Tacoma Dome. I almost died from happiness. I also saw him perform live at the Equality Rocks concert in DC in 2000. When he passed away I was really sad. But lately, I’ve had a deeper sadness, true grief. It’s hitting me hard now and I’ve felt strange for feeling this deeply. But at the same time, I felt I knew him. His music always spoke to me. And his voice. Like butter and sunshine mixed together. And his sweet nature combined with his own grief. I’ve also battled addiction in my life, and can’t help but believe that something more could have been done. But I am so grateful for the gifts he gave us, his courage to run his career how he saw fit, and that when everything seemed so wrong in my own melancholy, his beautiful voice made life sweeter every time. I love you GM. Rest in peace.

  123. Ayala Outro  September 27, 2018 at 1:43 am Reply

    I came on here to validate my genuine feelings on losing great people (aka celebs). People seem to forget that celebs are people too and that they are not some symbol or not important because we never met them personally. When Jahseh Onfroy passed away this year, I didn’t really react too strongly. It took me 3 days to fully understand that he is *really* gone. Usually news of a celeb death is usually a hoax made my internet trolls but when I realized he didn’t make it and my mind fully processed it, I couldn’t shake the feeling of deep sorrow and pain in my chest. I hate lost potential, and X was bound to do great things.
    One thing that circulated online was:
    “It was that he spent the majority of his life depressed and wanting to kill himself and someone else ended it while he was on the road to recovery.” It stuck with me, he was only 20, and we will never hear how his story ends, or any new projects or see growth, and a child will grow up without a father. I am even more depressed he died due to his surroundings/environment, if he grew up in the suburbs maybe it wouldn’t have played out this way.

    I think his death affected me so badly because his most popular song connected with me due to a girl back in middle school died by suicide. I always felt some blame like I could have done something to help her and how I felt useless. I connected with him over that song and his other songs. He knew how to turn emotions into songs…and I will miss that forever. Rest easy X. you were taken away way too soon.

    • Mirek  January 21, 2019 at 2:12 pm Reply

      You’re not alone i get sad every single fucking month about x and i just cant do anything about it i get mad and sad then i start listening to his old songs to not make me feel so sad watch all of his interviews over again . It doesnt work Rest In Power Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy BACK TO HELL!!!

  124. Graciela  October 6, 2018 at 11:11 pm Reply

    I have a crush on Alan Rickman and so sad he died. To me he was such a talented actor, handsome and had a very sexy personality with a manly voice . He was also generous in real life, good friend and never arrogant. And even all that said he was a “one-woman” man. His wife was really lucky.Unfortunatelly he didn’t have children to grow similar to him

  125. Jeannie  October 7, 2018 at 3:01 pm Reply

    I have been grieving over Stevie Ray Vaughan for about 1 month. I didn’t notice his music adequately when he was alive, but it has fascinated me recently. I have watched every interview, read every article, admired his relationship with his instrument and truly appreciated his genius. It was like I have gotten to know him over the last month, but not enough. Then add his tragic death to the mix, and I am wallowing in this sad state of never ever being able to appreciate his life. So I am stunned and my heart aches for this person that I never knew nor would it ever be likely that I could have met him. It is simultaneously real and stupid. I hope this, too, shall pass.

    • Laura Myers  June 26, 2019 at 8:42 pm Reply

      I am grieving for Stevie in a big way right now. I was 5 years out of college and was really getting into Crossfire. My dad had bought the “In Step” album and we were gaining an appreciation for Stevie, and then he’s gone. Life and the advancement of time eventually push that all back into a “storage” area in the brain. Recently I found two compilation albums of Stevie’s best known songs in the $5 CD bin at Wal-Mart and have found myself back in 1990 with an even greater love for his work and music as well as a profound grief for his loss. It hurts in many ways.

  126. Cheryl  November 4, 2018 at 1:21 pm Reply

    Freddie Mercury!!! I’ve always loved Queen & was 12 when he died.
    The movie Bohemian Rhapsody has brought it all back & I’m mourning him again.
    Love ya Freddie xx

    • Ryan Hannigan  April 14, 2019 at 2:58 pm Reply

      I miss Freddie so much too! I’m only 17 but when I think about him my heart aches like I love him so much and it hurts me so much that he had to die so young

  127. ClaireP  November 17, 2018 at 12:25 pm Reply

    I’m here for Carl Wilson of The Beach Boys. Even though he left us 20 years ago, the grief I’m feeling right now is tremendous, & to each & everyone of you here, I feel you❤! ❤Carl Dean Wilson, you were a man amongst men, the kindest most precious soul❤

  128. Claire Ursine  November 20, 2018 at 12:26 pm Reply

    Avicii died in April but I only knew about him in August. I had been hearing about it a lot on YouTube, google, Instagram. I then researched on him and knew he sang songs that I’ve been humming for the past few years; Wake me up, Hey brother, The nights, Waiting for love and many more. It was later revealed that the cause of his death was suicide from self inflicted cuts from glasses of a broken wine bottle. So, he struggled with poor mental health and lately I’ve been battling with that. Lately I cry when I think of him, I obsesss over things he said and did before he died, I watch interviews of him, I basically stalk him and I feel bad that I didn’t know who he was before he died, I feel like I can feel the pain he felt before he died. I feel like (GOD forbid) I might go down the same path as he did. I feel like he was a brother. I start to think I’m crazy but I just miss him so much and to think that I’ll never hear any new music from him is worsening the grief. My favourite genres of music are edm, house music, big room house, future bass and rock. And my grieving intensify as days pass, I feel like I will never stop grieving but I hope he finds peace #ripavicii #TimBergling

    • Jaylise  February 20, 2020 at 5:52 pm Reply

      I feel you💔 I grew up knowing his songs(but was too young to take in who he was) and in late 2017 I fell in love with him, I learned about his story and felt like I could relate( obviously not the whole fame and stress) but I felt I had a similar personality to Tim. I was almost looking forward to follow his story hopping he would release new music and just find a better life. His passing came as a massive shock and even now 22 months on I still cry, it just never sank in. He was way to good to die. Heaven gained an amazing angel 👼 ❤️

  129. Sapphy  November 22, 2018 at 8:12 am Reply

    I am here for r and b singer aaliyah. She wasnt like other singers at that time. She was different ,layed back ,poised, and very well spoken. Though, I recently became a fan of her, because at the time, when she was alive, I was a child. So i didnt really know her. But I remember somewhat, of watching her music videos on tv ,before you could watch videos on your ipad or phone. I also remember, sitting on the couch with my mom, watching her, on this popular show ,on tv at the time. Diary was a reality series, about a peek into the lives of being a celebrity. I also kind of sadly remember, watching, the breaking mtv news, with my family about her death, from a plane crash. I didnt know how i felt, but i think at the time, i felt some kind of sadness. When your a child, and you hear news, about a persons death, you dont know what to call, what you felt at the moment, but you know ,something really bad had happened to that person, and they are not coming back, then you forget,go on and play with toys. I guess I kind of feel somewhat guilty, because ,I wish I was old enough at the time, to really know who she was ,to watch her videos, buy buy cds ,hold up a poster of with her name on it when she appeared on shows like Trl, rossie o donell, and such. I love her style,the way she carried herself. On the other side looking in, she seemed nice , and people liked working with her, and being around her, She always dressed classey,but at the same time with alittle sex appeal. She remind me of myself, alot of ways, because like her, I am well spoken ,and i like to dress sexy , & classy. We’re both skinny, the same color and almost have a similar chin and a tinch of the same face shape. Eventhough shes been gone for almost 17 years now, sometimes her death makes me sad. And i follow her fan page ,someone created for her, on my Instagram. When looking at her pictures, now i feel between happy, alittle sad and with peace. Its almost bittersweet. I can look at some of her 🎶 videos, but not her final music video, because she died after making the video. After she finshed the video,7 people, her hairstylist, bodygaurd ,and others boarded a small plane, on the way back tp florida, when it suddenly crashed. She was killed instantly, along with 7 others. The plane was heavily loaded and a failed engine. Although I’ve been a fan of her for 2 years now, from all of the interviews she did, and the 2 movies she got to star lead in, and stuff. She had accomplished so much in her 22 years, that many people are still, or havent accomplished in their lifetime. Many singers today, dont have that modestness or classness or realness like aaliyah had. At some point, i have to get over how she died, what she didnt get to do, and the what ifs. I have to put her death, in the right perspective, and move on. I will always admire who she was and her talents .She is still alive in her music ,photos her trends and fashion being worn by celebrities and people today. In my opinion she will always be One in a Million

  130. Candace MacL  November 25, 2018 at 12:02 am Reply

    I am grieving the death of Freddie Mercury. I have been a fan of Queen’s music and most recently have taken a closer look at the life of Freddie. Such an amazing human being… I wish I knew him. He reminds me of the spirit my mother had. I’m saddened by the death of the both of them. RIP Freddie Mercury <3

  131. Cristina  November 26, 2018 at 2:38 pm Reply

    This is what’s happening to me with Freddie Mercury. I’m 21 years old and I have always loved Queen, it’s my favorite band. Freddie caught my heart since the first time, his attitude, his charisma, his voice, his kindness… No one like him. I have already gone through this pain several times. It comes back every time I listen to Queen, so that’s why I try not to listen to them (ironic right?). But the last week I went to see the new movie Bohemian Rhapsody, that is specially about Freddie’s life. It’s an amazing film and I don’t regret watching it, but the pain for his loss has returned. These days I have been watching all his interviews, documentaries, performances, songs…. and not accepting his loss. I cried again because he was just out of this world, he didn’t deserve to die that young. No matter time, no matter that I didn’t even met you Freddie, you will always be in my heart. You are my idol, and I hope I can be as magic as you one day.
    RIP Freddie Mercury, legends never die, the show must go on.
    Miss you forever <3

    • Lorice  May 11, 2019 at 4:11 pm Reply

      I know exactly how you feel… And I’m older 43. The movie Bohemian Rhapsody sparked me. The movie changed my life in ways I’ll never understand. Just like you with the endless you tube videos, concert videos documentaries endless.. I’m grieving this man like I’ve known him all of my life… Practically obsessed… Freddie Mercury.. his death hurts really bad.. I can only imagine how the people who known him must have felt.. Glad to have found this article.. at least I’m not alone in my feelings about the best frontman of all times… R.I.P. Freddie 😓😢😢😢

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  133. Alexandra Reign, rip freddie mercury  December 3, 2018 at 10:02 am Reply

    I miss Freddie Mercury so much, even though he died before I was even born. I’ve been a fan for a couple of years now, and I’m so happy that Queen is finally getting the attention from the younger generation that they deserve. Now there are many teenagers out there who are grieving the loss of Freddie Mercury. The world truly lost a lot when he passed away.
    Every single time I listen to the song “Mother Love” by Queen I break down crying. I feel so empty knowing that Freddie isn’t here anymore.

    • Ryan Hannigan  April 15, 2019 at 11:37 pm Reply

      I feel the same way! My heart aches and I feel sad every time I think about him. It makes me cry a lot

      • Dee  May 21, 2019 at 10:15 pm

        Hi Ryan, I am a very much older than you lady (just a little older than Freddy) and I to miss him but just remember he lived life the way he wanted, he was so talented and audacious and loved to be on the stage commanding a large crowd of people; he truly had charisma!I bet he would be extremely happy that today’s younger people are missing him and he is probably watching from above (not sure you believe in life after death) but it does help to deal with loss. Some people think that this is a crazy way to think; call me crazy,I like to keep believing that I’ ll see all my loved ones again someday! BTW my most missed person in David Bowie😢

  134. Poor thing  December 5, 2018 at 9:30 am Reply

    Passing of Jonghyun 18.12.2017. For two months i cried everyday, for a month i cried every other day, i still cry when i think of him. I sometimes light up candles and pray for him even if i don’t personally believe in god but who knows if heaven exists, if it does, i’d like to believe that that’s where he went . I couldn’t listen to Shinee’s music for 6 months and i still can’t listen to his music.

    • Katherine  December 11, 2018 at 10:57 pm Reply

      My daughter’s and I share in your grief. We will honour him on Tuesday by watching some videos, listening to some music, and talking about the legacy he left behind. I know it will be hard and sad, but it’s important for us to do. I’ll be thinking about you on that day.

    • Bella  February 3, 2019 at 9:12 am Reply

      When Kim Jonghyun died I was a mess, although I was never a hardcore fan of SHINee. I listened to some of their songs and liked the way they all expressed themselves.
      So when I read the news online I couldn’t move for a couple minutes and after seeing pictures of the funeral and Jonghyun’s grave picture I couldn’t help but cry.
      I always felt like I had a connection to him I don’t even know why and finding out about the reason of his passing didn’t change much.
      I also have depression and thought about ending everything once.
      So I guess that’s why I’m grieving so much. Even now. More than a year after the passing of this great man.
      Because I kinda can relate how he felt but also because his eyes always stirred something inside me.

  135. Jennifer Lynch  December 10, 2018 at 1:08 am Reply

    Anissa “buffy”and Davy Jones monkees and Richard Hatch apollo In Battlestar Galactica were and will always be the hardest celeb deaths for me because as a child they were always there and just this year 2018 I lost my grandmother on my sister’s 24th birthday September 1 which is also remaining Gibb brother Barry’s birthday aswell so it’s been painful having to deal with all that

  136. Samridhi  December 12, 2018 at 9:13 am Reply

    I may be late, but I’ll still tell. I’ve recently got into music and the two celebrities whose deaths triggered me are Michael Jackson and Kurt Cobain. I’m 18 year old girl, and I did heard about Michael Jackson for the first time he died in 2009. But I wasn’t interested in listening music until I was 15. And two years later I somehow began to love MJ’s music. The way he died makes me feel sad. Earth Song is one of my favourite songs which makes me cry. MJ inspired me to be humble, kind and to dare to hope and dream like a child does.
    I also like Rock music. In fact I usually listen to Rock music and bands like Green Day, Hole, Guns N’ Roses and Evanescence. And then I discovered Nirvana. I love their music, and when I found out that Kurt Cobain is dead since 1994, I was shocked. Kurt had inspired me to stand up for what I feel right and not to be afraid to stand against anything that is wrong.
    Michael Jackson and Kurt Cobain not only inspired me, but their music also comforts me. In fact I feel some sort of connection with both of them. I’m an introvert, and so were Michael Jackson and Kurt Cobain. This made me realize that even introverts can be amazing. And that’s why I cry sometimes when I think of them. I always think that, maybe, things would’ve been so well for their families if they were still alive. Then maybe someday I would’ve met them and thank them for inspiring me.
    RIP🌷Michael Jackson and Kurt Cobain😔

    • Amanda Johnson  November 20, 2019 at 12:26 am Reply

      Michael Jackson still hurts me to the core to this day. He was being the musical genius he was a good 12 yrs before I was born. I literally grew up on him Literally he was everything and to this day no music entertainer is better. ( When the fans pass out, cry on uncontrollably and go well retarded they will have made to that level) When off the wall came out I think i about 8 years old and my parents got it for me because they knew I loved him (at 8 years old) So yes I was there.

  137. ughitshard  December 26, 2018 at 5:30 pm Reply

    I am 15 years old and i grew up with rnb and hip hop only. 2 years back, I got to know of Aaliyah and since then I am the biggest fan ever. I know everything that is known and i own everything that i could get including posters, cds, everything. She sadly died in a plane crash in August of 2001 and when I found out about it, I broke down and cried. She affected my daily life, the way I think of the world and knowing that Iwill never hear something new or get something new is just so depressing. It’s hard for me to look at her things and sometimes, I still cry. Writing this comment, I cry.

  138. PM  December 28, 2018 at 11:24 pm Reply

    I am 24 and legit grieving the loss of Penny Marshall. I hate it. Literally didn’t feel like my grieving her death was valid. Thank you guys for making me feel like I’m not alone.

  139. Amanda LaBarge  January 13, 2019 at 4:49 pm Reply

    I miss Prince, I even had his symbol tattooed on me yesterday with one of his quotes. I’ve been obsessing about him continuously for a week now almost 3 years after his passing. I feel as if I’m going crazy. I never even got to see him in Concert. Such a beautiful man.

    • Nish  April 3, 2019 at 8:42 pm Reply

      I miss him too. When he passed I cried the entire week. I continuously read about him and watched videos of him, thinking I’d feel better. Sometimes it worked and sometimes it made the pain worse. Eventually, I had to allow time to heal the pain.

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  141. Eric Glaab  January 31, 2019 at 11:51 pm Reply

    I absolutely loved Steve Irwin, and I still love the work that he has done. I am an animal lover myself and I feel like he was a major part of my childhood and development. He died when I was 6 years old and I still miss him.

  142. Elise  March 4, 2019 at 8:45 am Reply

    I only got REALLY into David Bowie after his death, but by the time I got around to listening to his Blackstar album, I had felt like I had been listening to him my entire life. Even now, my heart sinks when I listen to his music, and No Plan had me crying like I had lost a family member. All we can hope is that David Bowie was correct and he’ll live on in a new person’s legacy, but Ive been affected by his death more than i wish I had

    • Stephen  March 5, 2019 at 6:00 am Reply

      Hi. How you explained your feelings is how I am feeling now about Mark Hollis from Talk talk.. I listened to his music in the 80s and beyond. I take in the music and over analyse.

  143. Mark  March 6, 2019 at 5:34 pm Reply

    OMG. #7 is what I go through. I’m 54 and practically all the movie and TV stars I loved as a kid are dead, except maybe Olivia De Havilland and Kirk Douglass, and they are over 100!

  144. Lily Bowers  March 17, 2019 at 11:47 pm Reply

    I have been saddened by Jonathan Brandis’ death since last year he died 7 months before I was born but it still hit me so hard mostly because he was suicidal a long length of time before he eventually committed suicide he deverved so much better he was unhappy all that time and he felt so alone and unhappy Jonathan was a beautiful soul with the kindest heart and I have never got over his death or been the same since I think I cried almost everyday and every time I saw him in the film IT it brought all the pain there is not a day I don’t think about him I feel like I’ve become a different person from Jonathan’s death and that same emptiness is still there it’s been almost 15 years I will never forget him RIP Jonathan Gregory Brandis

  145. DBONE  March 22, 2019 at 12:51 am Reply

    Keith Flint. March 3rd, 2019. I owed this man my life. His fierce visage and strength of his voice breathed fire into a 5’2″ 98lb 16yo girl who had been emotionally, verbally and physically abused by her loved ones all her life until the moment she rushed and attempted suicide; but she couldn’t even do that right. I decided to fight back and met with resistance I ran and never looked back. No one looked for me. I made my life worth living. I had a life of freedom, to make decisions on my own. I had no idea how much damage was done until I met other people who led “normal” lives. I wanted that for myself. When Keith died I was gutted. It still feels like I’ve been hit in the chest with a sledge hammer and can’t eat or breathe. Remembering his music sends me back in time and I panic. I am so angry. I was 16 and lost and confused. He was 49 and had problems but were they really insurmountable?

  146. Hurt West Coast Queen  April 1, 2019 at 12:21 pm Reply

    Rest Easy Nipsey Hussle

    • Nish  April 3, 2019 at 8:56 pm Reply

      This hurts me too. I feel like I can’t confide in anyone because they might think I’m crazy for grieving his death so hard and I never knew him. It hurts so much because I’m a huge Lauren London fan and I saw how happy he made her and they were such a beautiful couple and family. To see such an intelligent and motivated person be taken out like it’s nothing just kills me inside. Now his children have to grow up without their father and Lauren has lost her soulmate, her forever. My heart hurts and I’m devastated for his family. His passing seems so unreal. Every day I’m waking up hoping the news says they made a mistake and he’s actually recovering in the hospital. I’m not sure when I’ll ever get over this but I’ve been depressed and saddened over this since Sunday. Thank you for allowing me to vent and get this off my chest

      • Amy  April 5, 2019 at 1:37 pm

        Hey Nish,

        I’m feeling the exact same way about Nipsey Hussle. I didn’t even follow him or know much about him till now. However, I am a huge Lauren London fan as well. I keep thinking when am I going to get over this. I am sure we will eventually. For me personally thinking of Lauren London is what makes me feel the most down, and everything he was doing for his community. It also triggered me on how someone so good can be taken so fast. I just want things to change, and the thought that things are too far gone to make change happen is what scares me. I can’t tell others about how I’m feeling also cause I feel like they would think I’m crazy for caring so much! I hope we can all start feeling better and something positive comes from this.

  147. Stacey  April 12, 2019 at 10:49 am Reply

    I know this sounds crazy and it makes me feel weird and I don’t really know how to explain it or why. I knew of Nipsey Hussle just in passing never really followed him and didn’t really know about his music, maybe heard him when he may have done a feature on a song; but before he passed I didn’t know any of his songs. I know of other celebrities deaths and I loved and was a die-hard Tupac fan and was sad when he passed but nothing like this, from the moment I heard the news of Nipsey Hussle passing I have felt a strange pull to him, I have researched him found out what a good humanitarian he was and just so many other things about him, researched and listened to his music but whatever this is I cannot shake; It’s not just a sense of sadness it’s more and its a connection and I don’t know why or what it is or what it means and its kinda scary. I understand why people who knew him and were die-hard fans would feel this way but I don’t understand why I do and what it means. I know its normal to feel a sense of sadness for a life lost and to feel bad for the families and loved ones but this is not just that feeling and I don’t know what to make out of it.

    • DJ  May 3, 2019 at 1:05 am Reply

      man, Nipsey Hussle, the reason I googled “grieving a celebrity”. I have never grieved this much for a person I never met… Since Nipsey Hussle passed I’ve become a little less motivated and I even wake up in the mornings grieving for him (not normal for me)… again, I NEVER met him, I had just started listening to his music back in February… but I was always a huge fan of his interviews he always had knowledge to share about business strategies and health and the tech industry.
      Well…it even hurts me to say “Rest…” because I still cant believe he is gone.

  148. Ryan Hannigan  April 14, 2019 at 3:01 pm Reply

    I really need someone to talk to. For the past three months I cry everyday because I miss Freddie Mercury so much. I’m a gay 17 year old male and I feel like I’m in love with Fred so much even though I never met him. It hurts me that he was so beautiful and full of love and life and he had to die the painful way that he did at such a young age. I miss him so much it really hurts all the time everyday. I have never felt grief like this before and I could really use someone to talk to who feels the same way as me. It hurts knowing I’ll never get to see him or hug him and I don’t know how to get over it.

    • Delphine Boucher  April 15, 2019 at 11:06 pm Reply

      Honestly, I completely understand you. I’m in the same situation but I’m younger. I listen to his song and I always tear up. I think his voice is so reconforting. Do you have an Instagram account? We could talk about it. Mine is @delphine_f_i_t_z

      • Ryan Hannigan  April 15, 2019 at 11:35 pm

        I messaged you 🙂

    • Denise M  May 14, 2019 at 1:31 pm Reply

      I understand your feelings about Freddie. Such a tragic loss of life in a horrible way. I grew up listening to Queen and always liked their music and was always a fan but not like a superfan. Since watching Bohemian Rhapsody I find myself really grieving for Freddie for some reason. I cant stop watching videos and researching him. The thing is the more I do it the more sad I feel and just wish he was still here. I really thought it was just me but I see others go through this too. I hope you are able to find peace and healing, as well as others dealing with this sorrow.

    • Sholly  July 4, 2019 at 8:59 am Reply

      Hello Ryan,

      I am feeling exactly the same way about Freddie Mercury. I have experienced grief before but never for a celebrity, my heart is filled with joy for him and sadness that he is no longer with us. I feel as though I’m in love with him even though I didn’t know him it is a strange feeling.
      If you want to talk, message me, we can exchange email/Facebook etc…

      Wishing you the best!


  149. Desarae  April 14, 2019 at 11:52 pm Reply

    I remember the moment I heard of David Bowie’s death as if were yesterday. My radio alarm clock had just gone off and DJ announces “David Bowie has died.” I felt such sadness, my heart was broken even before I was fully awake. On another note, I found this article while doing research on disenfranchised grief for one of my classes and I just wanted to say that I appreciate your thoughts on the matter. This is a valid subject that so many people feel is “crazy” but it really is not. Thanks!

  150. Rahma Amr  July 7, 2019 at 2:14 pm Reply

    Cameron Boyce… god it feels even more painful to talk about it. I grew up when I was a kid watching him on Jessie cause I didn’t watch him on anything else. I always thought that he was the funniest one with the best and most relatable sense of humor. He was also such a relatable character that made him all the more likable. I would watch his interviews and think, ‘wow… he’s a one of a kind human being’. He was genuine and kind and funny. Waking up to finding out he’s dead was the most horrible way to wake up. I instantly searched up his name and it became a reality. My childhood has passed away. And I felt like my emotions were so belittled when my mom didn’t understand my pain but thankfully, my brother is just as devestated. It feels weird to think about it and I felt like something was actually wrong with me when I felt so much pain.

    • tara  July 7, 2019 at 2:43 pm Reply

      i feel the complete say way. that’s actually why i searched this up. he meant so much to me and i feel like a part of my childhood is gone. it’s so shocking to me because i was thinking about him the other day. i never would have thought that this would actually happen. and i feel like if my mom seen me crying about a celebrity she would get so mad and that’s why i feel like my feelings are never valid. i don’t know how i’ll ever get over this. it all just feels like a dream…..a really bad nightmare

    • Lauren  July 7, 2019 at 4:33 pm Reply

      I feel the exact way as well hence why I came onto this website. Everytime I think about Cameron I see a picture of him smiling in my head and it just causes me to mentally break down. I feel like no one else around me is feeling this much emotion about his death although we all grew up watching him. I think I’m so upset because it was so sudden and unexpected and we literally couldn’t have forseen it. I was literally looking at his instagram about 2 weeks ago and he looked so happy. I miss him so much even though I have never met him. He was such a good soul… it’s absolutely unfair how paedophiles and rapists live in prison until about 90 years old whereas Cameron got taken from us at only 20 YEARS OLD! I have never felt/grieved this way before,

    • Emma  July 7, 2019 at 7:26 pm Reply

      Me too… i’ve been crying all day it really affected me this much, i could never imagine it would affect me this much. But if you (or any other person seeing this) wants to talk about it, just let me know and i will post my insta

    • amy  July 7, 2019 at 10:50 pm Reply

      I feel the exact same way as you and everyone reply to this comment about Cameron He is the reason i came to this website too He was my biggest celebrity crush from the first jessie episode i ever saw till now I feel crazy to be honest because i was so obsessed with his personality and looks and just everything about him, when ive never even met him but my heart is literally broken, shattered and Im glad im not alone thinking all these things, i feel like no one would understand the grief im in at the moment like the other girl said not even my family or closest friends. Hes such a beautiful soul, life is so unfair.If anyone wants to talk im here.

      • Alli  July 8, 2019 at 3:27 am

        the first time i read that he passed i thought it was a cruel joke and immediately went to his instagram page, but quickly closed the app because i didn’t dare to look at the comments. the more i kept seeing it everywhere it finally became reality, but my mind still hasn’t accepted it. i see his pictures and videos and it’s like he’s still here and it breaks my heart even more. i’ve seen lots of stories where celebrities pass away, and when this happened, i kept telling myself i’m acting stupid for grieving someone in silence when i dont even know them. about 7 months ago, i lost my mother suddenly due to a illness we didn’t know she had, and i guess it’s events like other people’s passing or reminders of her that just trigger me. before i went to therapy, i kept thinking i was insane like reallyyy crazy that i belong in a mental institution or something. there were times i missed her so much that i prefer being dead with her than live another day. im grateful that i still breathe to this very moment as healthy as ever, but i feel disgusted with myself that i wanted to die young meanwhile a young joyful soul has passed IN HIS SLEEP. im scared to fall asleep now because what if God wants to punish me after being mad at him for months for taking my mother away from me. i refused to go to church or to pray or anything related to Him because it happened at the worst time possible: exactly two weeks before my birthday and during my senior year of high school. she never got to see her first child graduate, the first generation. and i was so mad at Him for that. but now i’m afraid to close my eyes even, i try to distract myself but its not working. at the moment, i’m far away from my hometown, so i’m also feeling homesick and i miss my dad, my dog, my cousins, and my best friends. it’s like i want to give each of them this tight long embrace but what makes it harder is that i haven’t spoken to any of them recently. im sure they have plans of their own since its summer after all, but i cant deny the feeling. and i feel like talking about this will make it seem weird and over dramatic with them. i feel a little relieved however that i’m not the only one feeling this way.

    • cassandra  July 8, 2019 at 2:05 am Reply

      god same 🙁 that’s why am searched this up. i’ve never cried over a celebrity death before, but this one has me absolutely torn. I’m so heart broken and haven’t been able to control my tears since I woke up to the news this morning :/

  151. Emma  July 7, 2019 at 7:24 pm Reply


  152. cassandra  July 8, 2019 at 2:07 am Reply

    same 🙁

  153. Mara.J  July 8, 2019 at 4:55 am Reply

    Came to this website after I’ve been thinking about the death of Cameron Boyce for the entire day. I’m kinda crying right now , holding back because I feel so weird that I’m crying over someone’s death who I’ve never met. But at the same time I know why I am crying and feel soo devastated. He was wayyy too young to die. I swore he had a whole successful, happy life ahead of him. Yes like a lot of others I did grow up watching him on Jessie and in Grown Ups …etc . That’s why I feel hit so hard too. And to make it worse the way in which he passed ? I can’t imagine the horror , how his mother and family felt coming to wake him up , only to realize he would never get up again. He was such a funny , talented and kind dude. Even though I didn’t know him personally , you just know , you know ? And anyone who posted about him said the same thing. He was one of a kind. I don’t like when stuff like this happens to anyone . Especially someone as kind and wonderful as he was. It’s so weird because I feel just as if I lost a family member ? The grief its too real. Its unbelievable to me , I wish somehow he would come back. His mother , is probably in such a mess right now, all of his family . How do you even continue life without your Son / Brother has gone unexpectedly like that ? God help them please . I wish it wasn’t true . I don’t know why this hit me so hard but , I came here on the Internet to find out why I feel so devastated and heartbroken over his passing. I didn’t want to tell my parents or brother because I think their reaction would just make me feel worse and they won’t understand. Heck , I don’t even fully so, you know ? Anyways . I wish I could wake up tomorrow and see that all this wasn’t real and he was safely back with his family. Cameron Boyce i knew you never knew me , but trust me, you affected so many ppl and will continue to do so even though you’re gone. You will live on. I will never forget this. Rest easy Cam. You didn’t serve this.

    • Emma  July 8, 2019 at 5:55 am Reply

      If you all want to talk about it my insta is @emma.nt \\ I could really need someone to talk to who understands me and won’t judge me for crying over cameron

      • Chenise robson  July 9, 2019 at 10:09 am

        I just wanted to let everyone know, if you would like someone to talk to about Cameron, you can contact me on insta, i am also talking to another person and she is wonderful too.
        Insta- cheniserobson.

        So feel free to message me, if you would like to talk!

    • Chenise Robson  July 8, 2019 at 10:04 am Reply

      Since my sister told me that “The frekled Boy from Jessie passed away”, i havent been able to get it off my mind, i just feel numb and i mean i never knew him but i grew up watching him on jessie, Gamers, Descendants, Grown Ups & the other things he was in. Now i know i’m not the only one.
      I couldnt find anything online to answer my questions about how i was feeling and then i found this site and knew i wasnt alone.
      R.I.P Cameron Boyce 🙁

    • Josi  July 8, 2019 at 12:54 pm Reply

      Yes, I have the fact same feelings. It’s so crazy to think about that he’s not here anymore and I didn’t even know him personally. It’s a terrible feeling and I don’t really know where it’s coming from. Were all in the same situation right now so let’s all help each other to cope with the unreal situation. I’m still wishing to wake up from this nightmare

  154. simisola  July 8, 2019 at 1:00 pm Reply

    Cameron Boyce. it was the VERY first thing i woke up to on sunday morning and I didn’t think it was real! i was just saying ‘ no no no no no’ to myself this can’t be real. i thought i was dreaming i went onto twitter and the trending age read in black and white ‘Cameron Boyce dies at 20’ and my heart just sank. i was angry , i started swearing to myself ‘ how the f**** did this happen?!’. i was in shock and denial. i went onto google and what it stated is that he died in his sleep. that’s when i really got upset. a genuine talented soul who didn’t get involved in any bad situations he just went to sleep waiting for tomorrow and just never woke up. why would god let that happen to such a good person?! how does that happen out of nowhere?! he was my favorite person on Jessie. i loved watching him all the time before and after school and even now. i only became more obsessed with him after descendants came out. i loved him as Carlos. he is one of the reasons i wanna do what i do when i finish school. part of me feels silly that i laid in bed all day out of heartbreak but anyone who watched Disney channel in my generation practically grew up with him. for 4 years and onwards since I was 10. he was one one the people that i never thought anything bad would happen to him, especially at his age, but now he’s gone. i don’t know how i’m going to watch Jessie and descendants without getting upset anymore. i was so excited for descendants 3 next month until yesterday. but most of all, my heart aches for his family and friends, especially his Descendants and Jessie cast who saw him like a brother, who they have now lost, so i pray for their healing.The untimely death of Cameron Boyce has taught me that life is short, and tomorrow is never promised, so you have to live each day as best as you can with the people you love, so i thank God that his talents were not put to waste in this world, but it kills me that he still had so much more to give. it’s just not fair. Cameron, you don’t know me, but you were a massive part of my childhood and even now. I thank you for the memories , the laughs , I thank you for sharing your light with the rest of the world. even though you’ve been taken from us in life, your spirit will forever be kept alive in the memory of your work and talents on the Disney channel, on youtube and for charities you cared so much about. rest easy Cameron AKA Luke, viva el Luke, Carlos. i will miss u forever. keep spreading your light in heaven. xxxx

  155. Ivy  July 8, 2019 at 3:14 pm Reply

    I feel an unknown reason to cry over the death of Cameron Boyce. I think the main reason is seeing that he just turned 20 he had just enter the beginning of his young adulthood. And now he’s gone he died out of nowhere. Not only that but he outlived his parents. That’s every parents worse nightmare. Cameron will never get married or have children. His life is just over. I didn’t watch Jessie and I’ve only watched 1 Descendant film. But what I think that really gets to me is that I’m 23 and to me he was still just a kid embarking into adulthood. I don’t know if that is a good enough reason for me to get emotional over his death. But he had a life ahead for himself that just ended so suddenly. My condolences to his friends and family who are going through a horrible time in their life’s.

  156. Mariavgi  July 9, 2019 at 9:12 am Reply

    I thought i was the only one feeling those “weird feelings”
    I was searching online why did I cry and still do over this sweet human being Cameron … I didn’t know him personally but I feel like I did … he was keeping me company through the years … tv shows … etc
    We’re nearly the same age …
    He was and still is an angel on earth.
    I’ve lost people in my life and sometimes I didn’t even react on it … I just felt the overwhelming feeling of emptiness and sadness and sometimes I couldn’t even cry … but as soon as I saw the news about Cameron … I couldn’t believe what was happening … Few hours later when I was completely alone … I started crying so much and I still do … so unfair!
    I love you Cameron.
    So much!
    We will never forget you!

  157. ...  July 9, 2019 at 6:35 pm Reply

    Since sunday morning i want to he all day laying and crying in my bed, this had touched me more than any other celebrity’s death, i justo can’t believe how this young, talentos and Nice human being can be taken away si sudden. I didn’t got the chance to meet him but i know he was one of the brightest lights that the world have had, is not fair the fact that he’s not gonna live anymore. My mind can’t understand it, It’s denying it but at the same tome i literally can’t stop crying about it. When I try to get up, everywhere I go i ser him, and i’m not joking, i can’t scape from this, i justo wish that it was a bad Dream. I try to think, that if i am like this, his family and Friends must he more than devastaded. I watched him grow up while i was growing up too, he was my first celebrity crush and Made me laught tons. I justo want to someone tell me that this isnt happening and everything is a lie, or only to tell me that everything is gonna be okay, my heart is now million pieces hurting so bad and no one understand the pain that i’m going trought, no one can really se that inside of my pretending smile i just wanna cry until i’m dry and stop thinking at all.
    If there is even a god, i just don’t find a good reason for this to happend.
    And if heaven even exist, i guess it was needing a hero, because it just gained one. His beautiful soal Will forever be in our hearts.
    This is for Cameron boyce, a hero, a light, just full of love, that left the world and the people he met just so much better that the way he found them. I Will always love you.

  158. ...  July 9, 2019 at 6:42 pm Reply

    Since sunday morning i want to stay all day laying and crying in my bed, this had touched me more than any other celebrity’s death, i just can’t believe how this young, talented and Nice human being can be taken away so suddendly. I didn’t got the chance to meet him but i know he was one of the brightest lights that the world have had, is not fair the fact that he’s not gonna live anymore. My mind can’t understand it, It’s denying it but at the same time i literally can’t stop crying about it. When I try to get up, everywhere I go i see him, and i’m not joking, i can’t scape from this, i just wish that it was a bad Dream. I try to think, that if i am like this, his family and Friends must be more than devastaded. I watched him grow up while i was growing up too, he was my first celebrity crush and he Made me laught tons. I just want someone to tell me that this isnt happening and everything is a lie, or only to tell me that everything is gonna be okay, my heart is now million pieces hurting so bad and no one understand the pain that i’m going trought, no one can really se that inside of my fake smile i just wanna cry until i’m dry and stop thinking at all.

    If there is even a god, i just don’t find a good reason for this to happend.

    And if heaven even exist, i guess it was needing a hero, because it just gained one. His beautiful soal Will forever be in our hearts.

    This is for Cameron boyce, a hero, a light, someone full of love, that left the world and the people he met just so much better that the way he found them. I Will always love you.

  159. Anonymous but full of love for cam  July 9, 2019 at 10:06 pm Reply

    Recently we lost someone who meant a lot to people. I never personally knew him, but hearing of and realizing his death really hit me hard. I first was introduced to Cameron Boyce when I was six years old in 2011 watching Jessie. Cam was only six years older than me. He was 12. Although we were six years apart, from that moment on i felt such a fascination and connection to him. I watched every episode of Jessie and created lots of memories by watching this show with friends. He was my, like many others, childhood crush. Right before the beginning of 5th grade , Descendants was premiered on July 31st at 8pm. I still remember this moment quite vividly. I was so excited to see Dove ( who I’ve adored since Liv and Maddie) and Cam ( who I’ve adored since Jessie) on the screen. And I fell in love with Cameron Boyce all over again. Throughout middle school, and how I remember quite recently I saw cam on social media . He was obviously so full of life and so full of love. His death really hit hard. I felt as though I grew up with him, even though he was older than me and I had never met him . He was such a kind soul. When Skai Jackson posted a video of him singing , that is when the realization hit me. This little boy was gone. Cam was such a fundamental part of my childhood . Luke Ross was such a fundamental part of my childhood. And so I cried. I cried for this little boy who had so much left to show the world, so many more laughs to have , so much more of the world to see. And his smile lit up my TV , as well as my Instagram feed. The rest of my friends have gotten over his death. “He is just a celebrity, yeha it’s sad but he’s just a celebrity”. And for some odd reason, I really can’t seem to understand why I can’t get over this. I mean, I never knew him. I never heard his laugh in person, but I heard it on video . I’m still not sure , 3 days later why I’m still crying. And I think it’s for reasons you just listed . He was so happy. He had a whole life ahead of him and he was already accomplishing great things. And for him to die, really felt like my childhood was gone. Soon after the news was announced , Cam’s smile was plastered all over my feed. And the emotions just kept coming. His friends and costars tributes to him are so beautiful and heartfelt that it makes my heart hurt not only for them and for what THEY’VE lost, but what Cameron Boyce has lost too. I sure do hope heaven is real. And the reason I say this is because I’ve heard you can meet any beautiful soul that has wandered our earth. And I pray to god that is true because even in our next life, I would be so glad to meet the angel of a person that was and is Cameron Boyce. My heart goes out to Debby, Maya, Libby, Peyton, Victor, Sophie, Karen, Skai, Dove, Sofia and so many others that he loved fiercely and that loved him just as much. I love you, Cameron boyce. I could never understand why this has happened. I know I will continue to cry as I watch edits, old episodes of Jessie, see your smiling face and your tributes . Thank you for my childhood. I miss your happy self . Thank you for trying to make the world a better place and know you are so loved. Wow.Thank you, thank you, thank you. Gosh. You were and still are so loved. My heart aches for you but I am so happy you are in a happy place 🙂 love to you forever , rest in paradise :))))See you somewhere over the rainbow baby boy 💛🌈

  160. Florica Avrilus  July 10, 2019 at 4:56 pm Reply

    Wow I thought I was the only one who felt like I’m empty and felt crazy to be feeling such emotions for Cameron because he is not here with us anymore. It feels like a light just shut down through my whole heart, body, brain, and spirit. Although I never knew or met Cameron personally but like many other people I grew up watching him looking up to him he was one of the reasons why I want to become an Actress. I watched him on Jessie, Grownups, and Descendants. I, like many other watched him turn into a selfless, kind, full of energy, funny, charming, handsome, always ready to give back, and loving towards his family, friends, fans, and everyone whom he has met. He was truly an earth angel whom has shined the whole world with his presence. A dream of mine was to meet Cameron in real life and it breaks my heart to pieces that I will never fulfill that dream. Now I just sit in my bed and binge watch Jessie while eating ice cream and crying all day😭. I don’t how I am going to get out of this deep depression but all my tears and condolences goes out to his family, friends, and fans who loved him so dearly. I love you very much Cameron you deserved so much more time on this earth😢 I will always love and miss you for the rest of my life. I hope to see you on the other side of the rainbow someday my love🌈 May you rest in absolute peace and love with the Father up in heaven you are truly loved and missed down on this earth. R.I.P Cameron Boyce😢💔❤💕

  161. Add the insta if you need to chat @laurenwoji  July 10, 2019 at 6:24 pm Reply

    Reading everyone’s comments I’ve realised I’m not the only one who’s deeply mourning Cameron’s death. I keep crying and I feel so strange although it’s not my place because I didn’t know him personally. Imagine the pain the people who knew him most are feeling, how numb and empty. I used to watch him everyday in Jessie, and grown ups has always been one of my favourite movies. I grew up watching him grow up and I feel as though I’ve lost a friend or a big brother. And watching the videos of him as a kid, it makes me reminisce to when I was little watching him and I feel as though it can’t be real. that this adorable, energetic, sweet boy died. I understand now that the reason im so torn is because he was such a big part of our childhood. and to see the man he had become truely kills me because he was going to do great things not just for himself, but the world. I am so proud of you Homie, and I love you.

  162. Bianca  July 11, 2019 at 2:46 am Reply

    To all who are talking about Cameron Boyce…I completely feel for you. I came on this website because of him too. I don’t know why I am taking his death so personally. Every time I see a photo of him or another tribute to him posted on social media, I just break down, I cry and think that isn’t fair for him to be taken so soon. I am the same age as Cameron so everyone I talk to says that’s why I’m so upset about it. I don’t know for sure. I’ve never been this upset about a celebrity’s death EVER. My friends are just as upset (but I think I may be a tad more hurt by it), If anyone feels like they’re alone about mourning Cameron’s death, you’re not trust me. Gosh, why was he taken so soon. He had so much more to do. Watching Descendants 3 here in a few weeks is going to tear me up even more. Rest in Paradise Cameron. Thank you for my childhood.

  163. Kay  July 11, 2019 at 9:54 am Reply

    I’m so glad I found this site. I’m not as young as you all posting about Cameron Boyce, but I too searched why am I feeling as if I lost a family member since Cameron’s death. I’m in my 40’s and have been crying since Sunday AM. I cannot shake the feeling as if I lost a son. I’m crying as I type this. I read a lot of your comments below and realize Cameron meant something to all of us. From the moment I started watching Jessie years ago with my children, we all fell in love with Luke Ross and then it moved to other movies like Grown Ups for me as well as Descendants. All day I look at Cameron’s photos. I cannot get enough of his smiles, those freckles, his laughter and the photos of he and Dove, Karan, China etc. They’re all so heartbroken. I see his father’s page and lose it all again. Last night I saw the photo his father took of Cameron a few hours before he passed. It sickens me to think if the father only knew that would be his last time to see his son, would he have stayed with him. I feel crazy thinking of all these things. I keep thinking what if things were different and he were only hospitalized and healing. But that’s not the case. He’s really gone. See when I would watch Jessie with my children (4 to be exact), Luke Ross was always a topic in our home. He made all of us laugh. My kids are older now, the youngest 12, 16, 18 and the oldest 22. This is all difficult for me because I think if one of my children were in a situation like Cameron I would be so devastated. Cameron’s time reminds me of my children and how short life is. Someone mentioned about being able to see Cameron in Heaven one day. That’s what I’m focusing on. Every day I’m saying a prayer for God to comfort the Boyce family and to also let Cameron know even though we’ve never met, I am praying for his family, friends and fans and I am telling him in prayer what a wonderful human he is/was and what an impact he had on my family, especially my children. He is an example of what all humans should be like. We all need to be happy, positive and see the good in people no matter the circumstance. I think this is how we can honor Cameron Boyce. Its obvious Cameron is “Christ-like” because he exuded that LIGHT. That’s what God wants us to be like. God doesn’t take people away and cause people harm. It happens to be a part of life. Our bodies can fail us, tragedy can strike , death is inevitable. I hope you all can find comfort in what I’m trying to say. You’re not crazy!! You and me, we have beautiful souls and kind hearts and we feel for those who are similar to us or stood for something that is in line with who we are. WE all have the potential to be Cameron’s of this world. His infectious smile will live on in our hearts forever. My tears are not constant now. I’m still crying here and there but I tell myself, Cameron would want all of us to do something “bigger than ourselves” as he would say. I know he’s appreciative I made a donation to the Thirst Project in his memory. I have no doubt he’s wanting us to spread his love. You all are so young and I am so much older and feel silly but I am glad I am not alone. You , the younger generation, can make such an impact on the world in a positive way. Don’t hate, ALWAYS LOVE. As you get older and have your families, be the example of that Love so your children see it and learn it. Be kind always. There is always a positive in EVERYTHING we do in our lives. Don’t let life get you down which it can do sometimes. Brush it off and know you can get back up and move on and choose to be happy. Yes, choose to be Happy. That’s what Cameron’s theme is in his life through his families/friends stories and photos. I don’t know any of you but I do hope my grief and working through this can somehow shed light on what you’re feeling. I love all of you as humans and as God’s children. Always remember, God had Cameron first and he, just like all of us, are on borrowed time. Cameron is in Heaven, Happy, Dancing, Singing, and Smiling his heart out with our Lord. Who wouldn’t want to be there. Live your life to the fullest as Cameron would want for all of us. Honor him in that way. Honor him in joining others to spread the word about helping others, volunteer for charities, put a donation link on your media pages in honor of him, donate to charities! I hope all of you find peace and pray. Praying has helped me get through this. I do it several times a day. God does hear you and I’m sure Cameron can too. Peace and prayers to all of you.

    • karen weiss  August 12, 2019 at 12:36 pm Reply

      I am the 54 year old woman that posted after you. I have never been this upset about anyone’s death, not even people that I knew. It has been over a month and I am still crying about Cameron Boyce. I too feel like I have lost a son and am just so suprised at how his death has effected me.

      • Kay  August 20, 2019 at 6:27 pm

        I know this is very hard. I am still crying. I think of Cameron first thing in the morning and throughout the day. I am actually in therapy because I can’t get over this. I find myself going to his IG page hoping something has changed. I know it won’t but I can’t get my mind off of this. He was a kind soul and I wish I had the opportunity to cross paths with him. I think the situations is difficult because he was so young, a king loving soul. When the word loses someone who shines above all others, its hard for us to accept it. Often people think death is for the old but when in fact, death can strike at any time. These past 45 days has truly impacted my personal life with my own children. Time doesn’t seem like an eternity. Time feels shorter than it ever has and this is what’s hard. Promoting his charities and his passion for making the world a better place should be our focus. Like I tell everyone, we all need to be Cameron’s in this world.

  164. Liv Cov  July 11, 2019 at 10:02 am Reply

    I came on here looking for someone to explain the pain and utter heartbreak I felt over Cameron Boyce’s death. I am so glad to see that I am not alone, and I am not going insane for grieving for someone I didn’t know. I woke up to the news screenshotted in a group chat and I was in utter disbelief. I went to Twitter immediately after to confirm this devastating news. I began to bawl my eyes out. I had no idea his death would hurt me as it has. This is the first death as an 18 year old (or around an understanding age), where I feel like I really knew the person. Mourning my grandmother at 8 or 9 years old felt different then this. It felt like I had lost a close childhood friend I had a huge crush on. I use to watch Jessie religiously and of course Luke was my favorite character. I followed him on Instagram and went through my obsessing phases every once and awhile, but of course always kept up on his pictures. His Instagram haunts me because I know it will never be updated again. It feels like he was unfairly snatched from this Earth over night, but I have to believe that he was just too special to stay here any longer. He’s onto the next step in life and hopefully I will join him some day. A beautiful light and soul was taken from this Earth and it will never be the same. 20 years old is just too young. Every day is painful, I’ve cried every day and I think about it all the time. But I know he is happy and looking down on everyone, and would want us to be happy and be better. I’m going to try to do better and everyone else should too. Please reach out if you want to talk, DM me on Instagram; o_its_livia

  165. ava  July 11, 2019 at 6:24 pm Reply

    i came here because i felt weird grieving cameron’s death. i didn’t know him personally, and it felt disrespectful to his family, friends & everyone that knew him to cry or be sad about it when i’ve never even met him. it’s nice to know that i’m not crazy or disrespectful, being so upset over it. cameron was a huge part of my childhood, and watching him grow into such a kind and generous person makes his death even more heartbreaking. he was going to do big things for the world, and he died so young. i’ve been seeing all the posts on instagram, from his family, the jessie & descendants casts, and just everyone that either knew him or was a fan. cameron truly was an inspiration and inspired so many people. i was reading his post to karan that he posted, talking about how some day his kids would call him “uncle kar” and somehow that made me feel even sadder, knowing that he’ll never be able to grow up and have kids, or even see the new movie he’s been working so hard on. i really didn’t think a celebrity death would hit me this hard, and even after seeing that a lot of other people are going through the same thing it just feels weird to be so sad over a stranger. my heart is really with his family and friends, he was taken too soon and will be missed by the world.

  166. Haley  July 13, 2019 at 2:54 am Reply

    I’m here because I have been crying every day and night because of Cameron. My sister told me, the 7th and I just couldn’t believe her. When she just said ‘do you know who Cameron Boyce is?’ I was just so giddy and happy when she just brought up his name, but when she said what happened, I was torn, and had to search it up myself. It was true. It just made no sense as to why I feel like this. Basically some of my family does not know and what ever they say, just reminds me of Cam. I may not have ever met him in my entire life, but it’s like I lost someone, a best friend, a part of myself. He had a really big impact on my life. His characters in Jessie and Descendants calmed me down when I had nothing. I wish this was just a bad dream, but it’s not. But I just have to keep telling myself even though I cry every time, he is in a better place now, and no longer suffering of this medical condition, that he passed from.

    If any of you need to talk, and I would like to talk with you guys as well who don’t judge but who will help us move on from this horrible passing.
    My Instagram is haleyrezelle

    it would be nice to talk to someone so we could get some kind of closure on this. Remember you are not alone we are getting through this together.

  167. Brooke  July 14, 2019 at 4:55 pm Reply

    My mom showed me this website after I’ve been sitting inside for a whole week crying non-stop over Cameron Boyce’s death. I’ve never been this sad over a death before, which seems crazy to say. i’ve prayed every night to talk to Cameron. I never met him on earth even though i wanted to. Cameron was my favorite character on the disney show Jessie and Decendants. He was my childhood crush and my inspiration to almost everything i’m doing now. He inspired me to dance as a little girl and now i’m a dancer for a competitive team. He inspired me to act and i’m now working on acting. Cameron always seemed to be my hope and confidence i needed. Once i found out he passed the following morning of his death i cried everyday all day. I didn’t understand why. No matter what people say/do to help me feel better I always have a hole in my heart, a lump in my throat, and a waterfall of tears ready to roll down my cheek. I’ve tried watching Jessie to help me feel better, but once i turn it off i burst into tears and i don’t have the motivation to do anything. Everything i do reminds me of Cameron. I can’t even go on social media without seeing posts or edits made for Cameron. I cry every time i see one. I’ve started to have dreams about him. One was Cameron telling me that he is okay in heaven and i don’t have to worry, and the other one i just poured my feelings out to him. I pray every morning and night to him hoping things will get better, but sadly, they don’t. I know that Cameron was an earth angel and he completed his mission on earth in only 20 years, but i still mourn because i won’t see a new instagram post, movie, tv show, or dance from him. I’ve tried going out with friends to keep my mind off of it but it doesn’t seem to help and i get the urge to call my parents and have them pick me up. I keep thinking to myself “what if you were his age? what if you knew him? what if you could’ve been awake during his seizure and called for help? what if you could’ve prevented his death?”. I have this awful regret going through my head even though i couldn’t of done anything. I also keep thinking, if i feel this upset over someone i didn’t know, imagine how the Jessie/Desendance cast, family, and close friends of Cameron feel? I’m so depressed i don’t want to do sports, go to school, or even leave my bedroom ever again. I don’t know what to do. But all i know is that i can’t wait until the day i can meet Cameron in heaven. I miss him so much😭♥️🙏🏼

    • Freya Kirkham  April 3, 2020 at 12:26 pm Reply

      I know exactly how you feel it has been 9 months since his death and I still mourn him so much and I don’t understand why since I never actually met him. I just keep thinking about him all the time about how he won’t be making anymore dances or movies and that he just isn’t here and how young he was. But it’s crazy cause I feel as though I had

  168. Beth Ann  July 20, 2019 at 7:35 pm Reply

    I have scanned through all of these responses, and I understand each and every loss talked about and why. But I wonder why NO ONE has mentioned Chester Bennington. Today marks TWO years since his passing. He touched so many people’s lives and pulled SO MANY from the brink of their own self destruction. He was a remarkable man who battled his demons for so long. He shared his stories through his music, shared his demons, his darkness and his death is a tragedy. I can not understand why LP fans were so hard on the band and especially Chester for their last album, One More Light. IT WAS BRILLIANT! He shared with his fans his most inner fears and darkness….it WAS his cry for help! And his FANS let him down by hating on his work. I truly believe if this album had gotten a better and warmer initial response from the public, he may very well still be with us today. THIS is why I mourn Chester Bennington of Linkin Park. He was a hero, through his music, he saved some of my own family and some of my best friends!

    • Elaine Morgan  January 27, 2020 at 2:20 pm Reply

      Thank you for these words! Chester is and will always be the best! I’m alive because of him and lp!

  169. KarenW  August 5, 2019 at 10:17 am Reply

    Oh my goodness I feel so much better after finding this site. I am a 54 year old woman that rarely cries and I wake up happy every day. On July 6th my world fell apart and I have been searching for answers. I have been in a state of profound grief since the death of Cameron Boyce and could not understand why. My friends and family have never seen me like this and they have all been worrying about me. I feel so personally connected to Cameron and his death and could not understand why. I know that people die all the time and I have always felt empathy for them and their families but this has been so very different. I feel like I can feel the pain of his friends and family and it has been overwhelming. I feel that Cameron was someone that was here to make the world a better place and that we have all lost because of his death. I hope that when I am past the grief that the memory of Cameron will help me to be a better person.

  170. cassie  August 5, 2019 at 1:52 pm Reply

    I was here almost a year and a half ago for SHINee’s Jonghyun. Never thought I’d be back here, this time it’s for Freddie Mercury. I miss him every day even though he died many years before I was born and I feel like a fake fan because I only started getting into Queen a couple of months ago. He’s become pretty much a part of my life at this point and I wish he was still alive so I could experience him like that just once.

    • Selena  August 6, 2019 at 12:31 am Reply

      Cassie girl i been crying and mourning his death since this year and to tell the truth…it’s so tiring and stuff cause i was so so attached to Jonghyung and i felt like hd was only person i could relate to thought i didn’t know he had it bad…i dont S.A.D but i to have depression and so tiring that i think before spirng comes I’ll meet Jonghyun and he’ll i hope welcome me with open warm arms and i wont have to suffer any more of this life and this world…

      • Melissa  August 18, 2019 at 11:25 pm

        Selena, I understand how you’re feeling. I’ve been keeping Jonghyun in my thoughts since it happened, but these past couple of days have been incredibly bad. It is very tiring. I don’t have any experience with depression and can’t imagine what a tough time you must be having, but hang in there. You’re stronger than you think and trust me, it may not seem like it at the moment, but it will get better. Reach out to whoever you can whenever it gets too hard, I am always here to listen if you need to talk. Please don’t give in to that darkness and I really hope you can get the help you need. Jonghyun would want you to get better too. Stay strong Selena, sending love your way <3

    • Cathy  October 30, 2019 at 4:43 pm Reply

      I relate to you so much. I started listening to Queen last month and realized I know and love many of their songs, I just didn’t know they were by Queen. Then I started learning about Freddie Mercury and his story through YouTube vids of interviews and his personal life… I love the fact that he was a cat dad lol. And the moment I fell in love with Freddie (he was such an awesome person) was the same moment I realized he was dead. I was only 6 when he died but seeing the amazing performance at 1985 Live Aid makes me wish I was older so I could have been there. I am actively mourning the loss of him and it is hard to listen to his music even. I figured what would make me feel better is donating to AIDS research. It’s what Freddie and Queen would want.

      • Demelza Mason  November 12, 2019 at 10:23 pm

        I’m also here because of Queen! Rediscovering their music, and then reading about Freddie’s death has made it seem like I’ve, ridiculously, both known and lost him in about 2 weeks. Its shattering. If it’s any help at all, you are most definitely not alone.

      • Demelza Mason  November 12, 2019 at 10:27 pm

        Also, I’m in exactly the same boat of having loved so many Queen songs, and not realising they were Queen until now. Somehow that makes it harder- there’s so many memories of songs that I’ve heard throughout my life that are all tied into this incredible man, and it’s only now that I really feel as though I’ve lost him.

    • Demelza Mason  November 12, 2019 at 10:33 pm Reply

      I’m a bit late to this, so I hope that your grief has passed (or at least lessened) by now, but I am in exactly the same situation over Freddie. RIP.

  171. madeleine  August 12, 2019 at 10:55 pm Reply

    Amy Winehouse… still hurts and saddens me to my core today :'(

  172. Mae  August 16, 2019 at 9:02 pm Reply

    Close to a year after his death I still feel a sadness over Mac Miller’s death. I listen to his music everyday, it’s almost the only artist I play anymore.. I feel as though he has a message for all his fans that was so profound. But the sadness, emotion and depth in his final masterpiece is so inspiring and devastating at the same time. I just want to give him a huge hug, because all he gave the world was love. And I think that’s the one thing he needed more than any of the money, fame, or drugs. We all just need to love each other as passionately as we need to love ourselves and that’s the comfort I get from Mac’s music. He says it all in just about every piece of work he released. “These things that a man doesn’t need. Take out all of the love and the passion and hope, and they fill it with nothing but greed” I’ll forever fill my ears with his words. He was 5 years younger than me, more talented in his articulation and his connection with the universe was so apparent. His talent was beyond his years also in musical sense, and beyond what he’s been recognized for. A musician in all sense, not just a rapper! You couldn’t define his musical soul. It will be heard through generations… 😇

    • James  September 23, 2019 at 5:37 pm Reply


      That’s so strange that yours should be the second comment and Mac is the same reason I googled celebrity deaths and came across the article, my circumstance much the same as yours. Your message was comforting, so, thank you.

  173. Sarah Katherine Renzetti  September 3, 2019 at 11:15 pm Reply

    Valerie Harper just 4 days ago. I met her in April 2015 in San Jose. She reminded me of my mom with her positive attitude and her toughness, and who also beat the odds against cancer by living several years more than expected.

  174. MS Ails C  September 26, 2019 at 7:01 am Reply

    . and your voice fills my house every single day and my headphones every day on my way to work. 💔

  175. Alyssa  October 14, 2019 at 5:45 pm Reply

    Just 12 hours ago I found out about the death of K-pop star Sulli.
    I was coincidentally up at 2 am working on a term paper when my friend sent me a Snapchat of the news. Her passing reminded me so much of her labelmate Jonghyun’s almost two years ago and I thought “this can’t be happening AGAIN…” Needless to say, I was unable to sleep last night. I ended up calling my friend at 2:30 in the morning to let out my feelings of shock, I was literally shaking but I didn’t cry. I didn’t cry for Jonghyun either, and honestly I’ve never really cried for any dead celebrities, but for both Jonghyun and Sulli’s deaths, my stomach became unwell, I lost my appetite, and I had difficulties concentrating on anything because I was too disoriented by the news. I plan to stay off Facebook, Instagram, YouTube, and Reddit for a while so I’m not flooded with sad news that I’ve already read, but I still can’t get any work done today because I’m thinking too much about all of this. Although I didn’t listen to too many SHINee or f(x) songs, being a K-pop fan for eight years and losing one name you’ve grown up listening to and then another just under two years later, in the exact same manner to boot, really feels like a punch to the gut.
    For all the other celebrities I’ve known who have passed, I haven’t had these symptoms, but I find myself becoming more intrigued about their lives and their work after they die, almost as a morbid sort of coping mechanism.
    And hopefully for Sulli’s passing the grieving process will improve – although I’m dreading the conversations I’m gonna have with my K-pop-loving friends in the weeks to come. I know that in Jonghyun’s case, my friends and I were singing SHINee songs during karaoke to cope and remember him, and after a while I checked out some of his solo songs and added them to my playlist. It absolutely SUCKED that two beautiful and talented young souls took their own lives at such young ages (with Sulli being just four years older than me), but I’m thankful that they could be such a pivotal part of the rising popularity of K-pop we see today.
    P.S. I scrolled back to the posts about Jonghyun and it’s interesting that some of your teachers let you take time off school to grieve! I hope my profs and coworkers are just as understanding, because I have a midterm and papers coming up soon…

    Oh, and Cameron Boyce hit me pretty hard recently too. It was the first time a famous person who was actually younger than me had died, and it was so scary how he went to sleep one evening not knowing he would never wake up. Now I’m feeling the sudden urge to watch Descendants 3 just so I can see his face…

    • lan_kani  October 14, 2019 at 10:16 pm Reply

      I’m here because of Sulli too, and seriously shocked. I wasn’t a huge fx stan but I really enjoyed listening to their music and occasionally kept up with their work. Sulli definitely was an eye catcher for me- she was so beautiful and talented. This ugly world truly didn’t deserve her beautiful soul. Though I hope her soul is resting easy in heaven right now ❤️

    • Yue  October 17, 2019 at 3:14 am Reply

      Also here because of Sulli. I grieved Jonghyun too for days but I think I was mostly in shock. Then a few days after I cried watching videos of him. He was so loving and sentimental. I had grown up with Shinee as my bias but had faded away from kpop for a couple of years, I don’t know why this time with Sulli it is different. From the moment I found out my whole mood shifted. I felt disoriented and unfocused. All I could think about was her. Maybe because I feel that she was so wronged. That she was so kind and an overall beautiful human and people just buried her in their hate. I also grew up listening to f(x) although never to a point of religiously stanning and like I said I haven’t been in the kpop scene for some years. But this hits so hard. I can’t stop crying and replaying that video of her pleading that people stop hating on her, that she’s not a bad person. I guess also because it breaks my heart that we live in such a cruel world where these things can happen to anyone. She stood for so many things I relate too and I respect her so much for that. So I’ve been mourning her loss intensely. The same way I mourned Jonghyun and also recently, Tony Bourdain. This article makes me feel not so crazy for doing so.

  176. Honest Abe  November 13, 2019 at 5:54 pm Reply

    Yes, it is dumb. To be so wrapped up in the life of someone you don’t know and have never met is beyond pathetic.

    • mollie  January 27, 2020 at 5:37 pm Reply

      Bet you pull the wings and legs off flies, as well. This was MEAN.

    • Tymirrah  April 11, 2020 at 2:29 pm Reply

      I don’t know if you actually read the article, which gives 9 very valid reasons people grieve over others they may not have personally known, but this comment was pointless and quite disrespectful to those expressing and looking to understand their grief. Why make such a heartless post? Maybe you have never felt such grief or have yet to feel such a connection with someone but when or if you do, I hope you learn to understand.

  177. Cassidy  November 16, 2019 at 8:00 pm Reply

    I’m so thankful for this post. My celebrity death that hit me the hardest was Mac Miller. I didn’t even know who he was when he died, and discovered him when someone posted a photo album of Ariana and Mac with her song “ghostin” in the background. It started a months of pouring over everything there was to learn about him and I fell in love with his personality, his love of music, the way he poured himself and his soul into his songs, his sense of humor, his down to earth personality, and his honesty about his demons. I related so much to his songs and it was even harder on me because he looked just like my boyfriend at the time, who also struggles with substance abuse. I went into a deep depression about all of it, especially when my boyfriend and I broke up. It was difficult to distinguish what was me mourning the loss of such an incredible artist and person or mourning my ex. It’s even tougher seeing Ariana’s posts and songs about him. I still can’t believe we won’t get to hear any new music from him. I can’t believe I won’t ever get to see him in concert or watch his goofiness in his interviews. I am very glad you posted this article because it makes me feel a lot less silly about mourning Mac.

    • ariana  February 27, 2020 at 12:22 pm Reply

      i was looking for this. mac miller was otherworldly he was such a fucking sweetheart. i may not have known him personally but you could just feel it in his energy and music. it takes a toll on me because i feel exactly the same way he does in his music and i see so much of myself in him. it also hurts seeing ari grieve because that’s so heartbreaking. i’ve been in the situation where i rebounded someone and realized i still loved my ex. that shit sucks so much but it happens. it’s a lot for me because my name is ariana and there are so many things in my life that are parallel to theirs like i have my boyfriend who reminds me so much of mac and who is my best friend who i couldn’t live without. he’s just as goofy and cares so much. he says i look like ariana but i don’t see it haha. shit has been so weird and now that circles came out i’ve been sooooooo fucking sad. i love listening to mac but i cry nearly every time so it’s hard

  178. Michelle  November 21, 2019 at 7:44 am Reply

    I have liked Queen for many years now and was 23 when Freddie passed away in 1991. At the time it didn’t really affect me too much, I was sad but to a sensible degree I feel. However over the past six months and I partly blame Bohemian Rhapsody the movie for this, I have become overcome with grief for the loss of Freddie Mercury.
    I as previous people have said have read books, listened to the music and watched endless documentaries on You Tube about Freddie and Queen.
    I am 51yrs of age and have never grieved for a celebrity as much as I do for Freddie 28yrs after his death. I feel that he was such a beautiful, kind and gentle soul and did not deserve to die in the way that he did and so young.
    I cry frequently especially when watching videos of particular songs and it really comes from deep within me. This weekend will be particularly difficult as it will be the 28th anniversary of his death this Sunday night 24th November.
    I am trying to understand because it is quite disturbing in a way and the only sensible conclusion I can come to is that I lost my dad 4 yrs ago ( he had copd amongst other things and was very sick), I watched him being painfully reduced to only 5 stones in weight just before he died and the final cause of his death on his certificate was bronchial pneumonia as was Freddie’s. So I believe that I may be still grieving for my dad but also feeling the same sort of grief for Freddie as I feel some sort of connection there.
    I am so pleased that I have found through this that I am not alone in this experience I am having at the moment. I don’t really have anybody to talk to about this that would take me seriously.
    Thank you all, I’m sure that reading all of your comments will help me and I hope that mine in some way will help you too.
    I’m sure we will all get there eventually.
    R.I.P Freddie xxxxx

    • Arlene Abrams  December 6, 2019 at 10:29 am Reply

      Michelle, I am amazed after reading your post. It could have been ME writing it. You are most certainly not alone but I wouldn’t share or bare my soul on a public forum.
      Email me.

    • Taffy  January 6, 2020 at 10:57 pm Reply

      Thank you for sharing this! I am the same age as you and remember his death, but nothing more. After watching Bohemian Rhapsody, I miss him in heartbreaking amounts. It was so long ago. I can even have a pit in my stomach over his being gone. The more videos I watch of Queen, the sadder I feel. Glad I’m not alone.

  179. Louise Malone  November 22, 2019 at 10:25 am Reply

    One of the saddest most tragic deaths of a child in my opinion was that of Judith Barsi. Such a little angel taken from the earth because of the mental illness of her father. I watched a beautiful tribute story about her on a You Tube channel Tales of Fame and Fate. I cried when I watched it.

  180. Roxanne  December 3, 2019 at 4:10 pm Reply

    Mine was definitely River Phoenix and Amy Winehouse still saddens me to this day 😢

    • Susan Brown  February 26, 2020 at 10:00 pm Reply

      River Phoenix. My god. I didnt care at the time, I was 12 and he narrowly missed the explosion of my boy craziness and crushes. He was ‘old’ to me, and I wasn’t allowed to watch any of his films.

      Years later I looked him up after watching Stand By Me (for the 20th time) and was blown away by him as a human being. I had no idea how strange and magical he was. His death struck me years later as one of the most tragic losses in Hollywood. It struck me in the gut to the point that I felt real grief for him. Very strange to feel that for a stranger, but some people just resonate with us I suppose.

    • Susan Brown  February 26, 2020 at 10:12 pm Reply

      River Phoenix. My god. I didn’t care at the time, I was 12 and he narrowly missed the explosion of my boy craziness and crushes. He was ‘old’ to me, and I wasn’t allowed to watch any of his films.

      Years later I looked him up after watching Stand By Me (for the 20th time) and was blown away by him as a human being. I had no idea how strange and magical he was. His death struck me years later as one of the most tragic losses in Hollywood. It struck me in the gut to the point that I felt real grief for him. Very strange to feel that for a stranger, but some people just resonate with us I suppose.

  181. Stephanie  December 5, 2019 at 12:30 am Reply

    Recently for me this has been with the death of Heath Ledger. I dont know why, but his death has made me very emotional especially knowing of his neat personality and the fact he had a daughter. I’ve felt very connected to his personality and the way he thought, and every time I think about him I’ve cried painfully. Though I never had the privilege of knowing of his existence when he was alive, I’ve become very sad and even existential with the idea of death. Being an atheist the thought that everything is final has really made me paranoid. Even though I dont believe in spiritual connections I’ve recently had repetitive coincidences regarding him and it’s made me really freaked out, and cry even more. I wish he could have pursued the life he wanted, and his loss will always impact me deeply.

    • Lia  January 25, 2020 at 9:21 am Reply

      I feel the same way.This past two months i have been grieving.I haven’t crying so much for a person in a while.And i too have been noticing weird things.I hope he is peaceful wherever he is.

  182. AB  December 6, 2019 at 1:19 am Reply

    I realize this is from 2017, and that this person is only famous in small circles, and that she hasn’t actually died yet, but I swear to God, I am going to be so sad the day that Brenda Milner dies. She seems like such a cool lady. I’m actually writing a paper about her and she is incredible. Seriously, if you don’t know her, look her up. She is over 100 and still teaching experimental psychology.

  183. Esme Cristal  December 7, 2019 at 4:30 am Reply

    The deaths of Robin Williams, Cameron Boyce, Sulli, and Goo Hara made me really sad but nothing hit me as hard as Jonghyun’s death. I still remember that day clearly. Sunday night after a long day of work, I went to sleep thinking about how I wanted to see SHINee again (his group). Monday morning, I woke up to tons of notifications saying “Jonghyun has passed away”. I thought it was probably another actor who passed away of old age but it was too many notifications for that to have been the case. I kept scrolling until I saw “SM” (his company). I clicked, saw his picture and that’s when it hit me. I was in complete shock. The amount of pain I felt in my chest was unbearable. I completely broke down. I didn’t leave my room for 3 days. Thankfully I only worked weekends and had a good 4 days to pull myself together. It’s been almost 2 years. I cried for days. Cried myself to sleep for months. It still hurts to this day. December 18th will always hurt.

  184. Mariah Ramirez  December 9, 2019 at 7:49 pm Reply

    Lil peep was a huge one for me, I felt like his music was honest and somewhat relatable and I just fell in love with him. I cried and cried and a little over two years since his death and I am still heart broken. Juice Wrld passed yesterday and I heard about it today in school and I literally froze, I could not believe it was true and when I looked it up I ran to the bathroom and cried. Juice Wrld was my person. Non stop always listening to his music. I swear like I was in love with his music. It was the same emptiness feeling that I got when Peep died . I’ve been crying all day I am completely heart broken that now both of the people that lifted me up when I was down are now gone 🙁 I can’t stop thinking about their families and friends that truly cared about them. It makes me so sad and I’ve known peep was gone for a while but Juice Wrld was not expected AT ALL. I am just honestly so upset about this I don’t even know what to do… It is just completely sad how these 21 year olds left when they were about to lead a legacy in the music world. I really miss peep and juice. This is insane. I’m still in shock. I know Peep died a while ago but I recently watched his documentary and the context around his death made me more upset and I’ve been thinking about it lately. It could’ve been easily prevented. I do not know how Juice died but the same probably goes for them too. It is so sad. Young people with amazing talent that changed the music world are gone. I will probably forever mourn your deaths. 999 & Peep forever in my heart. I miss you both so so much. Thank you for helping me through my hardest times and I will for sure be listening to your music to get through this . RIP Gustav and RIP Jarad : /

    • mel  December 9, 2019 at 10:14 pm Reply

      i really miss juice wrld. he didnt deserve this at all

    • Dan  December 10, 2019 at 4:53 pm Reply

      I acc came on this because of what happened to juice, im heartbroke. Completely unexpected, trippie is the only one left 😓

      • Soren  December 11, 2019 at 12:35 am

        yeah bro I’m on here bc juices death really hit me a lot harder than I thought. His work genuinely helped me way more though tough times than I give for granted. Never cried over a celebrity before now. His music is still here, but it doesn’t feel the same as it did before the 8th. 999 Club 4L♣

    • Samira  December 10, 2019 at 5:57 pm Reply

      I am completely the same. I was in love with juice wrld’s music. He saved my life, he helped me through so so much and now he’s gone. I never got to see him live and I am soooo heartbroken. I genuinely don’t know what to do. I feel empty inside. I have no one to go to because no one I know liked juice wrld. No one understands. I just don’t seem to be getting over his death at all.

      • Dan  December 12, 2019 at 2:38 am

        Y’all hmu on sc dking02king we can talk bout juice, reminisce all the good times and songs. U dont have to feel alone, I know all too well. Juice WRLD, until the world blows. ₆⁶₆ 4L

      • Ashley  January 28, 2020 at 6:44 am

        Love Juice WRLD
        Wish I would of discovered your music sooner

  185. Angie  December 11, 2019 at 3:47 pm Reply

    When I found out about Juice Wrld’s death on I think December 8 at night I was heartbroken. I was sitting on the couch and the news came on and at that moment I remember hearing the news anchor say that Juice Wrld had died. I was in shock. I didn’t know what to think and at first, it didn’t even seem real. I can’t even imagine going through his substance abuse problem, but I still feel like I connected to him on a deeper level. In my house we are Christian, so my mom frowned upon JW so I didn’t feel like I can let my emotions out at the time. When I was alone in my room that night I cried myself to sleep while listening to a playlist dedicated to him. I didn’t want to believe that he was dead. It has been really hard for me and I have been thinking about every single day. He was such a LEGEND. And to think now that he won’t be making any more music and Goodbye and Good Riddance, Death Race For Love and his EPs and singles are the only pieces that I have left of him is really hard for me. My heart goes out to his family, friends and his girl. I love you JARAD:( You made such an important impact on my life and really made me happy. You will never be forgotten. RIP.

    • Steven S.  December 11, 2019 at 4:15 pm Reply

      Thank you for this, I can’t even seam to listen to his music anymore but I’m trying… not many people I know around me enjoyed his music, so I kinda keep it to my self…

  186. J  January 6, 2020 at 5:36 pm Reply

    I will never stop grieving for Chester Bennington. It’s like I’ve lost a big brother or a good friend. The world has lost a beautiful person with amazing talent.

  187. Shannon  January 21, 2020 at 4:02 pm Reply

    The Eagles have been a huge part of my childhood and life still now. My father who passed away is the person who introduced me to them and I was very close to my dad and felt such a huge connection and love for the Eagles music. Glenn Frey’s passing back in 2016 didn’t effect me as much then as it does now. I remember pushing it aside like it didn’t really matter but lately I have been grieving after seeing a reminder online about how it’s been 4 years since Glenn Freys death. With losing my dad who I really looked up to and then later losing an inspiring musician who I really looked up to, it feels that much worse. I broke down the other day and I felt crazy until I saw this. Thank you for making my sadness feel normal. The one person I confronted about it didn’t, and it’s really hard when you respect them so much and they don’t validate your pain. 🦅❤️ Take it easy Glenn Frey! And thank you for your support!

  188. Shannon  January 21, 2020 at 4:25 pm Reply

    The Eagles have been a huge part of my childhood and life still now. My father who passed away is the person who introduced me to them and I was very close to my dad and felt such a huge connection and love for the Eagles music. Glenn Frey’s passing back in Jan 2016 didn’t effect me as much then as it does now. I remember pushing it aside like it didn’t really matter but lately I have been grieving after seeing a reminder online about how it’s been 4 years since Glenn Freys death. With losing my dad who I really looked up to and then later losing an inspiring musician who I really looked up to, it feels that much worse. I broke down the other day and I felt crazy until I saw this. Thank you for making my sadness feel normal. The one person I confronted about it didn’t, and it’s really hard when you respect them so much and they don’t validate your pain. I love and respect all of the Eagles, incredible men, Don Henley, Joe Walsh, Timothy Schmit, and even those who have moved on Don Felder and Randy Meisner! I know it will only get harder as they all age, and I’ve yet to see them in concert although I’ve heard Deacon Frey is doing a great job filling in for his father.
    Take it easy Glenn Frey! ❤️🦅

  189. Shannon  January 21, 2020 at 4:34 pm Reply

    I love and respect all of the Eagles, incredible men, Glenn Frey, Don Henley, Joe Walsh, Timothy Schmit, and even those who have moved on Don Felder and Randy Meisner! I know it will only get harder as they all age, and I’ve yet to see them in concert although I’ve heard Deacon Frey is doing a great job filling in for his father. But this website has giving me such a “peaceful easy feeling” after been down the past few days.

    “I get this feeling I may know you, as a lover and a friend. This voice keeps whispering in my other ear, tells me I may never see you again” the eagles lyrics seem to hit harder now than they ever have. The eagles are the band that made me fall in love with music since I was a very young child and I’ll forever be grateful for their work! ❤️🦅

  190. Alejandra Castro  January 26, 2020 at 10:54 pm Reply

    I still cry over Juice WRLD it’s crazy how someone you never met can affect your life like no other. I saw Juice in concert and I’m so in love with his music, I could relate and vibe so hard, he passed the day before my birthday so as you can imagine i cried all day at school because of his death. He has so much talent and genuinely made me happy. His concert is unforgettable to me, I have his shirt above my bed and i wear my lucid dreams necklace around my neck in the open with pride. I hope Juice will watch over me, I hope i can make him proud, i pray he’ll watch over me and listen to my thoughts as i silently cry over him like i am now. I will forever cherish his music and the music videos i have of him. #LLJW #ForeverInMyHeart #999 #ILoveYou 🙁 </3
    thank you for all the music and leading my lost soul while you could. I can never love someones music like i love yours. People may make fun of me for crying over you but i dont care. 999 forever and always. i love you Juice Wrld. I hope you vibing hard of their, with all the other legends because legends truly never die.

    • Ashley  January 28, 2020 at 6:41 am Reply

      I feel the same why and the crazy thing is I don’t listen to rap much and I am way older than juice WRLD I am 30 but his voice is so touching

  191. Lauren Stanford  January 26, 2020 at 11:48 pm Reply

    Kobe Bryant, Rest In Peace.

    • Mariam  January 30, 2020 at 11:12 am Reply

      Wow, I am reading this article because I am grieving the Bryant’s and I have been thinking its abnormal. But seeing your comment made me realise its not just me. It feels so hard but it’s not like I knew him or his family personally. may they RIP

  192. Elaine Morgan  January 27, 2020 at 2:14 pm Reply

    When Chester Bennington passed a hole opened up in me I’ve never been able to fill. Chester and linkin park healed me so many times and 8n so many ways. 2 weeks after Chester passed my father was diagnosed with stage 4 carcinoma. I’ve never really healed from either of those horrible losses. I have Chester’s flames now on my lower arms and my father’s dog tags on my chest.

  193. Nun yo  January 27, 2020 at 8:20 pm Reply

    You all need to get a life.

    • Ur mom  February 7, 2020 at 11:04 pm Reply

      That is not ok to say people actually go through this stuff

    • Anonymous  March 7, 2020 at 1:27 pm Reply

      “Get a life”????? Yeah, right.

      Even though I am not easily comforted (because, similar to Princess Diana, I am a “highly sensitive person”)….without the music of the Choir of King’s College, Cambridge (the choir Sir Stephen directed for 37 years), I’d just sit staring at the walls. In this day & age of mass shootings, ISIS terrorism, & now even pandemics, I NEED to feel close to heartthrob Sir Stephen Cleobury, because of his music & the kind of person he was. And in the “friend zone” category I need to feel close to Kinkade & Princess Diana.

      “Get a life”? No thank you.

    • Gabby  April 8, 2020 at 2:07 pm Reply

      I find that offensive.

  194. Kelly  January 27, 2020 at 8:56 pm Reply

    Prince and David Bowie ….two hardest. Also Tom Petty. All gone too soon. Collecting up their vinyl. Peace out Legends.

  195. KJ  January 28, 2020 at 12:23 am Reply

    Neil Peart. The changing music of Rush has been such a huge part of my life and changing me for nearly three-quarters of my life. Peart, playing percussion and writing all of their lyrics has been the heart of that music. It has hit me really hard. Even though they’ve been retired for a few years, the “there will never be anything new” is a big part of this. Now there REALLY never will. Also, their music has resonated with me in some of my darker times, and has sometimes made me feel understood and *seen* in a way that nothing else really has. Even though I didn’t *know* him, or any of the band, it feels like I’ve lost a friend.

  196. Jordan Wolfson  January 31, 2020 at 7:54 am Reply

    I’m here because quite a few celebrity deaths have hit me hard. Chief among them, Chester Bennington, Kobe Bryant and Neil Peart. Chester touched me because his music saved my life, and i’m not ashamed to admit that. Neil because he’s the man who inspired me to sit at a drum kit. Kobe, because i loved watching him play basketball and he gave me so many countless hours of awe and entertainment.

    RIP to all three of them, and any celebrities whom you all might be grieving. Being sad about them passing is not a sign of weakness! We are strong together!

  197. Emma  February 2, 2020 at 3:26 am Reply

    I’m here because I’m grieving for the Bryants. I just can’t shake it off from feeling tremendously sad about what happened and how much of a terrible loss it is to his family. His babies who will grow up not knowing him, his wife mourning her husband and daughter, the fact that this time last week they was still here not knowing what the next day will bring. The three teenagers on the flight that had their whole lives ahead of them. Such a tragedy, it’s so sad.

  198. Eve  February 3, 2020 at 5:15 pm Reply

    I’m here after lil peep it hurt me so much because I really connected with his music and the artist , the main reason for my grief is the fact there are no tours and no way to meet the artist who gets people through problems and it hurts how he is not making anything new and it’s upsetting i just miss him so much 💔

  199. Sandy  February 7, 2020 at 12:20 pm Reply

    When I read of other people dying whether they are famous, or not…I remember how it felt when my husband died unexpectedly and I feel it so deeply. I have an idea how other people feel when they suffer a loss.

  200. Shannon  February 16, 2020 at 5:58 pm Reply

    It’s crazy how after 7 years (this year) I still cry at the sight of Cory Monteith. I still can’t watch Glee without feeling complete sadness & sobbing. I see how happy his face was whilst behind closed doors he was battling a silent battle. I often cry when celebrities who I like, die, such as, Robin Williams, Alan Rickman, Bruce Forsyth, Terry Wogan, Chester Bennington, the list goes on.. but this is one celebrity death I can’t seem to shake. I searched for the answer to this question & I’m so glad I found it. I’m so glad seeing all these comments, I’m not alone. I’m not some crazy weird person heartbroken at the loss of someone I never knew & who didn’t even know I existed lol thank you all for helping me maintain my sanity! 🙂

    • Anonymous  April 7, 2020 at 11:25 am Reply

      I came here for the same person before he died he was an idol of mine and I recently started watching glee again and I can’t stop crying I think about how Lea lost her love and how he died in such a sad way. He was always so respectful and had a smiling face and I wish he was still alive every day.

  201. Angel  February 16, 2020 at 9:04 pm Reply

    I know without a doubt I will be devastated when Dolly Parton passes, I am praying there will be many more years before that happens. When she announced she was recording tracks to be released after her death it really hit hard that one day this world will be without her & I am sad at the thought of a world without Dolly 😭♥️

  202. .  February 17, 2020 at 6:27 pm Reply

    Caroline flacks death really hit me hard, I just felt that she was a genuine, caring, loving person that deserved the world. I feel sad that it could have been prevented in some way but I am just praying she is at peace. I wish she knew how much she was loved and how much support could have been given to her, I wish she didn’t feel like there was no other way out.

    • Ellie R  February 18, 2020 at 5:19 pm Reply


      • Jeremy Raybould  February 19, 2020 at 2:08 am

        Hi, I know how you feel
        I find my self grieving for someone I didn’t know personally but it’s intense, I suppose that’s it with celebrities we feel we know them because we get to see them entertain us and we end up knowing a lot about them though social media etc.
        Caroline was a beautiful woman but apparently she couldn’t always see that and had bouts of depression throughout her life a lot stemming from her school days when she’d be bullied. It’s so tragic that she couldn’t find help she so desperately needed.

  203. Anonymous  February 21, 2020 at 4:29 am Reply

    I have been a close friend of Michael Jackson for a very long time. If I recall we first met in 1986 at a reunion of some sort back in Chicago. We clicked immediately. I’d visit him often and just talk the night away. He has mentioned all the time how much he LOVED his fans. That he wished they all truly knew that each and every one of them has been a push to strive for greatness. I was the very few friends he had left after the allegations were brought up. I was always there for him. He knew that his fans were always supportive. I loved him as much as you guys did and please take my word that he loved everyone. Even if they were after him. He was a very forgiving man. I remember, I was saying goodbye to him the day before he passed. He was just leaving rehearsals that he generously invited me to. It was a very emotional evening because Michael was talking to his crew and thanking them for all they were doing. He said to me before he left, “How about we go back to Neverland this week and see how long we can stay on the zipper?” Always was a child at heart. Then he said “I hope you know that I truly love you, you are a great and loyal friend that I don’t have many of.” And I will never forget our last hug and kiss. Michael will forever be the King of Pop and I was glad to have him as a good friend. May you rest peacefully now Michael. Now that these allegations are once again proved to be false. I love you, applehead.

    • Anonymous  March 7, 2020 at 1:30 pm Reply

      Applehead! Cute nickname. I’m not a fan of non-classical music, so MJ’s death didn’t affect me, but I know there are lots of people who were affected by it. I respect that.

      But the point of my replying to you is to say that Applehead is a cute nickname. Did you make it up?

  204. Ciara G  February 27, 2020 at 4:22 pm Reply

    A death that hit me hard was the rapper “Juice wrld” in December of 2019. The reason this one hit me so hard was because his music really spoke to me and although his songs were about drugs and depression, I related to the depression part and feeling hopeless. The drug part didn’t really apply to me but like I could tell how he felt through his lyrics and why he felt the need to do drugs. I woke up on the morning of his death and my best friend had texted me “Juice wrld is dead” for a second I froze but then I started crying. Why was I crying? Because for one he was so young and he was trying to better his life. His career was just taking off. I have so many memories connected to his songs and he really helped me through my rough days. I feel horrible that I’ll never get to thank him in person for sharing his stories and his words that helped me.

  205. Scott Peacock  March 3, 2020 at 4:40 am Reply

    I recently grieve for Love Island tv presenter Caroline Flack who recently committed suicide whilst waiting trail for being access of attacking her boyfriend Tennis player Lewis Burton. I felt like I knew Caroline as she was always much of the TV landscape whether she was presenting the X Factor with Ollie Murs or love island. Fans loved her.

  206. Anonymous  March 7, 2020 at 1:20 pm Reply

    Princess Diana. She had what seemed to be BPD similar to what I have. And besides, she was a breath of fresh air in that snooty family.
    Thomas Kinkade. No more “glinty” paintings from him? What a bummer, because his paintings were uniquely “glinty”. I love the way everything shone in his paintings. A Kinkade painting, especially of a house or a natural landscape, feels like year-round Christmas. (I love that, because Christmas is the only holiday I truly enjoy.)
    Sir David Willcocks. His arrangements of Christmas carols turned me into a diehard Anglophile. Except for the stiff upper lip & the snooty primness & propriety, I love almost everything about England (not just Princess Diana’s relatives).
    SIR STEPHEN CLEOBURY. I was romantically attracted to him even though I never met him. Sir David was not a heartthrob, just God’s gift to music. Sir Stephen was God’s gift to music AND (to me personally) a heartthrob. So it sucks raw eggs that Sir Stephen is gone. “But you didn’t know him” some cruel people say. “So freaking what?” I snap. “I didn’t know Princess Diana or Sir David either…& unlike Princess Diana & Sir David, Stephen Cleobury is SOMEONE I CRUSHED ON! Don’t you get it?”
    I freaking hate it that Sir Stephen is gone. Of course I freaking hate it that Sir David & Princess Diana & Thomas Kinkade are gone, but they (unlike Sir Stephen) weren’t my heartthrobs. My heartthrobs’ deaths affect me soooo strongly.
    And although I’m a Harry Potter fan, Richard Griffiths’, Alan Rickman’s, & Richard Harris’s deaths didn’t affect me at all because the HP characters I crush on are Molly & Professor Sprout. Snape & Vernon were bad news, & since the role of Dumbledore is not the ONLY role Richard Harris ever played in his life, his death doesn’t affect me. Besides, I don’t crush on Dumbledore; I love him platonically. I’d be very sad if Julie Walters or Miriam Margoyles died, though, because I just loooove Molly & Professor Sprout. I hope Julie & Miriam live to the life expectancy age, that neither of them die prematurely.
    But back to Sir Stephen Cleobury. I miss him like crazy & shame on anyone who doesn’t understand. When people tell me how to feel it’s as painful as if they said, “CRUCIO!!!!!” By the way, I hate the concept of “closure”. That codswallop doesn’t work for me.
    I hope my comments didn’t offend anybody.

  207. Lynnette  March 27, 2020 at 11:14 pm Reply

    I’ve had some major losses in my time and even though they cross my mind constantly, I try not to overwhelm myself with thoughts about them because I become extremely saddened and my emotions are reckless at times. But then there’s the legendary Whitney Houston, who died 8 years ago, but still a constant in my life. Her music brings me joy and pain simultaneously. I had a drug problem and work very hard to maintain my sobriety in fear of returning to a toxic existence. So I understand the challenges of addiction. I grew up to her music and movies, she is one of a few singers who sings I can remember by memory. It also painful to know that she was the joke of the party to many people. The woman who gave you life through her voice was everyone’s punching bag. And fame has a high price. She deserved to be loved with no judgement. She was a child of God and just trying to live her life. Her daughter, Bobbi Kristina had to endure life without her mother and what ever caused her death, was the ripple effects from her mothers tormented soul. It’s a very tragic story and Whitney has nothing left in this world but her art. As a fan, I will keep her a live through the music, through the movies, and countless incredible moments captured on camera. Long live the Queen.

  208. D  April 1, 2020 at 6:32 pm Reply

    I’ve become very fond of Heath Ledger, an amazing actor, and honestly I can’t get him off my mind… he’s got everything to me, the talent, personality, smarts and the looks ! I feel horrible just thinking about how he passed, from an overdose on prescription sleeping meds, in his desperate attempt to get some sleep , he had insomnia.. knowing that he will never Be here again, never create any more work, he’s gone… I feel so so in love with the amazing person he was and it’s something I can barely wrap my head around! I feel crazy because I didn’t even know him, I can’t imagine how is family and close friends feel.. it’s made myself feel so disconnected from God; how could such a pure soul be taken from this earth so young .. I sound crazy but I miss him so much and feel like I can’t accept this !

  209. Tymirrah  April 11, 2020 at 2:37 pm Reply

    A death that hit me harder than I realized was the death of young rapper XXXTentacion. I understand I am still a teen ruled by emotion and I believe that’s what made me feel connected to him, despite his controversial past. His music intrigued me and getting to know him, even from my distance as a fan, was something that touched me. His very sudden death in the summer of 2018, hurt me deeply and I didn’t understand why it had, even though I’m sure I understood deep down. He was someone who I listened to for he had music for my varying and confusing emotions. Others that hurt me were the deaths of JuiceWrld, another sudden death of a great music artist in my opinion, and Cameron Boyce, whose death I felt personally hurt my youth, someone I had grown up alongside, gone from the world in minutes. Rest In Peace to all those claimed so young and so full of potential whose legacies and works will Iive on.

  210. King of insanity  April 13, 2020 at 8:18 am Reply

    Lil peep death effects me more than i would think.. he is a year younger than me and I also struggle with substance abuse and depression.. his music inspires me to express myself and to work hard.. but I often cry about his loss I wish I could travel time and save him..

  211. Zigzagmolly  July 5, 2020 at 2:15 am Reply

    All the musicians I grew up with are getting older. I LOVE their music and will miss them so much. Just saw CNN’s The Fourth of July and they had so many older musicians, some of them singing with youngsters. Burt Bacharach is 92 yrs old. Kenny Loggins, Jesse Collin Young and Santana are in their 70’s. Then there is Elton John, Billy Joel, Paul McCartney. I am going to miss them so it makes me cry. Thank God their music will live on! I share it with my grandkids I am raising. And when I get to heaven, I get to meet them and sing with them. I love them!! They give me so much happiness! I don’t think I would survive without music.